HEY MY ASJAB DARLINGS! (okay jq you're e thorn among e roses. :D)

let THE ORGANISER (ie yours truly) do the announcement for a gathering eh.

date: 16AUGUST2008
time: DINNERTIME (arnd 6-ish. 5-ish for ppl like LEOWFY)
venue: TOWN! (tbc. i'm recommending heartland AMK or town CITYHALL)
itinerary: DO AS YOU LIKE! (after dinner maybe we can go esplanade and do some screaming. :D)

2weeks worth of notice should be enough eh. please RSVP along with your choice of restaurant/eatery/etc and meeting asap! more details will come along your way as the time nears!
9:30 PM

再给我两分钟 让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪 你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧

又在自我矛盾了

我想是我的错 是我太自私了
可是我却还是一意孤行 执意要继续
结果造成了他人的不便

然后出现了一个名字
就是...

算了

我还是当我的鸵鸟吧
10:43 PM

i've been plagued with an ongoing-and-never-seems-to-cease stomachache/stomach discomfort since saturday. i still think that it's because of the bread i bought in tampines, and not the roast duck or the beehoon-mee i ate in saturday morning.

anyways. me also thinks that certain things are just impossible, no matter how optimistic i am. like shiyun's classic quote for me (or in fact some of the people who knows me very well): 不要想太多

yeah babe. i will work towards it.

after all, it's only been around for a short while.
7:43 AM

OKAY! this is extremely rare for me to blog like twice a week lately, but like what fangyi said in her blog, i'm also in a woohoo mode! :DD

a happening week! but no ndp because apparently e commander thinks we are good enough for the upcoming preview and actual day! woot. went out with hweepeng jianlin choonkeong to ikea instead, with the kids (ie ros eileen) pangseh-ing us last minute. hoho. me and hweepeng wore matching shorts! (same shorts in different shades from dorothy perkins)

before that was hanging around northpoint while waiting for jianlin to come over (which is quite dumb actually cuz he got direct bus to tampines). and i saw this white puma jacket which is SO PRETTY! and it's got a 50% discount! i was tempted to buy it there and then but i held back and waited. (initially was waiting for ros too but she didnt come) and soon after jianlin came i bought it! woot.

then we took a super long bus ride on 39, from one interchange to the other. should have taken 969. tsk. then met up with hweepeng at tampines mall. shopped around! and i bought a new pair of shoes! zomg. jianlin's right in saying that i buy alot of things. haha. i think i've spent at least a mth's pay away on cds/clothes/shoes/bags/ipod. wahaahh. and tmr i'm getting new contact lens. need to start scrimping again before i submit my timesheets!

then onward to ikea we go! i love the intense woody smell of ikea! e three muskerteers somehow think that i'm quite a joke or something cuz they will laugh at me when i played around with the gadgets or laid on the bed or sat on the sofas/chairs! zomgs. somemore tried to take an unglam photo of me! was avoiding them and they said got ppl looking at me, which is true! zomgggg.

felt quite grumpy afterwards because of the stomachache and i wanted to head home after courts but they got me along to giant, which we didn't walk around much. probably because jianlin hweepeng have fdi tomorrow.

funny thing that i've shopped so much but i haven't buy the most desired item on my buying list: a wallet! i'm damn sad when i just can't find the ideal one! ):

anyway. looking forward to monday. :DDD

i guess i will feel lonelier when most of my friends are congregating on the west side. but well, c'est la vie. i'll live with it.
11:47 PM

for some reason i have been feeling weird since yesterday. like some strange feeling in my stomach (machiam like cannot eat but i still had hearty lunch and dinner) and today somehow i felt suffocated in the office and i finally got myself to leave despite having several bills unchecked.

perhaps it's because of the politics and e ugly side of human nature that i'm witnessing in the office. all in e name of 自扫门前雪. sigh. there was something nice that actually happened but because of my prejudice i've decided to ignore it and pretend nothing has happened. i would say that's my ugly side but seriously, some things cannot be forced to happen. i would say being civil is probably my max already.

thankfully there are the nice people around in e office. mrschua gretna annie derek jesslyn huiting robson john noorlin and maybe even selene cindy rosalind (she was definitely much nicer than janet who looks so glum) bobby. talked super much to gretna derek john noordin annie today, cuz bobby not around! haha. kept laughing until i think i've gone mad. and no thanks to the fact that i only reached home at 12plus ytd.

so basically. i do think i'm quite happy. (:
9:52 PM

i think i've mentioned in an entry about a year ago about it and i'm going to write about it again. LOL. i feel old when i'm attending such events, with an increasing number of kids below the age of 12 (7 currently and one more coming out into the world in a couple of weeks' time) and an increasing number of cousins who have crossed the big two-o. i for one will be joining the ranks next year, in less than 6months. noooooooo.

but it's heartwarming nonetheless as we did some catching ups on each other's lives and playing with the kids as though you're around their age. (i was running around with zhenhong jingwen xuanyu and took photos of them as they played around the stairs, beneath the dining room table and outside the house)




she's really the love of my life and the CUTEST baby in the house! for one thing, she doesnt get attracted to the cameras (i waved my camera at least a dozen times in front of her and she still can act non-chalant and look somewhere else) and second thing, she has a mind of her own! she rejected many people's request to carry her lo. hoho.

and from the photos you can see that she's quite demure-ish (and sticks to her mum quite abit. quite cute when e mum and kid were walking slowly outside on the road) and that she probaby has a knack for 自high-ing. she would suddenly smile to herself and then laugh! e last photo is super cute okay.
e 辣妈 with three little girls. (just kidding) make a guess which one is e 辣妈 (not me duh!) this is one of my favourite photos of the evening, with my cousin yuanwei, whom yy mistakened to be someone else. :D (though it was brightened up a wee bit by some strokes of photoshop magic, courtesy of jiahui) where i looked really nice! and a bit drunken-looking from the alcohol. woot.

speaking of alcohol. only drank a bit (like 4,5 glasses?) of chivas (with ice and some water and some jolly shandy) this year cuz i was busy running around taking photos. lol. jiayu drank more than me and he drank it silently! hahaha. he's my alcohol kaki okay. every year during e birthday buffets we will drink e alcohol generously provided by my uncle, or my dad for last year, where we downed half a bottle of absolut kurant mixed with ribena. :D

anyway thanks to fy for the recommendation for work but i'm currently committed to btmu until september, cuz bobby asked me if i wanna continue to work and i said okay. partly because of my 薄弱的意志 & partly because of the people there. want to get to know them better! like on friday i had small talk with robson cuz e rest had pretty much gone home and we were in the vault to lock up our stuff for the night. and when derek heard that i'm going to continue, he proposed that i leave on e same day with him and jesslyn. hur.

and on friday had a shopping session with hweepeng! nearly bought a 69.90 yellow espirit shirt out of impulse. then hurried over to marina square (it's arnd 9pm) where i swept 2 tops, 2bottoms and a belt! and i managed to get them within my budget of 100bucks! woot. if i have known that i would get more bottoms from dorothy perkins, i shld have bought them during the sale in london! lol.

then talked to hweepeng about some stuffs over dinner at longjohns. felt very liberated alrights! not to mention e surprise that came after that. hoho.

life is pretty good! (: and i want gatherings!

我的未来生活 是否梦想依旧
写下某些回忆 永远不想遗忘
喜欢或不喜欢 被爱或不被爱
都无所谓啦 就勇敢去接受
3:23 PM

球爱大战 is seriously trying too hard to be 偶像剧. c'mon la, christopher lee is like over 30s already! goes to show the scarcity of young male leads in mediacorp.

anyway. was feeling too bored today. was regretting not chionging extra 30mins of OT la. and i was thinking my ec might be finishing soon cuz he was checking the bills when i left the office. summore we called total proof super early today! sigh.

and it's like, i'm starting to grow closer to some of my fellow colleagues when i'm like starting to count down to the end of my work. like today i had lunch with john derek robson jesslyn and beanspout. and we were quite horrified when the bill ran too high! 5 of us except the gay ordered duck, char siew and 烧肉 together and it costed 52.50! zomg. not to mention noorlin is offering to bring me to the shop that sells the (supposedly) popular teh tarik. and all sorts of nice stuff that some of them are doing. though i was complaining about some stuff in export to Ooi. ho.

back to what i was saying. i'm bored. i thought i have many things to do (was doing the summary of trainees attendance for the past 3 nights) and then i realised there's nothing much to do. at least for otc stuff, as yet. cuz i'm procrastinating on some stuff to get. LOL.

okay. someone just instructed me to do something. haha.

this is really a random post mans.

can't wait for august! gonna have lots of gatherings! people forecast me your availability! namely asjabers. :D
10:01 PM

Have you wondered how it feels
When it's all over
Wonder how it feels
When you just have to start anew

Never knowing
Where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little
Cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face today
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I'll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go
But life still moves on
With a bit of luck
It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don't want to live on life replay

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

*
my mind has been, and still is, overloaded with thoughts and emotions since last week. too many things had happened and i couldn't make out a clear picture for anything.

then there's the constant struggle to keep my emotions in check before i sink into the black holes of depression and pessismism. the peer pressure is too much when everybody around is concerned for you, concerned for your future, and the astonishment that you have to endure when they realised you are not heading towards the path that is deemed to be routine and the most sensible one.

there are so many things i want to say out loud to the world, yet the power of knowledge is so intimidating that the consequences are unthinkable. thus i chose to keep it to myself, to the group of friends that i hold close.

i thank my large streak of optimism, my groups of friends and my luck of knowing them all.

be strong.
9:44 PM

was talking to fangyi just now after seeing her tag at my blog. told her my schedule for this and next weekend and she asked me why my life so happening. LOLs. for now saturdays are burned cuz of ndp trainings and those post-trainings activities (like the long talk and late supper last week). zomgs. then that leaves sundays. and this sunday i've got a discussion session with my GI and then movie with e johns (think that's their nick). maybe i can ask for membership. LOLs.

life at export is picking up as i get to know my fellow temps (other than e new gay that i was telling some ppl over the past few days. yy even marked my super long sms to her today about the metros in my bank 8/10 for essay content cuz it's interesting. HO) and the colleagues. me and mrschua started having bitching sessions about mrbean every now and then, sometimes within earshot as we tried not to laugh as we were like you see?! now i've even upgraded to using microsoft word.

then i would also bitch about the new gay with my other two temps at the row of tables: hui ting and jesslyn. think it started yesterday or sth when i complained to jesslyn about e new gay (i'm nice not to reveal his name) cuz mrschua not around and he's doing things damn slow. actually i'm quite okay with his mannerisms and whatnots (though it really dun fit his face, not that he's goodlooking actually), it's the first impression that he gave me totally made me go ZOMG and nothing else can change it. and i did an evil thing today during lunch. :D

started talking to yiyang (who is a friend of eugene who is a friend of peijun) last week when he casually start a conversation over the row of three computers near the printers. i reckon that row is good for making friends cuz it's easy to start small talk there. anyway. today is his last day and somehow we just keep talking. like after 6 he would start to linger around. i was at the dhl computer when he came over and i started bitching about the new gay to him. he thinks the new gay is weird too. haha (jesslyn finds the new gay weird too. YAY)

then i was sending some telex beside another dhl computer which john (permanent staff) was using when yiyang came over. john asked about yiyang's hongkong plans and asked for gifts. then it got to chinhao (another temp) who is in bangkok and yiyang said chinhao is getting elephant back for me and i'm like NOOO and somehow i felt my face heated up. should be e lack of aircon + me wearing jacket. =x

then it got to mahjong. yiyang suggested going over to ntu hostel (where he chinhao weemeng are staying) to play mahjong. HAHA. then it became an idea for chalet. haha. and robson said sth like he's going for the sentosa trip (which selene, a perm staff, is planning for the temps). zomgs. but it's on a saturday. UH.

sometimes i do mindless things when i'm at work, like topping up the paper for the ONLY photocopy machine at 2nd floor or sms or stone or take peektures, which i started today. heh. the last photo was coincidental though. :D

okay stop the rambling. it's gonna be a long day tomorrow.

拥抱生命的呼吸 纯净的氧气
一定有希望 藏在某个角落里等你
拥抱生命的灰烬 挣脱的勇气
爱像一颗沙粒 化作永恒的green
11:51 PM