f1 is finally over!

went for 2 full days of duty over the weekend (i opted out for the friday 6-12am duty) and man it's tiring! though i think for my part is more because i've talked too much. i'm too lazy to upload all the photos over here so you can go over to facebook and check out the rest.

the sunset!
taken by timothy!
me yanrong denise.

i'm like telling almost everybody, whom i can tell, that i went from esplanade to padang to find responder 5 (ie xuanting) along with weichee. ha.

anyways. paired up with weichee for most of the time on saturday, be it fap or rovering team. it was quite enlightening in the chats we had, even though i was the one doing the talking most of the time. haha.

back in zone room where yongsheng has became a kid who has grown too tall.

we wore field uniform for the next day and i was assigned to padang fap1, where we have to put umbrellas and sit down there for the whole day. and the number of chairs is fixed to 2 per fap when there can be 3 personnel stationed there.

once again i'm blessed with nice people who let me walk with alfred and to his fap to talk about zone9 and zone6, and crap along with jingxing (z5) who was one of the ushers for f1 and stationed nearby.

as there wasn't a lot of people whom i know are stationed at padang, i ended up talking more to zhongli(aka zhonglie) and ivan ho, who are from zone6, partly because i knew zhongli on saturday already (me jianlin alfred zhongli talked on msn on friday night) and that the zone3 people stationed there in the AM shift arent very close to me, ie not much topic. then the two guys also don't know the rest stationed at padang very well, so we ended up talking more. (since lunch). and just nice the three of us held the talkies at e 3 faps!

and i would say e zone6 ppl are really crappy! when i was walking with zhongli and ivan before deployment, they would ask me about my opinion of alfred and zhongli even asked me in front of ivan about my opinion of him (ivan). after that he said 'tall, dark and handsome?' and i laughed. ivan are equally crappy, though i cant remember much of what he had said in the day. at night after the duty (his fap is at the opposite end and he cant come over to our faps because there's the amp in between. so i ended up talking more to zhongli) he was quite crappy la.

and i think that ivan looked like my nyjc chem tutor kevin low. haha.

me with siti at our fap. she's really funny! ha.
fiona, another siao one at fap1. i'm so glad that we got along fine because i didn't talk much to my AM shift partners (clement said i was slack. opps) but at least there's also other nice people from the rovering teams like sim aik seng sir from zone2 (clement is also from zone2 and kevin png junyuan said that he's good) and i was telling alfred and jaclyn loo (from zone9) that i don't know much people from zone2, 6 and 10. and i managed to know some from 2 and 6. not bad.

the three of us! fap3 (ivan) fap1 (me) fap2 (zhongli). eileen teo said that they looked like around my age! zomg. ivan was a bit niao-ing about the part that he shld stand beside me to establish some sort of balance. =p
me hp yeening. i've tied my hair up and i think it's quite ugly. i think i should just scrape the idea of letting my hair grow long.

me and kevin png junyuan, who is from otc07. when i first saw him on the eve of agi (e fdi people went back to hq to prepare the zone colours and me to print certs) i cant decide whether he's an officer or cadet. LOL. but eventually decided on officer. then because of jianlin alfred zipeng and the part that we are in padang (he's rovering team) we started to talk! it was very funny when we were going back to hq in the bus cuz of the playing. and i didn't take photo with alfred! we realised that when we were talking online like 3hrs later (2am plus)

ohyes my quote of the day for sunday is bad buy, worst buy, mustn't buy! in reference to the guys who seemed to be interested in amanda poon. (ie from a particular zone)

this pd had been fun (aside from the noise. it was very jialat when i was at esplanade) with me making some new friends in those zones which seemed to be aloof and getting enlightened regarding certain issues of otc. i'm like so workoholic to the extent that i'm talking about otc over here, with weichee and xuanting. but well that's our common topic. i think i'm quite crazy that i'm still talking about otc with people.

there's also certain things that i've came to be aware of and it's been irritating because i'm trying to strike a balance and talk myself out of it.

next up: poc!

8:47 PM

gosh i'm like back to my daily blogging routine. been surfing too much web mans. haha. i've spent like half the day typing out an email to juliet. searched for some quotes and found some really nice ones. heh.

today was a fervent friendster/facebook-ing as i try to search for the people whom i'm paired with for the F1 duty. i was abit disappointed that i'm assigned to girls for the 2 days that i'm doing the duty. ha. i don't mind pairing up with weichee/cheehoe/choonkeong/yongsheng because we can talk crap! and i'm in rovering team on saturday and in FAP on sunday! i would miss out on the action! sigh.

and i went to bbcgoodfood.com and foodandtravel.com! i love the cover page of the latest issue of foodandtravel.com so maybe i shall ask my aunt to help me buy in london and then bring back in november. hehe.

oh i went to two sales today too.

met up with jesslyn and derek for lunch before going into isetan at shaw house (which was a private one but they're allowing 2 guests per cardholder). it was chaotic and messy and suffocating! probably because it's only for one day. (10% off everything on top of other discounts). siao la.

then after work i went to the FJB sale in hyatt grand ballroom and again i was astounded by the number of people there and how fervently they are in searching for bags/clothes/shoes/underwear. i saw one woman with like TEN guess bags. i mean, c'mon la, just because it's cheap (1 for $45, 2 for like $90 or something and then 3 for $120) doesn't mean that you need to pile on them! it's not like you'll get to use all until they're worth the money in your lifetime! i felt like a sore thumb sticking out in that place when i just wander around looking at the sale items with an empty plastic bag while the rest were hauling along 2-3 bags. siao la. it's as though they skipped GSS just to go for this (it's until saturday mind you). i've felt more at ease when i was walking around far east plaza looking for my ideal bag lor.

anyway i'm quite proud of myself that i didn't buy any bag impulsively for now (when i really want a smaller bag). there has been a couple of bags that caught my eye when i was in far east plaza but i managed to rationalize. like one of them is a black&white checkered bag which i probably wouldnt use 1 year later because i would prefer solid colours for the bag. (but i like my new checkered flats. hehe). the other one was a square bag which i've told myself it's a big one and i'm aiming for a medium one for work.

eventually saw a quite nice one at 77th street at $49.90 but since i'm aiming for long use then price is actually okay ba. but it's not that nice until i want to buy it there and then so i left it and continue hunting. i'm rational alrights. hehe.

TGIF tomorrow!
10:23 PM

seriously

not that i'm complaining that i get to surf the net for the whole day, but working is not entirely about slacking, to me that is. for me, slacking is after you've managed to accomplish some tremendous work (though work at btmu ain't that tremendous and challenging, but you get what i mean) and you reward yourself by chatting with someone or just hang around.

besides, surfing the net here isn't that fun, considering i have to wary of people who walks behind me. what would they think of when they see me blogging over here, complaining how boring work is?

anyhows. yesterday spent almost the whole day staring at wikipedia, starting from sjab (they have lots of details for sjab sg page) to jerusalem to jesus/christianity/gospels/abraham/king david and then to cocktails, which i've discovered that Absolut has released a new flavour called Absolut Los Angeles. charissa said i should go learn something i like, since i'm so free anyway. i was actually thinking yesterday that if work is really going to be so boring, i would start reading the bible online or something.

bah.

shanshan (another temp) said that sometimes it's like that (having nothing to do), especially when they're in the midst of closing some projects (which is why i'm here, to proof read their reports). actually i was thinking they should be enough with just shanshan and the other newcomer darren because i'm really doing nothing at all, and the work that i've actually done yesterday could be given to shanshan. she can sit at my cubicle too. (adrian said my work is to help the both sides)

there's several minus points too, like how far tanglin shopping centre is from the nearest mrt station. my pants got wet when i braved through the rain. and also there's no dress down fridays (i'm thinking it's because sometimes need to meet clients, but not for the temps leh). not to mention the pay and that the food at the foodcourt cost more than the food in goldenshoe. and i feel alone in my cubicle as though i'm on my own island.

the only plus point is that it's in orchard, which means i can go home early.

i'll give myself a couple of weeks more before i contemplate going off. after all, i can see that adrian is really up to his neck with all the meetings etc that he did not have time to assign the stuff.

but if i do leave, let's hope that the job at the media company is still open. (amanda called me only after i've signed the contract!) because i do not want to use my backup plan.
10:03 AM

since i'm here to edit abit of stuff i might as well write an entry.

first day at work was slackkkk. other than the beginning and during lunch where i hafta walk extra fast so that i can get to the office on time, i was slacking at my desk. adrian (assistant manager) told me towards the end of the day that he was busy, which i can see that, considering i think he had gone out to meet some clients.

at least the other colleagues jio-ed me for lunch. which i didn't go cuz i went over to the heart of orchard to see zhikai, who went to taiwan for 3weeks without telling us! (the girls) hmphh. i only knew it when waikuan smsed me, asking if wanna meet (her & zk) at cityhall for lunch. shiyun said she only knew it from dean's blog.

was damn joke when we tried to meet. he said he was at lucky plaza and so i went over there. then he said he walked to taka from the underpass at lucky plaza (which i never knew!) and so i took some time to locate the underpass and then we finally met up at the basement of taka where i bought my lunch. then we chatted as we walked over to wisma where he went back to kinokuniya to meet up with his friends who were waiting over there.

friendship with bwg (ie the guys) is an interesting thing because sometimes we wouldn't have common topics (more for me cuz apparently waikuan and shiyun can talk much with them) but somehow we just hit it off well and lasted till now. i'm thinking because i'm quite an easy target of teasing. ha. like i can chat with zhikai for a while once in a blue moon lo. as well as dean and guojie! ha.

oh jay finally released his new song today! :D

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭 让萤火虫带着你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐 快乐 这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机 现在终于飞回我手里

i was reading this article about the food lab experiment which i think it's so interesting! then i went to msn to search for food lab and went to cornell's website. but apparently there's no food psychology courses available (i only found one course in Yale). boo.

tomorrow i'm gonna start doing some work, which includes calling people! sians. i don't like calling. ):
9:11 PM

Throw on your break lights
We're in a city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

the song is so so addictive. i can listen to it for hours and still crave for more. just like how i would play Klondike in my ipod for hours too.

instead of working at buona vista, i'm now confirmed to work at tanglin shopping centre in orchard. so no possible lunches/dinners with derek and jesslyn (at least buona vista is near SIM). i think it's a bad omen cuz one, it's in a shopping centre and two, it's in orchard road.

lately i'm developing a obsession for shopping and just now i did a list of the things that i've bought this year (either with my own money or with my parents' money). i'm very astonished. i've bought like 7 pairs of shoes! omg. but at least i've worn one out. and i have to account some of the clothes/shoes for working. as you all know i don't have much decent clothes to wear in office (my clothes are mainly t-shirts with lots of prints and shorts and jeans), thus the ridiculous number of clothes i've bought. shiyun would probably shake her head mans. haha.

but well, i'm getting myself to buy lesser! like no new shoes/bags/clothes until december! i'm quite sure i wouldn't buy new shoes cuz i've just bought 2 pairs today (the flats for work had died out and my black heels are too small). bags wise i'm still hunting for the perfect one so it would take some time. clothes wise i guess i would just avert myself away from the shops and head straight for kinokuniya or something. for some reason i just can't bring myself to buy books (except for manga). not to mention there're quite a number of albums that i'm getting! Jay, Mayday and maybe even SHE.

anyhows. i need to start scrimping and save up for my education fees!

with that i've realised why in relationships/courtships guys would always be expected to pick up the tab: because girls need the money (that would be used if they go dutch) to doll themselves up! not that i'm saying that i'm dolling myself up, but i'm spending money to look more pleasant/decent to the eye. if i would tell myself 2 years ago that i would buy makeup and heels, i would have thought that i'm mad. but my tomboy side still stays, so you would see some sort of whimsical style in the way i dress. like a long tee and jeans with sneakers and crumpler.

and i repeat: NO DRESSES/SKIRTS. ella might have crossed over to loving skirts/dresses but not me definitely. at least not for like 5 more years.

anyways. i'm proud to say that i'm at peace with some of my inner demons. was telling keli yesterday about it and we agreed that it was a good thing we're free of it!

i tell you, keli is the zai-est girl i've known when it comes to playing pool. the way she scores or even made the white ball jump across a ball is damn zai! woot. it was really great to catch up with her! :D (though i was doing most of the talking. ha)

F1 next week!
10:02 PM

okay. i just received a call from another job agency and confirmed my next job. heard that it's some proof-reading job at a college and i would have to make calls sometimes. if given a choice i would prefer to go for the media company job that amanda had offered. but she didn't call back last friday so i guess it's been taken up.

melvin (the guy from the other job agency) said that it's for a college at Buona Vista and as you know there's probably only 2 colleges in the west so i guess it's either one of them, probably the one nearer to buona vista. unless it's those distance-learning colleges but i doubt they would need people to proof-read things i suppose.

the salary was slightly lesser than btmu but the working hours would be comparatively shorter. 8.30-5.45pm. why 5.45pm i still can't fathom why. since it's at buona vista that would mean i have to wake up at 7 and leave my house like 730? which is 45mins earlier than usual. damn.

but well, i've told myself i need to widen my horizon and try other jobs (but proof-reading is part of my job scope in btmu!). and this job is ending at the end of the year (which suits me because i would love to spend time outside basking in the festive moods in december). at then i guess i would go email skatewithus.com again. or if i hate the new job then i would quit and find other jobs.

the new job also requires me to wear office wear. damn. my cousin would probably say you should have gone and work at MOE because they end early and you don't need to wear office wear! how ironic that i'm going to work in buona vista, working admin job when i said since last year that i don't want to do such jobs when my cousin recommended me the moe temp job.

also, such unearthly hours of working would mean that i need to change my driving schedule again. i've booked for mornings (the cheapest) but now i have to change to evening times. each e-payment charges extra 80cents! gawd. well, yesterday i've told myself that i need to persevere and stay motivated to learn driving. yongsheng is 10lessons ahead of me when i've started much earlier than me! and qingliang advised me to chiong through at one shot cuz you would forget things along the way. yesterday i was wondering how to get a car moving! argh. so now my aim is to get my licence before the yck ssdc moves over to woodlands in april09.

new job also means i can't crash derek and jesslyn's lessons at sim (unless they have night lessons. ha) and go for class gathering next monday! and i would need to take a day off for next next monday because i would definitely need to sleep in after chionging the F1 duty (friday 6-12am, sat and sun 12-12am).

oh well. for the sake of money! mr ng said that i need to stay grounded to focus on my goals.

on the other hand, ending work early means i can go running after i reach home! i need to be motivated and persevere for that too! (better start running before my second toenails grow completely out)

been listening to lots of english songs lately. hmm.

SERIOUSLY. I'M HAVING THIS HUGE HUGE HATE/DISLIKE/DISGUST OVER PRINTERS, ESPECIALLY THE ONE I HAVE AT HOME. IT JUST COCKS UP AND REFUSES TO PRINT BY CHOKING THE PAPER/PRINTS SLANTEDLY/PRINTED ON THE WRONG PARTS/CANNOT PRINT BORDERLESS PRINTS. i'm wasting tons of paper because of the fucked up printer(s). (i'm not forgetting the damn damn samsung printer).

DAMN.
3:00 PM

i didn't wake up at 730am as i thought i would yesterday night after alastair asked me how i felt towards my frictional unemployment. i woke up for the first time at 854am and i willed myself to sleep again. next time i woke up was 10plus and i finally got myself out of the bed after listening to some songs in my ipod (which has been following me around the house for the past few days)

i'm still kind of in the affected mood, listening to those loud rock ballads all the while as i wonder why am i still feeling that way. it didn't help that i received the photos of our last day from jesslyn and derek yesterday. was clicking through the photos and for a moment i found myself thinking that he had smiled more widely in a photo he took with me as compared to a photo he took with derek.

then i closed the window.

(by the way, that's my (and derek's) favourite spot in the gossip corner because we can prop up our documents and key more easily)

felt restless for the whole day, perhaps except when i was watching the tv from like 11am to 2pm. but there's no more Surreal Gourmet (with my favourite celebrity chef, Bob Blumer. i totally loved the idea of his Toast-A-Mobile and his wacky and unconventional ways of cooking up a storm), no more Jamie at Home or Jamie's Great Italian Escapes (which had been on re-runs for quite a while), or even Floyd's Mediterranean/British/American escapes. and i didn't watch Fun Taiwan at 2pm. gosh.

was procrastinating on a lot of things, such as clearing up my room and setting it straight. i've only thrown away 3 boxes and left the rest to rot. i was reading the Spirits & Liqueurs book that i've bought in London and i set it aside like 15minutes later. then i fell asleep and woke up to the don't-know-how-many-hundredth episode of 意难忘, which one of the two-faced villians, 王胜志, had finally died but the leading couple had separated because of his death. the mother still remained stubborn as ever. goodness. i was watching this show last year leh! >.<

but at least i've sent out an email to another job agency which derek said was quite good, unzipped the photos from jesslyn, booked another practical lesson on thursday (by sheer luck cuz all e other slots are like booked until october) and finally jotted down the points for something that junyang had suggested me to do. but how to go about doing it remains another problem.

and i'm very looking forward to tomorrow: lunching with mrschua and jesslyn tomorrow at raffles place and a possible shopping trip with jesslyn (that's provided if i'm not constantly chanting to her to study so that she can get her As for her final year in SIM) or a few hours in the national library reading before going to hq to print certs.

keli called me yesterday night after she cannot stand me writing on her Facebook wall to settle our lunch date on friday. it felt really great catching up with an old friend after so many years (we lost contact right after primary school. so that's 7 years of not contacting each other), though it had felt a bit awkward sometimes. i'm sure we can definitely talk much more on friday. (:

把你当作风筝 随风而飞
飞到哪里我都无所谓
我剪断了线 不再对你怀念
7:11 PM

my really, really last day in btmu (will upload the family pic later when i get them from derek and jesslyn)

it was a pretty normal day with me working till the very last minute (i want to do my last total proof balancing, which was my favourite activity of calculating with the noisy calculator), except that we (me jesslyn derek) took a 2hr lunch break instead of our planned 1.5hrs. thanks to gretna and annie who bought and brought tons of food back for us (and for john bobby janet robson and any other people who felt like eating the chicken wings and what nots). camwhored (not much with my camera) all over the place.

when it's like 15mins to 2, i went upstairs to 10th floor to say goodbye to ooi, annie (yeo), jojo and cherie, who summoned me to go up after i've told her yesterday that i'm leaving today. too bad ooi had left for china today. then it's 4th floor to compliance where i sat at my old seat and had a chat with jon caren sheryl catherine meimei. caren even offered me some work to stay in compliance, which is another round of kyc where they do routine checks on high risk customers once every 12mths. it's a lot of work, considering there's like at least 1 cabinet full of high risk customers docs. and 1 cabinet can house like 100 docs?

earlier on before lunch while keying in the docs at gossip corner, annie (ong) came over and asked me if i want to stay. which i had said no. derek said much later on that annie must have really liked me that she had asked me personally for more than once.

but hell, no.

i was torn between to stay or not to stay ever since kevin asked me like a few days ago. i can stay, and that's because of the damn damn thing about habits. it's a killer. on monday i would wake up and imagine myself taking the crowded mrt to the crowded raffles place, walk through the crowded underpass, turn right into republic plaza and depending on my mood, take a lift or take the escalator up and turn left to walk through the smokers' corner and into the building, take the escalator to 2nd floor and then tap my card into btmu and then another door and a flight of staircase to floor 2.5 (there's no 3rd floor). and then i would miss the people there.

then i would think of him and his familiar scent that i've grown to like so much and i would tell myself, good thing that you've chosen to leave.

i wasn't sad that i'll be leaving a bunch of great people, like (from the first dept i'm in) ooi, annie yeo, joesphine (aka jojo), cherie, jasmine (and other people), caren, sheryl, jon, mrschua (though sometimes i cant stand her), huiting, john, noorlin, gretna, annie ong, bobby, desmond (who's leaving next week for bnp paribas), selene, sabina (from AIBD whom i've worked closely with for the irritating Golden Agri and mind-boggling Wilmar bills. we used to sigh to each other over the phone) and the list just goes on. i can even miss the GA people and the nice people from the various companies like Brother, Takasago, Tozen, NTN and even Koyo (though Patricia scolded me once. ha)

what makes me mad (more than sad) is that there is actually someone who disregards the friendliness towards him. i do admit the fact that he's abit like my ec had escalated my anger towards him.

when i heard his reply to an invitation to our sunday's gathering from derek, i was really shocked. he said that if it's just john and selene then it's okay but no because he's 不熟 with the rest, which includes me and derek. then i heard myself saying that well, i guess he's like that because he probably doesn't see himself being with us in the long run and thus doesn't make much effort to be friends with us. (cuz derek was saying he can be really friendly when outside office and i do agree cuz i've seen him talking so animatedly with his friend over the phone before)

then how can i explain his actions so many weeks ago? asking for my (and derek's) number, saying that we can leave together so that can talk more as we take the train together, having dinner together, him giving me logic questions to challenge me, him being concerned and even lent a listening ear to me. isn't him trying to be friendly the very least?

in his one-month hiatus, i told myself let's just get over him and forget about him, since we're predicting that we wouldn't see him even till the day we leave. then he came back. it was awkward in the first week. then during second week it got better. but it didn't change the fact that he now prefers to sit by himself at another side to key in docs instead of the gossip corner and talked lesser.

i do know that everything is just my wistful thinking (i'm not even imagining anything further because there wouldn't be), but i thought we can be friends. (though i tell him some emotional stuff) after all we do agree on some stuff and he still gave me a logic question yesterday. and then this.

i'm mad. i'm really mad. i don't care if he's even seeing this (i was guessing that he was distant to me after he came back cuz he had probably guessed something via internet). he had really disappointed me but well, i knew him only for 3 months (in which he wasn't around for 1mth) so i don't have much grounds to judge him.

so well, it's a good decision to leave btmu. before i get any further (i was thinking perhaps i can get to know him better if i had stayed) and fall deeper. and c'mon, i've even seen MK for 3 consecutive days, talked to him over the phone yesterday (regarding a customer) and watched him leave the building today. it's definitely some sign that i'm done with btmu and time to move on.

goodbye.

谁闯进我的场地 谁让我措手不及
我早就预备的剧情 你却给我一笔
狡猾地 致命地正中我红心

我跟谁变得亲密 谁逐渐离我远去
华丽演出共襄盛举 唯有你的背影
友情客串 却留下刻骨铭心的回忆

我搬到谁的隔壁 谁成了我的邻居
鸣谢生命有你参与 笑纳我的邀请
曲终人散 却写下不会结束 的结局
10:34 PM

i apologize for the close-to-two-weeks hiatus. was preoccupied with something at home back then and today was the day that relieved my whole family. didn't want to post much stuff here cuz i wasn't pretty much in the mood, even though i still enjoyed myself in the times i hang out with my friends. in fact, i was seeking refuge anywhere but home. that was partly why i chose to turn a blind eye on how my family might have felt with me outside so late on the last night celine was spending in singapore. it was too suffocating for me to stay at home.

i was quite overwhelmed by the mix of emotions, laughing with people on the outside while entertaining depressing thoughts inside. i bottled everything inside before i finally spilled it out to my primary school teacher when i felt really, really touched by him still caring for us despite us graduating 7years ago.

i didn't want to let other people know because it's a very private matter and i seldom talk about my family. i would say only a handful of people actually knew what had happened before or is still happening. i guess i fit into the category of people who treat their friends better than their family because they know that their families will stick to them for life irregardless of how they are like.

in the past 2 weeks, i saw how adversity crushes people easily. i watched him, a loud person, become mellow and talked to us in such gentle tone that i couldn't believe that it was actually happening to him. i thought he would be optimistic, like how i forced myself to be. anyway, now thta the skies have cleared, he was back to his usual self again, laughing loudly and deeply.

anyways, enough of my family issues.

today was one of my worst days in btmu when i was hit with so many shit at one go that i got so pissed off and showed attitude to my mentor. i would say she played a big role in making me so irritated/pissed. and they actually asked me to stay in btmu for a longer period of time. i did entertain that idea, but after today i've decided not to. hell, i'm not a person who can stick to ridiculous protocols (i totally agree with a customer today when he said why need to go through all the stupid procedures when btmu shld have their details, considering that they are one of the biggest customers of btmu. and one of those who owed the most money. LOL)

like what robson had said, don't even think of staying. both of us totally agreed with each other about the shits of btmu, considering we were among the people who stayed the latest to check through the documents and do all the miscellanous stuff. (he would usually leave the office later than me) i was like whining to robson and john while doing total proof cuz i still have a stack of local bills to check so that they can be keyed into the system and send out tomorrow morning. cuz my mentor could have helped to do the total proof but no, she chose to continue to check her bills so that she can leave earlier. (she's like so used to me doing total proof when it's our turn to do) totally pissed mans.

but what to do? in the place where everything needs signatures and double(or even triple) checks and that real money comes into the picture, everybody avoid doing extra things as a way to protect themselves. i lost count of the times when i was chided for doing extra stuff (like helping customer check details when it should be done by other sections etc) and was told that i should just do what i'm supposed to do.

heck, i'm leaving in 3days' time. i will definitely miss some of the people in btmu and being a sentimental person, i might just consider staying but enough is enough. i need to move on. so if you have any job lobangs let me know!

found some old friends in facebook lately and i'm quite happy to talk to them after all these years! then last week had dinner with huihui bernice elaine mschan & her bf. was kinda envious that everybody are having exciting lives now but well, i only have myself to blame. so before next year comes i shall work hard and earn enough money to pay half of my schoolfees as i have promised myself to do. which means i need to restrict myself in shopping! LOL.

i'm thankful that everything is alright again.
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