2006 led me a beautiful insight of the fac where the comm can have fun while achieving things and fac was successful. in e sense that nothing actually cocked up. then the sine curve theory starts to kick in. once hitting the top (e maxima), things will start to go downhill.

i do admit that i made so many cockups in my term as the logistics officer for fac 2008 that i would have been tekaned like mad if not for the people around, but what happened in the process ytd was truly disappointing. the outcome wasn't an issue anymore cuz we do contribute to a part of it.

this fac had truly opened up my mind and it would serve as a motivation to what i strive to achieve. may i have the drive to continue on and may i have no more bloody migraines/headaches and nausea when i hold on to the talkie for the day.

edited:

it's really annoying when my family doesn't behave like a normal family at times.
9:06 PM

i'm so drained that i can't remember things properly. like just now it took me close to an hour trying to figure out why i've opened a blank Microsoft Word document. and then at work i would start to doze off after staring at the computer for too long. like today while keying in some info, i was so sleepy that i drank a cup of hot milo and coffee and even took a toilet nap and i still feel sleepy. then caren asked me if my work was really mind-boggling. and yesterday i took a toilet nap too. it's getting addictive. rah.

four more days, and i would be relieved for a while before another project kicks in. come to think about it, i wonder what's gotten into me that i would take up so many things at one go. just now while chatting with yy pj jq i said i wanna sleep in on friday and they were surprised. hello i'm not having enough sleep for the past few weeks of course need to sleep in la. somemore i'm going to chiongggggg like crazy for the upcoming weekend. it's damn suay that i tio duty group la.

it's damn contradicting that i'm more free and relaxed when i'm at work. ZZZ.

had lunch with ooi and yt today and it's really funny. and i talked alot about food. haha. and i'm lucky to see MK! walked past him today and yt said that he was looking at us. AH! before that i was resting my head on a cabinet and looking at him. (somehow CBD1 is kinda empty) then he looked up! (but i looked down. hur) :DD and ooi said that mrE resigned! huh.

now that i'll be stationed at 4F until end march i wouldnt have much chance to see MK! sad sad. i'm still contemplating whether i should send him a farewell memo or not. hur.

okay i want to sleep. (provided i can go to sleep)

goodnight.
11:14 PM

wei ting is so tired/sick/lazy that she's only working for 2.5 days this week. :D

the heavy rains are the accomplices too. :DD
1:21 PM

没经过碰撞火花该怎么绽放
被击倒之前出现的是你肩膀

就凭一股倔强 翻越不可能的墙
要用每一道伤 跟自己比赛茁壮

你们是我的星光 留着眼泪陪我成长
回忆在拥抱里灿烂
你们是我的星光 让我们骄傲回头望
曾经用生命歌唱 约定了和你再遥望
同一片星光

我终于明白 跌倒不等于是投降
散场只为了体会重逢有多温暖

擦干泪水站上梦想舞台正中央
但我却更渴望 世界为了你鼓掌

你们是我的星光 留着眼泪陪我成长
回忆在拥抱里灿烂
你们是我的星光 让我们骄傲回头望
曾经用生命歌唱 约定了和你再遥望
同一片星光

看见你眼里散发光芒
我拥有照亮孤单黑夜的力量
朝着未来去闯

你们是我的星光 留着眼泪陪我成长
回忆在拥抱里灿烂
你们是我的星光 让我们骄傲回头望
曾经用生命歌唱 约定了和你再遥望
同一片星光

是我的星光 骄傲回头望
曾经用生命歌唱 约定了和你再遥望
同一片星光

我们的星光
12:21 AM

i have this feeling that my 八字 is very not compatible with hq. if not last sunday i wouldnt be sniffing and coughing like mad and then the next day when i'm in office i felt perfectly fine. or maybe it's because there's MK - nicknamed by yy - around. hur. if i've remembered correctly monday was a not bad day cuz i saw quite much of MK. hee.

then yesterday there's this area at the left side of my neck started to feel very painful. at night when i'm at home it slowly invaded my throat and now i feel a lump in my throat. when i told my parents and grandma about it (e pain at the neck) they said got 热气. perhaps it's the 2 tuna curry puffs i've eaten at hq, cuz lunch for me was sandwich and lemon barley.

and i drank lots of water when i'm in hq. like last sunday i refilled my 500ml bottle for four times and ytd i finished 3 bottles of bottled water before lunch and during debrief think i finished off another 500ml.

then there's the running around hq. somehow people would come ask me to do errands and to hunt for people. i'm wearing court shoes leh. last saturday was horrible enough to testify how tiring it would be when you're running around in culottes and court shoes.

last but not least the bloody meeting. the debrief actually ended around 7plus. but i've got issues to talk to mr tan and hanzhen wants to talk to admin people. so i ended up leaving the hq with kokjian at close to 9. thank goodness there's kokjian around, if not i think i would start freaking out (which i think i kinda did actually). and qingjun was talking cock la! i don't want anything to happen okay.

on another note, i think i've put some weird people in my group. like some people wasn't what i've perceived them to be from the photos given. then other groups such as november has started to go into hysteria mode. i was thinking of putting that one person in my group before, but i think i might just not be able to be very impartial towards that person. seems like this year's otc got lots of history. o.O

i shall strive to work with yongsheng to get Juliet hyped up! even though back in 06 we were quite hyped up (and also had one lao da in the group. ha) but i think we can push the trainees more because there is simply too many quiet ones, or that some of the noisy ones are probably quite crazy. anyway i've kinda told them our propaganda, hopefully they can understand. if not there's also the SI who has gone further in depth during the division interaction.

then went home and started doing admin stuff again. was feeling so knocked out by 12plus that i think i wrote rubbish when i typed the last message to jianlin. thank goodness i took leave today. but i still need to go hq for comp training and there's always the logistics stuff to settle. RAH.

i'm feeling very sick. ):
7:38 AM

我自找的
11:12 PM

reasons for me to be happy even though it's the eve of D-day:

1. I met MrKoh while walking towards Republic Plaza in the underpass! today's like one of the rare days that i would reach early (cuz my dad drove me to the MRT station as my younger brother reports to school at 8.30am on Thursdays). walked beside him when we were inside the building! and we wore similar tops today! grey-silver shirt with black stripes! (okay mine is a shirt-vest thing. but still) :D

2. ate bak kuh teh today for lunch! the soup is soooo nice!

3. ate super sinful gelato brownie with chocolate fudge as my dinner at Changing Appetites and nua-ed there for like an hour or so, whining about tomorrow as the waitress/waiter refilled our cups for like 5 times? there's a trainee waitress by the name of Princess!

4. totally convinced that i love pubs/bars more than clubs (even though i've never stepped into a club as yet) because i love the atmosphere at pubs/bars more! went to Paulaner today and the songs sung were marvellous! think everybody there were amused when the singers read out our song request: We were very sad. A levels results out tomorrow!

5. learned new ways to mix drinks: Cointreau with 7up and Kahlua with milk (there's absolutely no alcoholic taste!). and the waitress who took our orders is very cute! like when charissa asked about Kahlua, she asked if she (char) wants to get drunk quickly anot.

6. met a Nigerian when we were walking to the mrt station! jianrong kept talking to him lo. the Nigerian studied chem engineering and we were like we should visit Nigeria some day! and jianrong suggested that the guy can run for presidency at Nigeria!

7. met Toh Key Boon Kelvin in the train! he was already on the train when i boarded at City Hall lo. but i didn't notice him until the train is heading towards Khatib. turned out that he's in the same company as Yi Zhang and Yi Quan! so qiao!

so much for going on hiatus eh. haha.

i'm really really crossing my fingers about tomorrow. let's just hope i can make it to the top 25% of the cohort. >.<
11:39 PM

78 words

Speed test

tried that out just now so that i can stay awake. but for once i can go sleep before 1am like since Saturday!

and some sjab guys are just so weird. UHH.

12:37 AM

dropping by for a short entry (yy commented ytd that i didn't update my blog) before i plunge into perhaps weeks of chionging work. thus i would most probably be lazy to update here (cuz i might just ramble nonstop once i've started). anyway my readers are probably the fixed few people whom i would meet constantly, so updating this blog or not isn't much of an issue.

received the news of D-Day from yuan ting's friend while slacking in the office and i'm like OMG-ing all the way until we reached MRT station after work. ooi was nice to say that he would treat us to lunch even if we got 4Cs. he recommended me to go India or Japan to study if my results isn't that fantastic. sounds like a good idea but there are things that i don't want to leave behind. it would be very sad to be alone when it's freezing cold with snow in Japan.

anyway wish me luck bah.

xiaojie found out about my eyecandy today and i think my eyecandy is getting suspicious. hee.

OTC is getting more intense as the first course day is drawing near, and I'm still making blunders. sigh.

this is getting tiring
8:10 PM