first few days of cny had just gone by like that. nothing much has changed from the past many years of celebration: go back to malaysia on cny eve around noon, go shop around i0i (cuz quite near to my 姑姑's house and has a huge Giant and other shops to kill our time), then back to the 老家 to have reunion dinner that never changes the dishes (go check out in fb) and spend some time there before back to my 姑姑's house to play on my cousin's computer (with a monitor of 22inches wide) then sleep and next morning go church then slack for the whole day before back to the old houses for dinner. the final touch is the breakfast at a dimsum shop that sells the best dimsum in the world (not even Crystal Jade can win) before coming back home.

except that this year we didnt play with firecrackers. the cny eve was raining la! so the fireworks display was delayed until the next night, and i was busy watching Ip Man in the other dimmed house (we dragged over projector!) thus i missed out. and i went to i0i and bought a good deal of stuff from Watson's cuz they are having sale! how cool is that. and i spent the last 1hour or so of cny eve online talking to several ppl, from qj about my boredom, yongsheng abt his pending commando life, alastair about boredom, to william abt otc (ok i know that's pretty no life. HAHA).

seriously, there's really not much of a cny mood over in malaysia, and in singapore too. i mean, we had thrown caution to the wind and wore black! (look at my cousin and the cute baby girl) but then again, my family ain't the conventional chinese family (cuz we go to catholic church first thing in 大年初一) so maybe that isn't pretty much of an issue. but still.

but at least i played some mahjong. whoooo.

this afternoon i watched the dvds of jay's MVs from his last 2 albums, 魔杰座 & 我很忙, and i totally fall in love with him again. haha. i've liked 蒲公英的约定 again. lol. i'm pretty amazed that i've stayed faithful to him all these years (since 2002) when i've grown to like and then dislike many other artistes along the way. more of the idols actually. i mean, i do like Mayday too but this is the longest. (:

my laptop is officially losing its appeal to me, even though there's facebook and msn but other than that i have pretty much nothing to do. like it's 9pm odd now and i'm considering to shut down my lappie soon and go watch Goong or sth. i'm having a headache now and aint fit to read books. i've even contemplated doing maths and reckoned that it would be fun. maybe i shall dig up my old maths notes and start doing them again. goodness.

心里的雨倾盆而下
却沾不湿她的发
泪晕开明信片上的牵挂
那伤心原来没有时差

心里的雨倾盆而下
却始终淋不到她
寒风经过院子里的枝桠
也冷却了我手中的鲜花
8:34 PM

life is so suay!

first is the money thing. wahliao super heart pain can. after that i've told myself to spend less (cuz more or less finish shopping liao) but i still went and bought 2 pairs of shorts (i'm kinda like buy or dun buy new shorts also nothing biggie) and i've got a new pair of heels! quite nice and quite high! shall wear on 初一, when i go over to the old family home from my cousin's house and when we go for breakfast maybe (as a general rule, i usually sleep in or play comp games on chuyi after breakfast. LOL) and i bought 2 bags online! implicated elaine ros hp char eileen along cuz i asked them for opinions! haha we're a bunch of crazy bag lovers.

then my laptop kena soaked! only the base la, when i spilled some water from my hydration pack on friday. but it operated quite fine until this noon when it suddenly switched off without warning! so i panicked. but luckily my computer-smart uncle is back in sg and i managed to contact him so i chionged down to his house in sengkang and by some stroke of luck my comp can work! but i've bought some external casing that cannot work! wth. tmr shall go to the yishun branch and ask about it.

otherwise life is mundane. blehhhhh. kayhwee say i no life leh! wth.

i need to save up loads of money for a new laptop in the second half of the year, as well as getting some The Face Shop cleanser to try out. hmm. so i shall curb my buying sprees for the next few months until GSS! where i would go out on a spreee with hp! dorothy perkins shorts! hoho.

a few more days to cny! :D

it will all get better in time
8:10 PM

过去的，就是已经过去了，不论它是以什么形式存在于过去的时光，或好或坏，它就是以当时的现状凝固下来，不会有改变，能够改变的，只有未来。

《心跳》

4:22 PM

i've decided to cycle over to anderson today because rosalind told me previously that she's not going back. and guess what, she's there! lol.

along the way in the afternoon i've rammed into a railing because they suddenly directed the pedestrian crossing to another side at the area underneath the highway bridge. got some scrapes on my left knuckles and i can't clean the dirt completely off the wounds even though i've used 2 alcohol swabs! i managed to just rub them on my wounds non-chalantly in front of the cadets. how cool is that. haha.

then just tied the tripods while chatting with the guys. so funny! then the sec2s told me they can't remember clove hitch when we taught them during last camp. -.- so it's definitely right that i made them do miniature model and then try on shorter spars while i tied on the longer spars.

after tying went to see the sec3 comp teams do their fancy drill performance. it's really quite cool, and reminds me of the experimental drills that guojie's comp team and arthur's comp team had done. think timing-less drills and command-less + timing-less drills. i think arthur's comp team is da epitome mans. lol. during last june camp they did tukar haluan ke belakang tukar. damn funny can.

for once we stayed in school until damn late. in e past few years they are told to end promptly on 6, but because of preparation stuff and announcements it just got delayed. reminds me of e times when my batch of ncos would go home really late and drops by Summerjoy to buy food and drinks. (:

cycled another way to amk mrt station and realised on e way that my bike dun have torchlight (i'm riding my bro's bike cuz my bike's front wheel kena punctured.) so i met up with rosalind and hp for a short while before i chionged back home.

slightly after i've passed the place where i rammed against the railing, i took a wrong turn and nearly went down a drain! (not those deep ones by the side but between the pedestrian walkway and e road underneath the highway. so it's still quite ok. heh.) then when i was at the bus-stop near lower seletar reservoir i was trying to steer as far away as the guy near the yellow line that my right calf rubbed against the bench and i got abrasion. for a moment i thought i'm going to bleed cuz it's quite painful. lol.

my mum kinda panicked when she saw the bandage on my left hand (i rolled a roller gauze a few rounds around the knuckle area. joked that i'm boxing. :D) and i said rope burn. which is kinda true, just that the rope burns ain't that bad.

shall do more cycling in the future! i thought i would need 45 minutes to get to anderson but i ended up taking only around 30minutes. hehe.
9:42 PM

okok updates!! been busy these few days you know. my brothers all chionged finish my Iljimae DVD (and they kept re-watching! madness) while i just started on disc 3 ok. but nevermind, DVD is meant to slowly watch la! heee.

actually i was out practically every day except for thursday. like on monday (my birthday!) i went out with hp to do cny shopping, and then i kena birthday sabo-ed by some hpy ppl and then they went to my house cuz eileen got dirty and they want to watch little nyonya last ep! and thus they celebrated my birthday for me with my family!

actually not many ppl came to my house before, so it's a rare thing ok! not to mention celebrating my birthday in my house. hoho. (no i'm not planning to host birthday party in my house next year. i think i'll be just too lazy to plan a party ba. cuz it's just 21 you know)

then tuesday is lunch with yy at raffles place lau pa sat where i saw mk! hoho. good choice we went there! (: and then i continued my shopping after parting with yy and realised i've done something that's bad to my finances. ):

wednesday went back to anderson to see what they are preparing for open house, and i ended up tying the tripod for them, because that has been yong xiang's plan all along! damn. but i had a nice and funny chat with yongxiang alston and tenghong. boys will always be boys. lol. kenneth can remember some knots! not bad seh.
friday is mfss open house! i ended up being the first person to reach when i missed one 169. i think the school was quite bad to allocate sj to such a ulu place, but well we had our fair share of fun and laughter at that obscure place where we played with cold sprays and kids think that the fake bump wound is sunny side up and the 3rd degree fake burn (with clothing stuck on it) is mushroom. and they abused anne, who's alexandra's wife cum joseph's lover. lol!

the cadets are actually quite funny, like joseph and of course yongsiang! cheryl got so amused by ys. hahah! now i can't wait for zfac where i would see the comp teams in action! haha.

then it's to cineleisure to meet up with agi06 comm! for some strange reasons we just can't have full attendance, save for once when we went to vivocity like in 07? the eight of us squeezed into the little booth and melvin had to sit outside the big ring in a chair! we wanted to push the only attached person in our group but she's sat too in already. hoho.

there's been lots of laughter and teases exchanged during dinner, as well as while on our way to smu and eventually in the smu basement. think cpr to FRIED luncheon meat (leovine insisted that they are fried crisply while i tried to explain that they will be soggy after being soaked in the soup for too long), wedding day plans (we will just get back our old roles - pj pre-parade, celine reception, me carpark management, qj audience management, zel logistics, yeanlih parade, mel chairperson, huihui secretary while leovine e bridegroom shall be e advisor!), scandals etc! i'm so glad that it's quite a success, and that we managed to stay close and chat so easily even though we dun see each other much! (:

saturday was a uber long day for me as i accompanied an emo boy (he insisted that he's not emo, just in minus mode. like isn't it the same? lol) to open houses while trying to talk some sense into him. seems like it's da thing to do as ppl grow older seh. =x

continued my shopping in plaza singapura and then marina square before meeting up with the bwc ppl. got a new watch! thanks to them!! :D then we went to esplanade to see Museum of Broken Relationships with the exhibits things that remind the donors about their past relationships. it was really meaningful, and i realise how fragile love can be. it's a great exhibit from Croatia, so do catch them before they leave!

there was this particular phrase from one of the exhibits (every exhibit has a short excerpt to it):

Most gay relationships are like digital cameras. They get obsolete too quickly.

how sad is that! i mean, it's also a form of love so why can't the people cherish them!


had dinner at carl's jr before walking aimlessly around marina square (cannot do army talk cuz will deduct points! haha) and then to raffles city. wanted to sit at ben&jerry's but too crowded so we went to Gloria Jean's instead. zk was attracted by the sofa and that he dun want to go home so early (it was arnd 10 when we sat down)

had random talk. ohyes dean passed me gj's book How Starbucks saved my life. more books to read! hoho.

and last night i can't fall asleep! goodness. i went to bed at 1plus and tossed and turned for like 30 odd minutes before i started playing my psp game (and charged the psp as i play). eventually slept at 7plus before waking up at 10plus. =x

this coming week will be quite peaceful with just sj stuff happening, so i can slowly watch my Iljimae while contemplating some decisions i hafta make. and i'm going to 林宥嘉's concert!! :D
10:56 AM

해가 저물면 밤이 찾아오듯
내사랑 어김없이 찾아오죠
걸음보다 더 빠른 내 마음은
오늘도 그대에게 가죠

울다 웃다 울다
혼자 그리다가
붉은 잎에 새긴 눈물로 그대를 지우죠

그대얼굴을 바라볼때에는
나도 몰래 그댈 따라 또 웃다가
가질 수 없는 꿈인걸 알기에
두눈엔 눈물이 고이죠

인연이 아닌듯 버리고 버려도
가슴엔 더 깊이 새겨지네요
조금만 버려도 더많이 쌓여서
자꾸 그댈 잊을수 없는데

울다 웃다 울다
그대 그리다가
덧없는 내 인생
더 하루만 나 편해질까요

얼룩져 버린 내 삶에 그대란 사람
다음생에 가질게요

그대얼굴을 바라볼때에는
나도 몰래 그댈 따라 또 웃다가
가질 수 없는 꿈인걸 알기에
두눈엔 눈물이 고이죠

太阳落山 夜幕降临
我的爱不期而至
比脚步更快的是我的心
今天也追随着你

哭了 笑了 哭了
一个人的思念
用眼泪抹去刻在红叶上的你

凝视着你的脸孔
我也不知不觉的跟着笑了
知道这是无法拥有的梦
所以眼泪盈眶

仿佛并不是缘分 一次次的舍弃
然而在心中刻的更深
片刻的舍弃却化为深深的堆积

总是忘不了你

哭了 笑了 哭了
一个人的思念
我无常的人生
让我再安详一天吧

我斑驳生活里的你
下辈子我会得到你

凝视着你的脸孔
我也不知不觉的跟着笑了
知道这是无法拥有的梦
所以 眼泪盈眶
10:04 PM

sometimes i get shocked by how rational and clearheaded i am when i'm handling some personal issues. it's almost surreal that i can actually tell myself that why bother waste my breath trying to talk my sense into the other party about those issues when i know what's the eventual outcome which is nothing will eventually happen. no wonder i clam myself up so much that i dun feel very much at ease, and i was very relieved when i heard that caren seems to have quite similar issues as me too.
11:11 PM

the last day of 2008 had been a fun-filled and crazy one. started off with working at btmu and then rushing over to vivocity to watch Yes Man with 5 kids plus ros and eileen. after movie hp joined us and we stood in the middle of nowhere in basement 2 and i talked abt sji comp trainings with ian and guanjin. lol. then it's going over to amk, with wc joining us along the way and me trying to talk some sense into ahhuat with kayhwee listening. think i do make some sense ok. next time i'll try to change to dollars. :D

then it was at jl's house, bbq-ing food, watching little nyonya and mj-ing! when we woke up this morning, jl's dad was watching Death Race. it's quite cool actually, reminds me of Prison Break with the maximum-security prison thing. after that went home to rest and went to celine's house to play mj. but as usual we didnt play much and we ended up in celine's room gossiping and me trying out eyeliner. haha. then it's dinner at fish & co with jj jq vin. (:

ok shall set my resolutions/plans for 2009:

1) devote more time for asjab and not just sjab. since nobody's finding me to go back for otc09 i guess i shall just leave it as it is.

2) run a 10km race! me and char planned to go for NIKE human race. :D and i'm planning to start running next week! a za a za hwaiting!

3) earn and save more moolah! i really need to curb my spending!

4) read more books! i'm venturing more into english books instead of chinese books now. (twilight's becoming too sweet to my liking) i've even borrowed 3 books from celine! it's mainly fiction now but i'm progressing to non-fiction like real soon!

5) stop having absurd thoughts. today while waiting for 72 to go celine's house, i thought i saw someone whom i've known through a random sms 2 years ago (2007). and till now i still think it's really that guy. UHHHH.

ok that's all. in the meantime i'm part of the frictional unemployment group. (:

seriously, Iron & Wine's Flightless Bird, American Mouth is so addictive. Jason Mraz is cool too.
10:03 PM