but nvm. at least i'm happy with my timetable. aside from the fact that my he191 tutorial is from 1430 to 1530 on fridays, and my only lecture on friday ends at 1230, ie either i go back hall to stone for a couple of hours or i stone in the library if i'm too lazy to go back.

this few weeks of school have been great. almost all my nights are filled with something to do, ranging from chionging from can a back hall and then to lt11 in my one night (hall freshmen welcome dinner and odac welcome tea) to just lingering in the seniors' room to chit chat or mug. last night i think mingda was fascinated that me and gina can study in wilmond and yongjie's room for like 2 hours? there's blk supper tonight and i'm gonna run for blk rep (blk head actually) with gina and mingda. has been asking ppl in 47 to vote for me. heh. hope things will go well tonight!


just now went around taking photos of the peaceful blk47 in the afternoon and seriously i can tell you it feels really good, and totally different to the noisy & lively blk 47 (namely level3) at night. it reminds me of those late summer afternoons and i feel totally relaxed. sat at the amphitheatre and went up to the patio to take photos. the sky is really blue! enhanced the blue by switching to vivid blue in my camera. and it's pretty. (: now i really miss the days at home when i would cycle to some parts arnd my neighbourhood to take scenery photos. ): and how nice it would be to have a guitar and strum some lazy songs.

then running. has been procrastinating for the past couple of weeks by telling myself i'm still sick. but at least i've ran twice. ytd's run was abit bad, considering i cant really maintain a steady rhythm for my breathing as i covered the same route with mesy gina priscilla previously. goes to show that running when 心神不宁 ain't exactly a good choice, but at least it kinda helped to clear my mind.

i feel frustration, and it's actually kinda worse than how i've felt in the past. it sucks that after you've promised yourself to do it and you've felt the exhilaration in being able to say that aloud, something just have to pop up to make you feel even worse than before and the frustration then overwhelms you like a huge blanket, engulfing you up. i know i can do it because i've been through it before, but when you're stuck in it it will take like the longest time to get out of it. it takes alot of willpower, and determination. which is difficult as illustrated above in the same paragraph. not to mention i seem to like to make myself more frustrated by keep clicking at things which i don't want to see and could have avoided not seeing.

it will all get better in time.

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已经不想追究
越是在乎的人 越是猜不透