today marks the end of my second temporary job.

surprisingly, i felt rather mixed regarding the end of this job. i mean, it does have its pros and cons as compared to the one i had at btmu. for starters, i can use internet when i'm bored, just that i use facebook discreetly, and that it's nearer to home as compared to raffles place.

but i've felt more at ease at btmu with the people. it's not that my present colleagues are not friendly (ted treated our lunch group to drinks at jackie chan restaurant the first friday i reported to work!), it's just that we dun click. i did try making some small talk but it's hard la. probably because i'm confined to a lone cubicle. i felt rather fake, as in i was quiet and just smile smile abit. then today yewcheong said that he would remember me as the girl who is always using her handphone during lunch (i was deleting msgs away)

anyway it's already over. i'm out of there, my timesheets are signed, my flight tickets are booked and i'm packing my luggage soon.

how nice it would be to escape from singapore to another part of the world to start a new life. i would like to live in greece (santorini!), prague, france, italy, berlin, the netherlands, canada, sweden, norway, switzerland, taiwan, turkey, south africa, spain... the list just goes on. i didn't want to leave singapore for good initially because i can't leave the people and the things behind. later on i realised that they would still be there if they are meant to be. it's only a matter whether i would remember them, or not. i need to learn to be more 拿得起, 放得下.

some things are just meant to be tucked into the memories for good.
10:07 PM