back from taiwan!

it was a great place. i mean, it's totally on the top of my list of countries to go! and it's always been people around me going there except me. so i was super excited when my dad agreed to go! :D

didn't visit a lot of places. we just stayed within the taipei county and visited some of the places that i've wanted to go. like 九份 (partly for the peanuts that's super tasty)

淡水, for the sake of the food 阿给 and 铁蛋. and of course for 淡江中学, jay's alma mater! :D

and also for 渔人码头 + 情人桥! but it's damn hot on the day that i've went there. i got tan lines on my feet after that day! note: do not ever try walking from the 捷运站 (like sg's mrt) to 渔人码头. it's damn long!

taipei 101. ooohhh. :D诚品! like finally!

the taiwanese love dogs. the dogs are like everywhere! you can even find them in a watsons store when the owner is in side for the watsons sale.

being the country that started the whole bubble tea craze, you can find a bubble tea shop practically in every street. this shop is the best because it has my favourite honey lemon aloe vera and 桂花乌龙绿茶!

taiwan's also crazy about teas. in any convenience stores you can find at least 5 types of tea from different manufacturers. it's there where i discovered my love for 乌龙绿茶.

oh there's practically 1 7-11 store (or 全家 or 莱富) in every street! it sells things from facial wash to books to 茶叶蛋 to pre-ordering albums!

which brings me to another point about my favourite thing of taiwan (other than Jay, of course)



OPEN小将!

it's the mascot of 7-11 along with its friends. stumbled along it when i was at a blog of 阿信, who incorporated this cute lil' thing into his Stay Real tshirts.

super cute okay! 7-11 got it on its own sweets, teas etc! i wanted to buy this shopping bag but it's sold out! ):



one thing i've learned from this trip is that my trip would be more worthwhile if i travelled with people who share the same interest as me, because it would be hard for either parties to accomodate to the needs/wants while trying to enjoy the trip. i missed out on Jay's Mr. J restaurant because i know my father doesn't like to eat western food (i mean, standing outside taking pictures wouldn't satisfy me) and some other shopping areas because others would have to wait for me while i shopped.

oh yes this trip i didn't buy as much as the other time when i went england. partly because the shopping is reduced, and partly because i can't find much stuff that is nice, and that i'm only buying souvenirs to a close group of friends of mine.

not to mention i'm not starting work as yet! i'm contemplating if i should just don't work for november and december, since i would have to take so many leaves for the camps and what nots in december. but in the meantime i shall just continue applying for jobs.

and i fell in love with the shows 不良笑花 and 命中注定我爱你! but the latter is really draggy la. ep34 and the main leads haven't reconcile for good yet. =x
6:01 PM

i took walking to another new level today! i was totally ready for a long walk/hike in my comfortable pe attire (sas gomes tshirt + red fbt + my red&black brazilian praia. i'm so red!), backpack. but i soon realised my brazilian praia ain't good for hiking because my right big toe ached after brushing too much with the strap. ):

i nearly walked from blk 400+ to khatib mrt station after getting a trim of my hair. i was planning to walk towards shaughnessy and then turn right and walk straight down to near orchidpark secondary school and then to khatib central and eventually e mrt station. but my dad picked me up (he drove me to e hairdresser) and he's right that i would take super long to walk. cuz i would take like 10mins to bike over the same distance that i've planned to walk.

headed for international plaza to submit my timesheet. was worried that it would rain over there because it started raining heavily when the train reached amk. but luckily the rain has ended when i reached there! so after submitting my timesheet, i walked over to raffles place, this time deciding to get the tehtarik near china square:
the shop, manned by indians, have this very strong ginger smell and sometimes i think i tasted ginger in my tehtarik. it's very sweet but somehow i just like it. it doesn't taste like the conventional tehtarik though. perhaps the indians have some special remedy. noorlin once said it's the only thing you should buy from that shop. it's for $1.50 and apparently it's a hot seller because everyday at lunchtime you would definitely see someone carrying a cup around raffles place area.
then i walked past fullerton, crossed the bridge and then reached esplanade. in the underground pass to the mrt station, there's this series of photos of different ballets performed by the Singapore Dance Theatre which is damn nice! i would like to watch Swan Lake and Sleeping Beauty! when i was young, i read a few series of ballet mangas that featured Swan Lake which is sooo beautiful. i want to see the 32 swirls the Black Swan would have to perform! Sleeping Beauty caught my eye when i read Adrienne Sharp's First Love. super nice!

10:26 PM

让我爱你 然后把我抛弃
我只要出发 不要目的
我会一直想你 忘记了呼吸
孤独到底 让我昏迷

如果恨你 就能不忘记你
所有的面目 我都不抗拒
如果不够悲伤 就无法飞翔
可没有梦想 何必远方

我一直都在流浪 可我不曾见过海洋
我以为的遗忘 原来躺在你手上
我努力微笑坚强 寂寞筑成一道围墙
也敌不过夜里 最温柔的月光

less than 48 hours before going to the airport!

initially planned to go sa tmr afternoon to eat the chicken chop and grilled fish (pattaya rice now only sells on fridays!) and get the $1 bubble tea with coloured pearls, but because i'll be eating a lot in taiwan so i scraped that idea. marcus sia wouldnt have a chance to call me madeline chong! haha.

fell in love with 林宥嘉's songs again, especially 残酷月光 after watching an interview he had on mtvchina.

otc08 committee has officially dissolved as of yesterday, and i can't decide for sure what i would do for next year. talked to some people about it and i still can't find a decision. what junyang said is true, but it's hard to achieve that.

heck. i shld leave that for a couple of months later.
2:49 PM

today marks the end of my second temporary job.

surprisingly, i felt rather mixed regarding the end of this job. i mean, it does have its pros and cons as compared to the one i had at btmu. for starters, i can use internet when i'm bored, just that i use facebook discreetly, and that it's nearer to home as compared to raffles place.

but i've felt more at ease at btmu with the people. it's not that my present colleagues are not friendly (ted treated our lunch group to drinks at jackie chan restaurant the first friday i reported to work!), it's just that we dun click. i did try making some small talk but it's hard la. probably because i'm confined to a lone cubicle. i felt rather fake, as in i was quiet and just smile smile abit. then today yewcheong said that he would remember me as the girl who is always using her handphone during lunch (i was deleting msgs away)

anyway it's already over. i'm out of there, my timesheets are signed, my flight tickets are booked and i'm packing my luggage soon.

how nice it would be to escape from singapore to another part of the world to start a new life. i would like to live in greece (santorini!), prague, france, italy, berlin, the netherlands, canada, sweden, norway, switzerland, taiwan, turkey, south africa, spain... the list just goes on. i didn't want to leave singapore for good initially because i can't leave the people and the things behind. later on i realised that they would still be there if they are meant to be. it's only a matter whether i would remember them, or not. i need to learn to be more 拿得起, 放得下.

some things are just meant to be tucked into the memories for good.
10:07 PM

the release of Jay's album has been postponed to 15october as they are still mass producing the poker cards for all those buying the album! (and also for those who had pre-ordered)

initially was disappointed when the employee at HMV told me it's postponed. but i cheered up at the prospect of having another freebie and i thought it's solely for the Singapore version. later on i went to the JVR website and realised it's for everybody! also okay la. (:

for lunch i ate 2 Chicken Mushroom puff from Old Chang Kee! it's super nice i tell you. it's like a chicken pie (those that i've fallen deeply in love with when i was in London) in a puff! i nearly ate a third one when i told myself don't be crazy. i ended up buying a scoop of lemon ice-cream from Venezia! but it's still a bit too sweet for my liking. lemon's supposed to be SOUR!

my dad told me yesterday that we need to watch what we eat for the next few days before departure so that we might be able to lose some of the weight which we would gain back when i attack all the yummy food in taiwan! i can hear 士林夜市, 华西街夜市, 饶河夜市 and all e other yummy food calling me already! :D

anyway life has been mundane to the max this few days. partly because i chose not to ask if got any work la. haha. thus on this fine day (i think tuesday) i've decided to sms a number of people to make myself less bored and i think i ended up sending up to 100++ msgs that day. not bad, considering i got 2000 free sms. thanks to them, especially the one who replied me for the whole day! i bet you also got nothing better to do. haha.

then today i also sent quite a number of messages out with the main aim to gather some feedback for this new project that i've taken up. then after they replied i also chatted a bit with them! hoho. like i've crapped with shingyi! HAHA. and thanks to the one whom i've chatted with on facebook too! i can call you my FB kaki le mans. everyday you also on FB! stay that way until next friday alrights. :D haha later you see this then you'll probably smack me but you don't know my blog! hoho.

so i'm quite thankful for the people around me who i can rely on! (:

the time is soon ripe to escape
7:44 PM

another year has ended for the annual OTC.

i was very pissed off the night before poc because there had been several issues which made me so irritated and helpless. i changed 3 statuses on FB in the few hours i was in hq and koocheehoe think that my first status was funny: Chong Wei Ting is stuck in HQ. HOLY COW!

then i went home, chatted with some people and it was after some time when i realised out of the 6 whom i had chatted, 5 is from sj. sj has officially infused into my life. haha.

had to do some stupid origami for the tables and i ended up sleeping at 3plus. woke up at 8plus. siao la.

somehow i still think that it's quite a joke that POC is held at Grand Ballroom. i think it was with cheehoe and some other trainees when i told them the truth behind it. i'm not good at keeping secrets for things which i think is ridiculous. ha.


during rehearsal.


me with responder 5! i have been quite unable to figure out why i liked her so much but eventually i realised that she's quite the ideal model whom i want to become to: sporty, 直话直说, strict/stern at the right time, funny and feminine sometimes. she bought culottes and court shoes just for the night! and she's damn unglam ok. after we teased her of wearing culottes when she first arrived, she started pulling up the hem of the culottes to show the shorts underneath! lol

anyway the rest of the photos are on FB as usual. am waiting for priscilla to send us juliet photos and i realised we didn't take a lot of photos together! (as compared to 06) i think it's because one, stupid kong (chin yang) told me and yongsheng to chiong the remaining 3 staff-in-confidence (we had e rest in noon before the rehearsals) before the night ends (when it was already 9plus!) and two, me and ys are running taking photos. with zone ppl, 06 ppl and alpha! as usual junyang had dao face but there's this photo which is definitely FB thread discussing material! all of us laughed when i showed them the photo when we were at hp's house.


zone3 with full attendance! (zone comm came lateee)


i like this photo alot. not because it was with koocheehoe (who got the Best Trainee award without any surprises and whom i like to call full name in english and chinese. i like to call weichee that way too. ahah) but because my hair looked good!

hweepeng said i should keep my hair long because i looked nice in this photo but i still don't know because i don't look as nice in the other photos! and i never realised koocheehoe was that much taller than me and i was wearing court shoes! dammit. and i didn't take with weichee! wasted. haha.

after that some of us stayed in hq and played/chatted while waiting for hweepeng and zipeng to finish staff-in-confidence with cheehoe (poorthings. it was past 11 already!) then to hweepeng's house we go! (me xuanting qingjun william daniel vincent chia zipeng)


i tell you, if not for mj william and xuanting wouldn't have went. haha. and zipeng slept damn early. and i keep losing until the last few rounds lo. damn sian, especially when qj kept winning. xuanting had some good tiles for some rounds and waiting for the last one when qj won. then there was this time when i threw 一万 and the rest of them all 胡 cuz they were waiting for the same tile. #&@*(# but they let xt win. hah.

stayed up until like 6am plus when the rest except for me and zipeng had left. then we went to sleep again.

it had always been my idea to join otc08 after otc06, though i had questioned myself if i'm suitable for it in 2007 after talking to junyang about it in one random chat we had last year. but i'm glad i had followed my intuition and joined the committee.

even though there were lots of crappy things, like the admin head had disappeared after april and i machiam became the head myself and william hafta do some of the admin things by himself because i'm not supposed to know the results and even if i do, i would probably tell some ppl in the committee, but i had really learned a lot from many ppl. such as:

jiang junyang.
i seldom mention him here because of some issues in the past and i think he still reads my blog (maybe when he's very bored or right now when he's scouring through the trainees and maybe even instructors blogs to see what they have to say. but i think he's too busy now) but i've managed to sort them out.

anyways. right at the beginning i had hoped that he would be my SI because i believe i can learn things from him (and i didn't know how xt's like ma). although he wasn't as strict as he was back in 06 (according to hp)and didn't have much free time as compared to 06, i believed he had put in his whole heart (or at least tried) into this otc even though he had hated it. through the chats we had online (it's hard to talk facetoface. ha) and through the emails (to instructors and trainees), i had gained lots of new perspectives and learned to be more critical and everything.

and seriously, the talk i had with him on the first day of camp was really memorable and impactful. i can never thank him enough for showing that side to me and i realised i didn't thank him properly yesterday. he was in a pretty bad mood last night i think. so here's a big THANKS for all your efforts! you will always be one of the few officers whom i really respect in hq and as a friend. (though i don't really agree with some of your behaviour/attitude outside sj la)

juliet
it's a weird group just like juliet06 with an eclectic mix of people inside. i'm glad that junyang had eventually decided to put weichee into juliet instead of tango, because i learned quite much from him, though he opened up only towards the end of the course days. and there's also huiwen kaixin who were frank and sincere in their contributions and evaluations which really got me reflecting.

it's also with this group where i found shadows of myself and realising how mediocre i was. am going to strive hard! and thanks to yongsheng for being my GI and tolerating with me whenever i cut into his moments of inspiration (when he have something to tell the trainees)

and also other instructors like daniel qing'an william whom i had talks with. especially william since we had to coordinate things together after my admin head is gone. i still remember we talked on the phone at 1am regarding failure reports and me helping him edit things until 3am. and also the other laojiao other than mrlee: koocheehoe. although we started out with just random chats, but eventually we would get to our common topic: sj and i learned more!

i'm quite glad that for my first year in otc comm i'm with lotsa familiar people. it's only xuanting junhao yauleung vincentchia zipeng who are the fresh faces. (who cares about dingjun vincentng mans). i guess ivan's right that joining the comm also kinda depend on who's in the comm.

i also want to thank hweepeng to listen to me gush about my ecs! haha. she's like the one who knew every single one of them. :D

okay a super long entry! shall end off here. (:
12:31 PM

something triggered off a series of supposedly philosophical thoughts in my mind since the weekend. more like 庸俗 actually. but that i'm actually thinking, and still thinking about it, is the most amazing part. i have gotten myself to leave that segment behind for a while now but the recent events just hauled it back to me again.

how amazing. because of all those thoughts i'm have been listening to all those supposedly more emotional loud ballads for the past few days.

是很复杂的东西呀

100种生活

整个世界 停止 不转动 很寂寞
走在海边 数着 萤火虫 好困惑
想要的生活 怎么有一百种
不想掉进这深深的 旋涡

整个海洋 摆动 柔软地 举起我
孤单给我 自由 犹豫得 好感动
想要的生活 怎么有一百种
该怎么走 谁来告诉我

每当我背对星空 抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱 不敢说
当我背对星空 孤独摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩 我猜不透
无边的宇宙 哪里有我想要的生活

我那一百种 要在很久很久以后才会懂
我一百种生活

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穹风的[告别月光], 是我最近在看的书. 虽然说网路小说都挺芭乐的(因为主线都是以爱情为主), 但我力挺这个作家, 因为他的作品挺贴近真实, 也挺贴近我的心. 之前有朋友从台湾回来, 其他人叫他买食物或什么纪念品, 我只叫他去诚品帮我买穹风的第一本小说[大度山之恋]

我觉得书中的女主角郑妍贞有点像我. 有点固执, 有点粗鲁(她爱骂脏话). 对于爱情看似勇往直前的感觉. 即使她有了男朋友还是无法控制的跟颜昊均有着互动. 跟我以前一样.

有时我看着日记, 想起以前中学的那段时光, 我只能说我还真是有够疯狂. 可以在同一个时间让心里住着不止一个人耶. 不过现在想想看, 我只是不甘寂寞吧. 我曾经跟一个人聊过以前的男朋友, 我说如果他(其中一个)像他现在那样的话, 说不定我们有可能还会在一起, 但她却说应该不会, 因为我是个很难安定下来的人.

也对. 就像早上我有了一包米粉当早餐, 但我还是会手痒去扒几口放在桌上的炒饭来吃. 我也太贪心了吧.

基于这个理由, 我决定把那些烦人的思绪放在一边. 去做其他想做的事情. 不过我这个人也挺倒霉的. 我想要某样东西的时候, 我偏是要不到. 当我不想要的时候, 它就会接二连三的来, 杀个我措手不及. 就像现在. (原本是不想写出来的, 不过写了也不会怎样, 而且也能帮我整理一点, 何乐而不为呢)

颜昊均那看似顽固且矛盾的性格让我不禁联想起一个人. 说话的态度和语气真的很像, 至于温柔的一面就不得而知了. 我也不想知道, 毕竟有些事情知道了太多是很难脱身的.

anyway it isnt something biggie. just some 感触 about certain anomalies in life which we are unable to control. somemore my 感情观 has always been so different.

不是我不明白 是我不想明白

p.s. i'm going to taiwan three weeks later! ie i'm going to give my one week notice like next week. damn crap la i'm only working for like 4 weeks when it's supposed to be until december. heh maybe i'll ask caren if they need me for kyc after all when i come back. hah.
10:54 AM