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Monday, November 30, 2009

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very, very
Mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me, what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very, very
Mad world, mad world, enlarging your world
Mad world

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xKPk5RvcU4
(embed are disabled so yeah. watch the top8 version instead of the top2 cuz i just find it nicer)

*
watched the video after i woke up. i was watching Adam Lambert's American Music Awards performance (because i finally decided to read the news abt his racy performance) before i wiki-ed him and then go search for his American Idol videos. this is the song (Mad World by Gary Jules, originally by Tears for Fears) that totally blew me away. i love the haunted-feel arrangement at the beginning! no wonder simon cowell gave him a standing ovation.

less than 24 hours to the end of the paper, and about 17 hours to start of the paper! and i haven't complete my readings. holy cow. but bobian, i need to vent out cuz i just have the urge to type on my keyboard. lol. yes i know i'm going bonkers. especially after last night when i practically got the shock of my life.

and then there's _____. darn it. my thoughts and emotions are all tangled up now. can't wait for the escapades after tomorrow.

3:42 PM

Saturday, November 28, 2009

比想像中更痛 你真的沒回頭
我命令眼淚不許失控
回憶不跟你走 都擠在我心中
我就有責任讓它值得被珍重

謝謝你曾讓我難過 謝謝我沒有想太多
當愛情左盼右顧的時候

我眼淚都笑了 誰還想哭呢
再勇敢地站著 找回光和熱
面對你的時候 我不會捨不得
因為你已是過客 因為路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快開鑿綠洲
我沒有時間不知所措
你溫柔的雙手 本就不屬於我
又何必在乎它以後屬於誰呢

我眼淚都笑了 誰還會哭呢
來不及完美的 就唱首離歌
想起你的時候 我不是卑微的
反而我沒有遺憾 因為我已愛過你
深深的
*
或許我並沒有想像中的那麼喜歡,又或者因為他現在不在我周圍的關係。
現在的我並沒有想像中的難過。
即使我知道現在的他,可能在做一個會影響到我的決定。

一切的情緒,就等到他回來的時候才去整理吧。
到了那個時候,我也考完了,也能好好想想有關他的事了。

4:36 PM

Thursday, November 26, 2009

My body is telllling me im reaching my 30s.... says:
and dun feel he is avoiding u, haha. wat if he isnt? then it makes u accusing him wo.. hahhaa.. be norm and be straight to him, like to be with him, then just spend time with him, no need think so much. haha. can means can, canont, u two make out at the end u will also marry off with other guys..
if u cry n feel awacked (*duno how to spell)..while he feels ok, then become he might think u are the weird one to make distances...
then jalat
haha
so nvm him, be it he avoiding or he is not
u be urself
hahha
HAPPY!
tts how u view. then everything is clearer and u know wat u shall do next =)
haha, might be sad, u might be a girl, but wat im telling u is all human shall do
see things +vely, and if ppl say dun think so much, IS BLUFF WAN. confirm will think wan
hahhahaa
so instead of not thinking
go continue n think of it, y not, but view it naturally n +vely..
and u will see wider things
*
woo. i have fantastic seniors in hall! it was words like this that have helped me up along the way. (: and also thanks to fangyi who listened to me one late night when she is having a paper like in less than 48hrs!

i'm not completely fine yet, but i reckon i can survive. as in, i'm learning to deal with the issue by trying to be non-chalant as possible, while at the same time try to engage myself more in his life, such that i might be able to go back to the times when we can chat alot. thus i'm not giving up as yet, gonna just remain as a good friend! i'm giving myself a few more months before he would be like out of sight for a couple of months. in the meantime i will also try not to emo!

and i shouldn't, cuz christmas is in less than a mth's time! (:

anyways, left with one more paper! gonna nua until like maybe sat or sun before i will sit down proper and chiong for my last paper on tuesday! after that it would be gatherings, movies, k-ing sessions, trainings and adjam! (: but right now i need to figure out what i shld do when most of my girlfriends are not in hall! ):

10:44 PM

Sunday, November 22, 2009





it's a song that keeps playing in my mind now. i love the way how the saxophonists played the piece. or maybe it's because i was captivated by the saxophone melody when i first heard it from someone. yesterday he played the all the way until chorus!

student tan said things would probably change a few weeks later and you know what, he may be right. but i'm afraid to admit it because to a certain extent i'm still unwilling to let go.

8:47 PM

Friday, November 20, 2009

they all could have been better. why am i so negligent in details like those? i'm seriously demoralised after all that stuff. why can't i be better?

i'm really losing faith. if he can tease me so blatantly about it, i guess it's really nothing if not there would have been something right? sigh. if only there's a Ctrl-Z in my life i think i would have clicked that button for many times. ):

1:39 AM

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

gosh i can't resist blogging~ and i have been using funtastic and ~ lately. hahaha. FUNTASTIC! everyone thinks i'm too stressed cuz i have this irritating and bigass pimple above my upper lip (when i stuck nexcare pimple patch on it desmond had wondered how come my pimple is so nicely rounded! lol) which wilmond felt like poking it, and i seem to be damn high all the time.

ytd because of shakespearean play act 5 scene 8 i was outside coughing along with xinying peizhi laoda! haha damn funny. then after that i carried my camera around to take photos of jasper foo's posters! i think he'll kill me for posting the photo up if he finds my blog but i have nothing to worry cuz he wun find! wahhaha. so funtastic la, he celebrated his birthday twice! though i dunno what happened to him in the wee hours of this morning. :D



his retarded photo! was all over the place - reading room's door, the door to meeting room, the two main pillars of linkbridge, my level's girl toilet's door, 2 walls on my level, junfeng's room door and many many more! hahahaha. :D (fyi clement is his younger bro but it's not written by him)

oh did i mention we had a funtastic combined birthday celebration last wednesday! for yuenyin clement (they share the same birthday on 14th!) jasper (17th) huiee (16th). it was a major scam as we scammed jasper (the main highlight of the show) and huiee (clement kinda guessed it and yuenyin was totally kept in the dark)! and we had 3 cameras to video everything down! 1 webcam, 1 video cam and 1 normal cam! i watched the videos in the wee hours of friday morning and i ended up not being able to go for breakfast with changtai cuz i slept! ):

gonna mug like mad now. yes i'm a damn procrastinator. desmond was like so annoyed/pissed when i told him i wanna go for asjab's campfire this friday. lormee said he will smack me. :x i'm still undecided. but for sure i'm going home cuz i wanna get a new laptop! it died on me on sunday morning at 3.30am. and i ended up making a trip home just to take the enclosure for my hdd. ): now i'm using van's spare laptop!

and i need to change my sleeping habits. last thursday i didn't sleep (ok la 45 mins which was the crucial time. zzz), friday i think i slept at like 4plus, saturday 7am (which is sunday actually), sunday 5plus, and ytd i went back to my room (my roommate sleeping so i went over to jason's room to study) at 6. and i saw one of my level's resident in proper attire setting out at that time! i think he's gonna queue at leeweenam library. ownage mans. :x thankfully my first paper starts at 5 though. haha. :x

your mere presence unsettles me, and i don't know how exactly should i behave around you. the barrier seems to be diminishing, but i know it's still there. i don't know if i'm expecting anything. maybe i do, but i'm not sure if that's what i really want. but then again, it is impossible for anything to happen, right?


1:53 PM

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

是有過幾個不錯對象
說起來並不寂寞孤單
可能我浪蕩 讓人家不安
才會結果都陣亡

我沒有什麼陰影魔障
你千萬不要放在心上
我又不脆弱 何況那算什麼傷
反正愛情不就都這樣

我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
你懂我的 我對你從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊 請別以為你有多難忘
消失真的不是我逞強

我好久沒來這間餐廳
沒想到已經換了裝潢
角落那窗口 聞得到玫瑰花香
被你一說是有些印象

我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
你知道的我缺點之一就是很健忘
我哪有說謊 是很感謝今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不習慣

我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
愛一個人沒愛到難道會怎麼樣
別說我說謊 人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿

我沒有說謊 是愛情說謊
它帶你來 騙我說渴望的有可能有希望
我沒有說謊 祝妳做個幸福的新娘
我的心事請你就遺忘

8:57 PM

Sunday, November 08, 2009


a short entry before i start my preparation for tomorrow's french oral! i'm crossing my fingers about how much i can memorise! :x

was in some sort of transition mood last week as i rushed out my hs103 essay and start and finish my hw101 assignment 3 (which is also an essay). there were perks along the way, such as the packing of exam goodie bags along with biz mag ppl on monday which was fun! me changtai and huiee were singing along to some of the songs playing on changtai's laptop!

then there's block supper on wednesday which i think went quite well, though we wasted quite much milo in the end. ): and also the overnight mahjong session on tuesday night. was fun and it was practically an oldies songs session because junwen have alot of oldies! and his fridge is epic. :D

then there's dinner with huihui zhenyew chilong xingzhi on thursday and seriously the guys are as funny as before. :D celebrated xueshen's birthday at 12am on friday and a lot of ppl turned up! nice. also celebrated eirene's birthday and i met up with hweepeng! and i went home, and found home to be a sinful place because i kept watching tv. the lure of starhub cable tv was too strong. lol.

but there's also suay things like me falling down on friday morning because i kinda twisted my ankle which made my legs go kinda weak and then my knees touched the road and got scraped in the process. and it was exactly 5 months ago (6 june) when the same thing happened to me. damn suay! and i went to pick up my phone straight after lecture (cuz ended early) and the person told me my phone is beyond repair. ): now i hafta wait till december before i can update my plan or something. :x

other than that...i suppose they are all pretty fine. exams are coming soon so i shall not dwell on them until after exams!

11:14 PM

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

城市里 小星星
稀疏的 亮晶晶
太多光 吃掉它们的身影

就像我 爱上你
隐没在 灯海里
你眼中 只看繁华的夜景

我的爱藏在你的 背影里
想要笑着坚定的恒心

天黑的时候 我远远陪着你
再小的闪烁 也努力放光明
当有天 我在夜空里面 偶尔被发现
希望我眨眼 能感动你视线
想把小星星 排成爱的图形
为你的天空 点缀一些惊奇
即使像流星 一闪而过 寂寞也情愿
不求你看见 只想为你发光 永远

8:24 PM


有个年轻美丽的女孩,出身豪门,家产丰厚,又多才多艺,日子过得很好。
媒婆也快把她的家的门槛给踩烂了,但她一直不想结婚,因为她觉得还没见到她真正想要嫁的男孩。

直到有一天,她去一个庙会散心,于万千拥挤的人群中,看见了一个年轻的男人,不用多说什么,反正女孩觉得那个男人就是她苦苦等候的结果了。
可惜,庙会太挤了,她无法走到那个男人的身边,就这样眼睁睁的看着那个男人消失在人群中。

后来的两年里,女孩四处去寻找那个男人,但这个人就像人间蒸发一样,无影无踪。
女孩每天都向佛祖祈祷,希望能再见到那个男人。
她的诚心打动了佛祖,佛祖显灵了。

佛祖说:“你想再看到那个男人吗?”
女孩说:“是的!我只想再看他一眼!”
佛祖:“你要放弃你现在的一切,包括爱你的家人和幸福的生活。”
女孩:“我能放弃!”
佛祖:“你还必须修炼五百年道行,才能见他一面。你不后悔么?”
女孩:“我不后悔!”

女孩变成了一块大石头,躺在荒郊野外,四百年的风吹日晒,苦不堪言,但女孩都觉得没什么,难受的是这四百多年来都没看到一个人,看不见一点点希望,这让她都快崩溃了。

最后一年,一个采石队来了,看中了她的巨大,把她凿成一块巨大的条石,运进城里,他们正在建一座石桥,于是,女孩变成了石桥的护栏。

就在石桥建成的第一天,女孩就看见了,那个她等了五百年的男人!
他行色匆匆,像是有什么急事,很快地从石桥的正中走过了,当然,他不会发觉有一块石头正目不转睛地望着他。

男人又一次消失了,再次出现的是佛祖。

佛祖:“你满意了吗?”
女孩:“不!为什么?为什么我只是桥的护栏?如果我被铺在桥的正中,我就能碰到他了,我就能摸他一下!”
佛祖:“你想摸他一下?那你还得修炼五百年!”
女孩:“我愿意!”
佛祖:“你吃了这么多苦,不后悔?”
女孩:“不后悔!”

女孩变成了一棵大树,立在一条人来人往的官道上。这里每天都有很多人经过,女孩每天都在近处观望,但这更难受。因为无数次满怀希望的看见一个人走来,又无数次希望破灭。

不是有前五百年的修炼,相信女孩早就崩溃了!
日子一天天的过去,女孩的心逐渐平静了。她知道,不到最后一天,他是不会出现的。
又是一个五百年啊!最后一天,女孩知道他会来了,但她的心中竟然不再激动。

来了!他来了!他还是穿着他最喜欢的白色长衫,脸还是那么俊美,女孩痴痴地望着他。
这一次,他没急匆匆的走过。因为,天太热了。
他注意到路边有一棵大树,那浓密的树荫很诱人。休息一下吧,他这样想。
他走到大树下,靠着树根,微微的闭上了双眼,他睡着了。

女孩摸到他了!他就靠在她的身边!
但是,她无法告诉他,这千年的相思。她只有尽力把树荫蓬起来,帮他挡住毒辣的阳光。
千年的柔情啊!

男人只是小睡了一刻,因为他还有事要办。他站起身来,拍拍长衫上的灰尘,在动身的前一刻,他抬头看了看这棵大树,又微微地抚摸了一下树干,大概是为了感谢大树为他带来的清凉吧。
然后,他头也不回地走了!就在他消失在她的视线的那一刻,佛祖又出现了。

佛祖:“你是不是还想做他的妻子?那你还得修炼。。。”
女孩平静地打断了佛祖的话:“我是很想,但是不必了。”
佛祖:“哦?”
女孩:“这样已经很好了,爱他,并不是一定要做他的妻子。”
佛祖:“哦!”
女孩:“他现在的妻子也像我这样受过苦吗?”
佛祖微微地点点头。
女孩微微一笑:“我也能做到的,但是不必了。”

就在这一刻,女孩发现佛祖微微地叹了一口气,或者是说,佛祖轻轻地松了一口气。
女孩有几分讶异,“佛祖也有心事么?”
佛祖的脸上绽开了一个笑容:”因为这样很好,有个男孩可以少等一千年了。他为了能够看你一眼,已经修炼了两千年。”

3:46 AM