sometimes i do think i have a much larger streak of optimism than normal people. like now i should be panicking about no calls from nus or ntu for appeal interviews, which i do panick once in a while and i keep my phone with me during work. and you know what? i've pretty much planned out how my life would be in the next few months, be it i get into any uni or not (at this rate i'm doubting but i reckon i should be optimistic and stay hopeful)

although it's only june now, i would say 2008 is one of my most memorable years in my life. in fact, i would say it's the most memorable year so far. i took up so many projects, fell down along the way and got myself up again, started working for the first time, getting my first paycheck, starting to live a more independent life (in the money sense) and having a clear aim for my life currently.

i'm not a very sociable person and i tend to stay with people that i'm familiar with, so it's a good thing i still have those friends around. and the friendships that i've made and deepened in the past six months. let's keep them going! (:

and starting to work from scratch in my beloved alma mater. though the recent camp was something that i've not expected, but it's a start and first step out for us and the seniors nonetheless. with constancy and purpose! :D quite shiok that 9 generations turned up for the campfire! i'm very proud of myself that i managed to get one from the generation that always MIA, ie e 1988 batch. :D (and my thighs are still aching from the 100bitboots that me and rachel did on e 2nd day afternoon)

was telling yy yesterday on msn about my new eyecandy. he works in the same dept i'm in (MK is still my eyecandy but i seldom see him now. sigh) but the thing is that he can only be admired from afar. basically he aint that goodlooking (MK is definitely better looking than him) and he's like a mix of yuanwei (my malaysian brainy cousin) and loh zhiwen.

i started noticing him back in my compliance days when i hafta deliver e kyc forms to sylvia at 2nd floor (that's where i am now) for her stamp. not the looks part but the metrosexual part, cuz he was wearing those kinda pointy leather shoes and pastel colours for his top and bottom sometimes. and i thought he was a temp until yuanting clarified with me he aint. then i went to 2nd floor to work. havent start talking to him yet but i reckon he's nice.

felt positive about him on the day when e weighing machine beside a computer for printing dhl labels started beeping like crazy and i was helpless and then he came over and pressed zero for a long time until it stopped beeping. i was quite surprised/stunned. hehe.

the thing about e export department is that there's ALOT of male temps (unlike e kyc project where we had 4 guys and 4 girls just nice), so there's pretty much a variation of guys i would see over there. like another metrosexual guy who wore e acs sweater today (last friday he wore animal print jacket) and he looked like a weasel when he grins; a guy whom i initially cant decide whether he's a guy or girl until today; a guy who looked like some goody-two shoes; and some normal guys like weemeng (whom i'm taking over) but he wears a small button for his left ear today. what an eclectic mix.

i believe my stint in export dept would be more fruitful than e one in compliance, cuz i'm learning more real life things. kyc is just keying in info about the clients, which is quite unrealistic cuz any mistakes can be undone with a click of the mouse. at export we are handling real money (in terms of bills) and any mistakes might result in a loss. btw i overheard in a conversation of weemeng and another guy that btmu is the biggest bank in japan. and yet they have a shortage of permanent staff.

i'm finally having a sjab-less weekend, with me not going ndp tmr. i planned to sleep in but i'm going to see my grandparents off to hongkong and i hafta wake up at 6 (even worse than normal days). then at night gonna meet up with 0622. i'm feeling quite mixed about meeting up with this bunch of people because i havent been talking to them for ages and i suppose i would feel out of place. but well i shall make an effort to go meet them. i can always leave early. :D then sunday is waking up early again for driving lesson. =x

anyways. i'm quite happy now. heeeee. was telling ck and jl on sunday that i'm not looking for any potential bfs (they kept jio-ing me to find one) because currently i can't imagine myself settling down and stay committed with any of the guys i'm hanging out with or potentially have interest in. (ie my eyecandies) when i do feel that way towards a guy, then i guess that's when i would start to commit. otherwise all those random feelings i have would be crushes/infatuations/confusion.

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