it's been three days since a's have ended and somehow i'm still unable to get that fact into my brain. there's this sense of strange feeling still hanging around which i've experienced since tuesday. 怅然 i suppose? i can't find the english word for it. bah.

anyway. have been out shopping, kbox-ing and training. was really great, especially yesterday with the kbox and dinner. someone has a hidden talent! and i'm looking forward to the next performance! :D (i'll prepare the music. hehe) [p.s. i just added my ec on facebook! and OMGOMG i know his enlistment date!!! damn qiao manns. :D]

started clearing my room since wednesday and i suppose i'm only close to 50% done with the clearing up. there's so much junk in my room that i'm filling up a box that's been used to hold a stereo set (like those with speakers and everything) soon.

found things like a strange poem that was composed in secondary 1 (think it's a class effort or something) and there's about no cute guys in anderson and go find some in catholic high. the teachers are not as good-looking as britney and tom cruise (and the next line wrote that they were ugly. lol). then i found this chatlog that made me stop my work and reminisce for a while.

when i started reading it i thought it was one of the rubbish chatlog sbut the last part got me thinking about the relationship that started (well it was kinda in one part) and ended online. just goes to show how easily people fall in love, and how technology can bring people closer or further apart. a few days ago i was thinking how unsuitable to go into a relationship at an early age and seeing that chatlog just further proves my point. and i was quite surprised about how rational and serious the other party was at the last part of the chatlog. although back then i did suspect at that point of time the other party had already fallen for someone else but well, whether it was true doesn't matter anymore. it's been a few years and we had moved on.

while reading the chatlog and reminiscing the past, 梁静茹's 生命中不可承受的轻 played in my cd player and i think it kinda suited how i felt. i'm in charge of my life now and it will stay the same for the years to come.

梁静茹 - 生命中不可承受的轻

让耳机循环这旋律
反复超重低音震动着宁静
挡风玻璃里爱成了蒙太奇
我哼着我自己的叹息

只是爱与被爱的比例
不是爱或不爱的问题
如果明天还有好天气
都已经跟你没关系

你让我梦见太美的梦
生命中不可承受的轻
你证明了每一颗流星
都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以
所以了这一百年孤寂
你洒下默默无言的雨一滴
一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴

偶阵雨偶尔会天晴
还好星光熠熠好心的提醒
一个人追寻一个人的和平
我看见我自己的天际

爱真的需要一点勇气
就看我们敢不敢忘记
我和彩虹最短的直径
也不一定没有你不行

你让我梦见太美的梦
生命中不可承受的轻
你证明了每一颗流星
都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以
所以了这一百年孤寂
你洒下默默无言的雨一滴
一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴

就让我狠狠地加速前进
脱离你所给我的梦境
再零点零零一公里
就可以清醒
我决定不再等你决定
我决定不再当局者迷
我决定属于我自己的黎明
距离你一世纪 下一个世纪
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