shiyun had cautioned me not to do it when i told her about it. she said i would become a moral hazard if i do so. and she was right. so many problems had sprang up along the way, and in my haste to confirm everything, i just kept screwing everyone up. it wasn't intentional, i was just trying to fix a meeting where everyone can make it cuz i do believe meeting would be more useful than emailing each other. and with the deadline looming near, a meeting where everyone gets to thrash out their views would be more efficient. i think i forgot all the crap stuff that i've endured in the past.

and you know what, it really sickens me. especially on top of the other stuff i have to do. which also make me a moral hazard cuz i'm putting more than what i can handle on my plate. for starters i will stop interfering too much into things that don't relate to me at all. it also tears me trying to make many decisions all the time, and it would make me wanna hide in my ostrich hole again.
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