this week is truly a mad rush week. imagine out of 5 school days there is 4 tests and another test on a saturday. i was still freaking out last weekend and it's another weekend now. how many more mad rush weeks will i have until it's e big A's? i wonder.

on top of that, the no green week isn't very effective after all, with only hockey girls winning rjc and getting into the finals. (haven't heard about girls soccer yet)

as for soccer.. i think many of us are still very emotional. it was especially upsetting at ccab last night. what we are feeling is definitely similar to how the victorians felt during the earlier match with rjc.

but no matter what, the soccer team is still a winner. the school spirit felt yesterday was at its peak. it's been so long since i've cheered till my throat went hoarse and was aching after i reached home yesterday. and it's nobody's fault, seriously.

like what ms chan said yesterday, everything happens for a reason. i can't agree more about that, though that sounds kinda negative. but well, whatever will be, will be. but seeing some of the soccer boys with the glum faces after today's physics test just made me feel more depressed. sigh.

went to church for the first time out of my own intention. i was expecting to be like a big church where we sit on the long benches, kneel down for prayers at certain points of the time, sing some songs while sitting on the benches, etc. but well, it's been modernised with the foldable chairs (it can still stand when e seat is folded!), rock band and a hip pastor. it felt like the sa Life concert that i attended last year.

it was good. i think it's just me who cannot accept it wholeheartedly and that it's a clash of some of the beliefs, cuz i dun agree with some of the things mentioned during the bible study today. and my main aim is actually to find out more about the bible, cuz my interest is in the contents of the bible, and not exactly on the faith. so i felt kinda out of place when the other people were raising their hands to feel His presence during the songs and prayers and i'm just standing down there and kinda stone.

but well, shall go again some time soon to see how it would go. but i'm being doubtful that i would be converted completely.

sometimes i'm just amazed at how some occurrences of events would lead me down a very different path that i have never thought of. but well, i'm learning to adjust appropriately, so that i wouldn't disappoint myself again.

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