i didn't wake up at 730am as i thought i would yesterday night after alastair asked me how i felt towards my frictional unemployment. i woke up for the first time at 854am and i willed myself to sleep again. next time i woke up was 10plus and i finally got myself out of the bed after listening to some songs in my ipod (which has been following me around the house for the past few days)

i'm still kind of in the affected mood, listening to those loud rock ballads all the while as i wonder why am i still feeling that way. it didn't help that i received the photos of our last day from jesslyn and derek yesterday. was clicking through the photos and for a moment i found myself thinking that he had smiled more widely in a photo he took with me as compared to a photo he took with derek.

then i closed the window.

(by the way, that's my (and derek's) favourite spot in the gossip corner because we can prop up our documents and key more easily)

felt restless for the whole day, perhaps except when i was watching the tv from like 11am to 2pm. but there's no more Surreal Gourmet (with my favourite celebrity chef, Bob Blumer. i totally loved the idea of his Toast-A-Mobile and his wacky and unconventional ways of cooking up a storm), no more Jamie at Home or Jamie's Great Italian Escapes (which had been on re-runs for quite a while), or even Floyd's Mediterranean/British/American escapes. and i didn't watch Fun Taiwan at 2pm. gosh.

was procrastinating on a lot of things, such as clearing up my room and setting it straight. i've only thrown away 3 boxes and left the rest to rot. i was reading the Spirits & Liqueurs book that i've bought in London and i set it aside like 15minutes later. then i fell asleep and woke up to the don't-know-how-many-hundredth episode of 意难忘, which one of the two-faced villians, 王胜志, had finally died but the leading couple had separated because of his death. the mother still remained stubborn as ever. goodness. i was watching this show last year leh! >.<

but at least i've sent out an email to another job agency which derek said was quite good, unzipped the photos from jesslyn, booked another practical lesson on thursday (by sheer luck cuz all e other slots are like booked until october) and finally jotted down the points for something that junyang had suggested me to do. but how to go about doing it remains another problem.

and i'm very looking forward to tomorrow: lunching with mrschua and jesslyn tomorrow at raffles place and a possible shopping trip with jesslyn (that's provided if i'm not constantly chanting to her to study so that she can get her As for her final year in SIM) or a few hours in the national library reading before going to hq to print certs.

keli called me yesterday night after she cannot stand me writing on her Facebook wall to settle our lunch date on friday. it felt really great catching up with an old friend after so many years (we lost contact right after primary school. so that's 7 years of not contacting each other), though it had felt a bit awkward sometimes. i'm sure we can definitely talk much more on friday. (:

把你当作风筝 随风而飞
飞到哪里我都无所谓
我剪断了线 不再对你怀念
7:11 PM