blame it on charissa. she wrote something about loving High Society songs in her facebook status and of course i went to comment about it! i'm a huge fan of High Society after all. while she linked a video of maksim's still water on facebook, i went to High Society's website to look at the discs (she bought A Love to Remember 3 for her friend). right on top of the songlist of that album was maksim's Still Water. went to youtube to find the video because the link charissa uploaded on facebook was too soft, but that seem to be the only decent video in youtube (the rest was renditions by netizens). so i upped the volume and ZOMGS, i'm in love with the song.

it has that super melancholic feel, and it was written somewhere that it was one of the calmest/saddest song of maksim. as i listened to the song (on repeat), images of lovers being separated in the ancient european (mainly italian/british/parisian i don't know why) times came into mind. it also reminded me of Mono's Life in Mono, probably it had the same haunting feeling too.

and then i started listening to maksim's other songs and i must say i'm quite impressed with some of the tunes too (i only had Croatian Rhapsody in my itunes previously), like New World Concerto (which was featured in A Love to Remember 2) and Exodus. in super instrumental mood now!

anyways. met up with shiyun for lunch in jp at around noon time. (cuz a few days ago i decided that we shall meet up and thus we did) because of her fantastic phone app, i bought Steve Berry's The Charlemange Pursuit. i suppose it would be a good read, because i'm a fan of steve berry too! i have a feeling i would have tons of books to catch up on during the summer holidays, because i've noted down so many book names in this trip to Harris! probably gonna ask the bwg boys to buy books back for me from taiwan! and i still have a handful of books unread lying in my bookshelf. rahs.

went to Ambush for lunch after much deliberation (used shiyun's phone app again and we had intended to go Fish & Co before we got attracted by the smells of Ambush). had paella! was a rare treat because this spanish dish is quite hard to find! had clam chowder too!

had haagen-dazs for dessert and it's shiyun's fault cuz she said she wanted to have dessert and in the end she didn't eat. shld have bought the cappuccino truffle ice-cream! chocolate chocolate chip has disappointed me this time. went to the bank before i headed back to hall to write my essay. i'm about done okay! just need some editing.

anyway was testing out Hipstamatic app in my phone and it's marvellous! love the tone and feel. the first two photos were taken with John S lens, and the one above was taken with Kaimal Mark II. all three used Ina's 1969 film without flash. fantastic! lomo takes second place for now! :D

feel like posting up this picture cuz the kid is SUPER CUTE! he's called Lincoln and he's the son of one of our hall fellows, Prof Toon (pronounced that way). he's very bubbly and ran around during wednesday's hall supper and yesterday's dialogue session! ANDDDD he has damn long eyelashes. like wth! what's wrong with kids these days man. all have long eyelashes! my younger cousin chen xin hao (which yy likes to call it as chen xin hong - aka 阿信) has damn long eyelashes too! zomgs.

i nearly had a photo of him looking straight into my camera. ohwells. next time then. :D

okay back to editing my essay before packing my bag for tomorrow's recce after the Run Around Singapore thingy!

10:49 PM

super bloateds!

was mad crazy to eat like 2.5 pkts of nasi lemak (even though the rice and otah are SO NICE) for hall supper! was zam sads that i didn't manage to kop alot of puddings! i thought i would get to keep the box full of puddings but all those kiasu residents just rummaged through the boxes and found my hidden stash! eventually jasper had to give up one of his puddings to me cuz i haven't eat yet. (too full from nasi lemak you see)

with the end of hall supper my duties as block rep has more or less concluded! cuz all that's left is blk suppers by blk 46 & 48, and then maybe helping out for next academic year's ibg if i'm staying in hall!

then just now in xueshen's room somehow got to the topic of staying hall next year, and chairing of projects and stuffs. clement called me vp and i'm like huh?! told him about my plans and he said if that's the case i might have competitors, so i might as well just be vp cuz the position is usually taken up by ex blk rep. see how lahs.

quite happy that i'm more or less on track for my studying this week. i have completed my reading for tmr's tutorial before hall supper! BUT I HAVEN'T START STUDYING FOR MY QUIZ NEXT WEEK. and the readings are horrible. then i have recce, run and a few other million things this week. like meetings and mini competitions. zomgs. zam stress.

anyways saw someone today and i keep ignoring him. feel zam mean/bad etc but i just dun feel like acknowledging him. there are times we kinda like saw each other but i dun even want to say hi! that's how much i want to stay away from him. zam bad.

argh. shall go sleep with a bloated stomach. but i'm super thirsty! and i need to start starving myself to prepare for the buffets next week!
12:27 AM

ahahaha. i just can't resist embedding more a1 videos here! ♥♥ this is the latest single, Don't Wanna Lose You Again, released by a1 around jan/feb period this year! and here's another performance by them in norway! ohmans if only i was in norway! so envious of the people going norway in the second half of the year! (namely weiwen edmund glendon clement) cuz i think a1 will continue having loads of performances in norway! RAHHHH. ):

a1 please come over to singapore for a concert and i promise i will buy the most expensive ticket! LOL. has been spamming their songs (everytime and don't wanna lose you again) ever since friday and i'm still NOT sick of them!! wahha.

anyways. felt like blogging about my starbucks fetish for the past couple of weeks. ever since last last saturday (6march), i've started buying starbucks like once a week! first was dark mocha frappa, then last week was green tea latte frappa with chocolate chip muffin, and today was hot chai tea with chocolate chip muffin.

felt damn shiok eating the chocolate chip muffin la! because unlike those cheaper ones sold in bakeries, there's chocolate chip even within the muffin itself other than those on the top! super ups! didn't manage to eat my muffin today so i'm gonna have it for breakfast tomorrow! ooohhh. (:

but the chai tea was too peppery for my taste. wanted to save the cup but can't cuz it spilled. and so i threw it away. but i saved the other plastic cups! think gonna use it as storage or sth. (:

gonna be at home for the weekend! but i need to curb my tv cravings and stop watching so much tv. in fact, i'm sitting in the living room watching tv as i'm using my laptop! jialat mans. :D

9:55 PM

just now was looking at the live feed on fb (i camp there regularly) and i saw this feed from yizhin about a1, and her friend commented that a1 is coming back. and so i googled and then wiki-ed.

a1 is coming back!!! *squeals and throw confetti around

i dun think anyone of you knew, but i'm a BIG FAN of a1. i adored them more than westlife or backstreet boys. for some strange reason but yeah i love them to bits, even though they didn't manage to make it as big as westlife or bsb. i still remember back then i listen to Power 98 every day, partly because they seem to adore a1 too! somehow in that radio station a1 songs always hit the top of the charts! and the boys would do interviews with the radio station!

and of course my favourite was Ben Adams, the lead singer of the band.

i mean, it's not difficult to see why right? lol. mark was a close contender but c'mon, ben is the baby of the group and closest to my age (he's born in 1981). and his blue eyes... AWWWWW. not to mention he sings damn well! he can play classical piano, oboe and violin, and he got a scholarship for his musical talents! he also have performed regularly for big shots like the queen and the pope! like zam zai ok! but the bottom line is that he's cute la! hahas.

back in those days i hunted down all the local mags that features them and i do think i still keep some of them at home! though sometimes i just find his hair kinda disturbing. lol. but well, nick carter used to have similar hairstyle so i guess it's a typical heartthrob-of-the-band look. (i think kian egan and nicky byrne from westlife used to have similar hairstyle too, but kian totally cmi. nicky was better. :D)

and as i look back at those videos, i find them quite cheesy with those super close up shots of the band members. it's quite unnerving actually, unless it's featuring ben! (that way i can look at his eyes again!! lol) and i still remember how excited i was when they announced that they are coming over to singapore to film their single No More! but i was primary 6 and i can't go out by myself! if not i would probably try to find them. lols.


i bought all their albums (originals ok! and i was in primary school so you can imagine how hard i have to save in order to buy!) and i was damn mad at my bro for kinda destroying their first album Here We Come cuz i can't listen to Heaven By Your Side on stereo! (and i used to link that song to Angel Sanctuary, the manga which i was reading back then) i was so upset back then in 2002 when they split up after their 3rd album, Make It Good. it was a good album because they're no longer sticking to those bubbly pop songs and going for a matured sound (not like westlife!). i loved the entire album!

and 8 years later they are back! (without paul though) wiki said that they're gonna release a new album in spring, so it should be quite soon! super looking forward to it! but then when i was at ben's wiki, it was written that a1 will reunite for the last album! noooooo~ listened to their new singles and they were not bad! (:


anyways here's a matured ben at 29 years old! so much better aye! was googling for his pictures when i saw this topless pic of him. i was like zomg so hairy?! and then i remembered i've never seen any topless pic of him 8 years ago. and then there was another photo of him completely naked save for an object covering the most important part. i was like zomg again. lol!

seriously, seeing ben and the rest of a1 just reminds me of the past. it was around 10 years ago when i first listened to their music! oh how time flies! and i'm ready to fall in love with ben all over again!!! hahahas. so excited! (:

going for sakura buffet with hpy on 28th and then xiaolongbao buffet with yy fy jq on 31st! gonna gorge myself to no end! lols. and the launch event on sunday was rather fine! met up with peeps and though i was damn tired but it's worth it! i'm super looking forward to the summer hols!

If I can't have you and if the love we have is gone
And if you just can't find it in youself to carry on
And if you have to leave and take my life forever
'Cause I wouldn't be with anybody else
If I can't have you

11:40 PM

today had been some sort of whirlwind day. to an extent it was quite fun though i still can't quite believe i've actually did it. and yes i have a lot of stories to tell. i'm the intelligence unit in hall9 after all. though my satellite is limited to arnd mainly 46 & 47. :D

classes were normal as usual. went for the 203 tutorial without reading any of the readings cuz i was trying to finish the reading which i'm doing for presentation on monday. seriously i think my tutor is funny. not the good funny but the bad funny - us students laugh at him cuz he's so retarded. for example, he came in today in his ethnic garb - he's bangladesh btw - with aviator shades. like seriously?!

joked to jasmine and georgin that he wanted to avoid acknowledging the students as he doesn't want to put on his situated identity as a professor (sth which we learned during 204 lecture on wednesday. 学以致用ok!) and then there's this andrew time cuz the prof always looked to andrew, the guy who initiated the mass emailing of our batch of students to change tutorial classes before the start of school last sem.

back then i had this funny impression of him as a total geek who wants to run for soci president or sth. my impression did differ a bit from the andrew in reality (as in from what i see) when i have 2 tutorial classes with him this sem. but he's still some sort of geek i guess. he wears the same loafers which don't look suitable for his age (it looked like what my dad will wear!), but i must admit his nike jacket was damn nice.

don't get me wrong. he just happened to walk around in class to help our fellow classmates to set up the laptop presentation - he's the only guy in the class after all - almost all the time. and our dearest prof loved him to bits that he always looked at him for opinions as some form of conclusion for each presentation. even though he didn't want to really comment but he had no choice! but it was quite awesome that he can come up with something even though he didn't plan to comment. and i also got remember about the dependency theory during the tutorial today ok!

anyways. after the tutorial headed towards north spine for food. was deciding between the quad at sbs, or canA. i ended up at macs cuz i wanted to eat the hot and spicy shaker fries (even though i was totally turned off by jamie oliver's depiction of the manufactured chicken nuggets - processed meat + processed fats + some sort of flour or sth - in his documentary. the kids in the show was grossed out). met georgin and we went over to oldcanA to study. went to buy my lunch later on cuz it was still breakfast hour. finished my reading and i decided to take a nap at 12pm. when i eventually woke up, it was 1239, ie my hw111 lecture has started!

georgin was at the opposite table in a midst of discussion (we were supposed to go for the lecture. gina was there too btw but she had decided to pon the lecture). so i decided to continue napping until close to 1pm. turned behind and was surprised to find marcus and ivan sitting behind. chatted a bit before me and georgin left. oldcanA felt quite nice to study because it's windy and everything, but when i woke up at 1, the place was practically swarmed with people! bobian, it's like 1+ month to exams so everyone has started mugging! what a turn-off. i think i will be satisfied with reading room in hall.

went to leeweenam library to find a book to use as secondary source for my presentation. can't find it in ntu libraries but i found it in nus library! so recruited fangyi's help to borrow the book for me - need card to get into central library! so mafan. and i jumped into the pioneer bus which arrived within minutes after i reached the bus-stop, and off to nus i go!

but when i was on the train, fangyi texted me and said the book cannot be found on the shelf! but the catalogue said that it's available!! like WTH?!! zam disappointed and i contemplated alighting at the next stop and head back to ntu - after all, i can still do my presentation without the references.

but i didn't. instead, i alighted like 6 stops later at outram park, and off to people's park complex i go! bought koi - oolong milk tea ftw! large cup summore! and it happened to be the outlet which i bought my very first cup of koi bubble tea (and it's oolong milk tea! i always drank this except for once when i bought 梅子绿茶, which is too sour for my taste). then headed back to ntu after i found another book which was available in business library.

went there, borrowed the book (i forgot to bring my matric card but the lady there was nice to give me one chance) and headed back to hall! and here i am, typing my encounters! not going back this weekend cuz need to finish the presentation, and tomorrow night i'm going over to hq to sleep after i'm done with my stuff in hall! sunday is Heart2Heart@Launch! i'm quite nervous you know. :x


please come down to vivocity and give us your support this coming sunday!!


oh did i tell you? i'm totally crazy over this show, 就想赖着你! by ella and jerry, and it's damnnn funny! found a 知音 in yuenyin when i commented to wanyee on monday that i'm zam tired cuz i watched the vcd version on youtube until 4am and she said that yuenyin also watched! so the two of us started discussing about the storyline excitedly. i was even watching it when i was having dinner with the rest in can9 on monday lor! hahas. but stopped after monday cuz was mad busy with all the stuff to do.

things will be going back on track after monday! wt jiayou!
5:34 PM

just now while i was in the pantry making mee goreng (yes i'm lazy to go down for lunch on tuesdays cuz i have the whole day free!), one of my gls came in with his gf and they like hestitated for a while before he asked me if i've brought out my tap card. it wasn't with me so i went back to my room to get it and opened the toilet door for his gf. (this is something which me and some other girls in level 3 often do cuz there are quite a number of girlfriends from other blocks or not from this hall)

and then i just have this strange feeling rising up.

we (the og) had a htht session during foc when we were in sentosa after sp night, and he revealed to us that he broke up with his gf during the earlier part of the foc. so we obviously went oh we're so sorry to hear that!

and guess what, a few weeks after the foc, rumours of another girl and him in hall started spreading around. though they weren't quite obvious, i've heard news about it, and at a point of time, i was within the loop of info (ie the girl was talking abt it when i'm arnd). she talked about the 暧昧 things the guy has done etc and back then i was thinking they recovered quite fast (for the girl had ended a relationship either prior or in the midst of the rumours)

just as abruptly the rumours had started, the rumours ended. and a few more weeks later, the girl started visiting another room at lvl3 more frequently and one night when i saw the new guy ran upstairs with a framed puzzle (of mickey and minnie mouse sitting on a terrace overlooking the beautiful view of santorini). i was damn sure that was the night which marked the start of a new relationship.

as if to compete with the girl, the guy got together with another girl and brought her to hall during the december holidays. somehow i just have this feeling that the guy was multi-tasking within the 3plus month period, or he wasn't even serious with the girl at all. on top of that, i've always heard things about him being womanizer and stuff, so i guess i've a fixed impression of him.

as for the girl..i don't know if i should say she recovers very quickly, or she didn't put in alot of feelings into the relationships, considering how quickly she had switched from one to another. or maybe it's because we are in a hostel. we see the people on a almost daily basis, so it's easier to 日久生情? (which is why there are many couples in hall, and why there's such a term called the first sem syndrome - where the freshies and the laojiaos met and live together in the same hall/block?)

or maybe like what 单无双, and many people in the older generation thinks, us 七年级生 (ie those borned from 1980s and beyond) falls in and out of love too easily - thus the term 速食爱情 came along. though i must say there are also healthy examples around, like xueshen and his gf.

or maybe it's just how individuals view this strange thing called love.
12:10 PM

So this one goes out to all of the people how have been broken but have been strong enough to let go. For the people who have hurt so badly that they felt they could never love again, but kept their head up. For those who feel like going back to their old lover would put all the pieces back where they belong and everything would fit, but accept the cold hard truth instead. For the people that learn from their mistakes and never stop moving forward, even when they take two steps back. For the people that wish loneliness wasn't a part of them, but put up with it anyhow. For the people that are okay with taking up all of the room in the bed, even if sometimes it feels a little empty. For the people who wake up in the morning with no missed calls, but smile anyway. For the people that periodically miss the past, but are so much more excited for the future. For the people that have wounds still healing. For the people that have so much tied to their past relationship, but break those chains to start fresh. For the people that want to look back so badly, but focus on the road ahead. For the people that pick up the phone so tempted to call, but keep their dignity in tact instead. For the people that never wanted to let go, but had to. For the people that still believe in love even after all of the hurt their heart has endured.

For all the people that gave up not because they were weak, but because most times it's better just to let go.

This one is for you.
We'll get our happy ending someday.

http://leloveimage.blogspot.com/2010/03/someday.html

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yes we will. though i wouldn't want it to come so fast, like now.

sometimes i do find myself being more friendly to certain guys than others, and i would question myself what kind of relationship i'm expecting with them. more often i would find myself answering friends, though sometimes my answer might differ from what my heart actually wants. like i wrote in last november that things might change, but nothing has changed. maybe because he was often not in hall during the holidays, and i was busy with other things too. it felt kinda nice when we watched a movie on his laptop just so spontaneously (and of all movies, Beauty and the Beast, disney version! lol), but really, nothing was there. though i was teased by the others when someone said that i spent quite some time in his room (for goodness sake, the movie was abt 1.5hrs!).

and then another person said that the someone who said so would be jealous. gosh. somehow i've landed myself in scandals when i'm the kind guys probably wouldn't like. and i haven't been chatting with that someone as much as before already! i suppose the others just teased us based on the silly things we've done in the past.

all i want now is peace with nothing interferring. i'm letting go something which i've tried holding on for 6 months, so the last thing i want now is something similar to come haunt me again. i know i can't control my emotions, but i will try to keep them at bay. i have too much on hand to do right now to be distracted.
2:05 AM