寂しくて 言葉も出ない こんな夜は
君の笑顔 抱きしめ眠ろう humm

ふたりなら どしゃ降りの雨 凍える朝
手をつないで きっと歩ける そばで

I believe 消えかけた あの日の夢
いつでも 手をかざし守る
忘れない

When I'm feeling small
When It's cold outside
I don't know who I should believe
And when I needed someone special
just by my side
Who was there?

I believe someday I will love
Someone who's by my side
Oh someday
My special one will come along
I'll pray everyday

I believe 消えかけた あの日の夢
いつでも 手をかざし守る
So I believe もしも風に ふるえている時は
二人で探そう 日の射す場所

Someday I will love
Someone who's by my side
Oh someday oh someday
I keep on praying everyday

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this song by Yamaguchi Yuko came into my mind quite randomly this morning, and i went to find the song.

didn't watch this show (i think) but i read the book (adapted from the drama) when i was like arnd pri6 or sec1. can't really remember the storyline but it's like the early version of 败犬女王, where soichiro is younger than natsuki. but they didn't end up together. to a certain extent they do feel something for each other, but because of their age (i think) and that they had their respective halves, they didn't acknowledge their feelings and thus merely treated each other as very good friends. one of the websites wrote that to natsuki, kugata represented bread while soichiro represented love. thus choosing kugata meant that natsuki is a practical person, and wondered if she would regret in the future.

she would, but there's no turning back. soichiro could have gotten her to stay by saying something on the day she's leaving with kugata. but he didn't. so whatever that had happened will stay in the past as it is.

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for some strange reason i kept reminscing the past, like old songs that reminds me of the different phases in my life just randomly popping out in my mind, and old dramas that i suddenly felt like watching, eg Over Time and Long Vacation. it's as though i wanna go back to the past, to go through whatever i had went through back then and if possible, change the things that i wished i had changed back then.

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went for ntu odac foot (freshman overseas orientation trip) briefing yesterday. it was a mini reunion for me as i met lauren (lihui. need to start getting used to call her lauren) mychelle jocelyn (from sajc too. 06s18) perrine (northland and anderson junior) my group seems pretty okay budden there's room for improvement. shiyun said maybe everyone will open up even more after the camp starts. maybe.

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过去的，就是已经过去了，不论它是以什么形式存在于过去的时光，或好或坏，它就是以当时的现状凝固下来，不会有改变，能够改变的，只有未来．

~《心跳》