GEEZ!

i'm losing my motivation like as soon as the school holidays has started. sleeping in the wee hours and that resulted in the massive headache being implanted in my head for days. then there is the numerous meetings to tie up the loose ends for the camp in 2 days' time. but i'm excited about using the new hydration pack that i've bought and my patrol looks pretty good! hehe. not to mention seeing the cub scouts again! ooooohhh i'm becoming a paedolphile. :D

and people, PLEASE TAG AT MY BOARD! was talking to yy yesterday and fy today and i was quite surprised that they read about my entry on saturday. and nono you all don't know who is the person that i'm talking about. okay la maybe got 1percent knows cuz i've divulged about that person like once this year. and now i'm missing that person again. dammit. just grant me a chance to be able to talk to you again so that i can get a decent answer! can't believe that it's haunting me again after i've tried putting it behind me with your ridiculous reply 3years ago.

the heat is definitely getting into my head cuz i'm missing all sorts of people right now. miss those times when i could talk cock with them! like the oldmen of otc, bwc (had a good chat with zk ytd!), vbc (it's been sooooo long since we've last gossiped!) and my beloved asjab-ers. wanna dine at New York New York like soon!

my 2nd right toenail is threatening to fall off anytime soon and it has to fall off. gross. just now went to read my eyecandy's blog from the very first entry and i realise he's really an ideal boyfriend in my opinion. wahhah. anyway i should come up with some ways to ward off mervyn and shaun should they decide to attack me again during the camp, not to mention they've got the height advantage which they've displayed today. brrr.

i heart the SAS cotton tees even though a certain Mr Ching says that i'm damn poser by wearing those tshirts out for meetings. BOO.

you are still in my mind.
5:04 PM

从心之所行 即是正道
2:51 AM

it's just so puzzling that some people can remain in your mind even though it's been ages since you've last seen them. somehow you'll be reminded of them when you see something that is related to them. like their school, their cca, your common friends or just seeing their names while going through your Friendster friends list in random.

it's like, such pangs are not there for your other friends whom you've also never seen in ages, but only for just that group of people. and the strange thing is, the feeling comes randomly. like when you're on a bus and it went past the blocks of flats that you've walked home with the person back when you were still in contact, or passing by the place where you've last met with silence as the only greetings.

or perhaps, it's just because the question that i've asked was not answered, and probably would never be answered, that is making me hold on for so long.
9:15 PM

yesterday was such a memorable day.

the main highlight is definitely the 3rd/4th placing soccer match against vjc. it was so important that my class decided to go for the soccer match instead of the hockey girls finals against vjc. after all, the vice-captain is our class rep! SIVA! :D

was counting down to 1.30pm when school officially ends and then we headed for National Stadium! followed hanming and other kayakers along with huihui bernice elaine. met jiaqing along the way. seeing National Stadium again reminds me of NDP'03. too bad jiaqing was gone before i could reminisce the NDP times with him. =(

the match started shortly after we've arrived. was not bad, given vjc is a strong team. (jiawei said that the vjc team has gone into finals for 7years until this year) was very impressed with the goal that jeremy ong scored during the first half. it's like, he scored at SUCH a distance! was like OHMYGOSH when he scored. and he got this very bad abrasion on his right knee lar! zai. (:

the second goal scored by vjc took us really by surprise, cuz they scored shortly after second half started. nevertheless, the game is well-played, given some of them were with injuries (zechoa passed his captain armband to siva towards the end of the match cuz of his injury) when they were playing the game.

stayed on to watch the finals with rjc against mjc. mjc was like so WOW cuz they practically got their whole school down for the match and they started arriving in big groups from 3pm plus onwards, when their match is at 4.30pm. and the size of the rjc audience definitely pales in comparison. initially i was having this neutral attitude towards who should win, but towards the end i supported mjc. probably because i feel that rjc won too many championships le. haha!

during halftime, went to look for the soccer boys along with huihui, but to no avail. guessed that they were showering or something. after psycho-ing huihui to stay cuz got the prize presentation, we were watching the match when we noticed the guys have all changed into their full school uniform. i would prefer to see them in their jerseys, or at least Team SAJC tshirt. but well, during the prize presentation, overheard this vjc girl saying that our tie is nice. so okay lar, our uniform rocks. haha.

anyway, jinghui got man-of-the-match for the semi-final match against mjc and kuoloon got the GOLDEN BOOT AWARD by scoring 6 goals for the season! (: [Mr Ben Soh joked during today's prize presentation for Team SAJC that if kuoloon scored 12 goals we probably could have won the championships. something liddat. ha]

and i malu-ated myself again during the prize presentation. something is terribly wrong with me lar, cuz i didn't even notice in the first place! haiyos. left the stadium with huihui charlene xiaoxuan hamida when they were presenting the medals to mjc cuz we dun want to be caught in the crowd.

chionged down to Raffles Place mrt station to meet up with fangyi jiawei zhirong vincent. zhirong's still so tall as always. got kinda intimidated by him when he was standing behind me at the florist. but it would be nice if i have a tall boyfriend. but maybe not THAT tall after all. haha. then off for Victoria Concert Hall for MJC choir concert! (gan.jiaohao joined us later)

the concert was not bad, though i was kinda induced to sleep at a point of time, but that's because i'm tired. was cheering for sa like crazy during the match. bleah. anyway the Anglican High choir n Tanjong Katong Sec choir are kinda spooky. urgh. i like the last song mjc sang, The Beatles's When I'm Sixty-Four. very sweet!

then met up with the rest of the Andersonians to give the flowers to vijay! then the six of us waited for vijay to be done with the briefings and photo-taking sessions before we headed for home! reminded me of the times when we would work late for the council stuff and then go home together! miss those times mann. sigh.

wednesday was ASJAB's ROD. seeing e sec3 kids taking over made me nostalgic, cuz they were only sec1s when we were just took over as ncos. and then now they are the ncos. time is really flying fast.

my mind is definitely malfunctioning, if not i wouldn't be behaving so strangely lar. some of the girls in my class wondered if i had gone crazy today, cuz i was like kinda cranky and everything. partly because i only reach home at 12am plus last night and slept at 1am plus, and i got this kinda bad hoarse voice cuz of the cheering yesterday. i seriously considered the option of ponning, but for the sake of physics i went. ha. and to see some people before we go off for the holidays. (:

Great Singapore Sale starts today! :D

我难道要找爱情证明我会笑
2:10 PM

OHMANNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel damn malu-ated after seeing the reply! SUPER OHMYTIAN LA.

it's like, i really dun believe that ______ will reply!!!!! was like uber shocked when i checked my mail and saw that email. damn stunned. i thought it would just be disregarded and leave it there to rot or something, so i decided to write to express my opinion. but there's actually a reply!

and the tone sounded so typical. but it's friendly actually. hahahaah! ohmygosh what if ______ come over here and read this? but i think wun be so boliao la. i'm crossing my fingers about it. hehehe.

i bet most of you are catching no ball here, but nevermind, cuz it's something quite stupid that i've done. and only some people knew cuz i told them i'm planning to do so earlier on and they read it. bet they would also be surprised. hahaha!

i love the basketball game today during pe! was so funny and all. you all rocked! =D

anyway. hopefully Mr Chay will grant my wish for Thursday when i go look for him tomorrow! he better be, cuz he wrote our class down for the match!

Up and On! (:

p.s. changed the blog song! (:
5:51 PM

i JUST have the itch to blog about Windstruck.

watched the movie last night at 11pm plus on my laptop. i have been like planning to sleep REALLY late so that i can wake up late the next morning to skip breakfast. sounds weird eh. but on top of that, i really like using the comp late at night, cuz everybody else is sleeping and it feels as though you're the only person awake in this world. like 众人皆醉我独醒 eh. like this is the time when nobody would disturb you with all the things that would make you frustrated and everything. and this is one of the few times that i can stay up till so late and be alone, cuz my brothers and my parents are currently out of town. gonna do the same thing for next weekend cuz they're out of town again. hehe.

anyway. about the movie. actually i was planning to like play some games but i was lazy to strain my eyes and so i decided to browse through the movies folder and chose this movie. cuz watching Pirates of the Caribbean at midnight would disrupt the serene feeling that i'm having then. heh. and so Windstruck.

the storyline is a bit kooky about Jeon Jihyun being the policewoman filled with 冲劲. quite cute but have some resemblances to the character that she played in My Sassy Girl. Zhang Hyuk is very cute and very sweet! i mean, who in the right mind would rush down to the crime scene to help his girlfriend to capture some criminals? and he's damn good at guessing where the place is.

Jeon Jihyun looked REALLY PRETTY in the official police uniform (e no.1 uniform i suppose?). and her long hair! ohmann.

though the later part of the movie is quite touching, but it just feels kinda weird. like, got that 灵异feeling lar. but okay la, kinda sweet and everything.

the songs played in the movie are very nice! i like Knockin' On Heaven's Door and X-Japan's Tears. must listen! and the lyrics are very meaningful. yeah. the song you're listening now is the midi version of X-Japan's Tears. the actual version is like 10mins! ha.

this movie kinda made me think much more. like how people should move on with their lives even though something heartbreaking has struck them. because eventually, there's someone out there who would smoothen out the pain. like the last part of the movie where Jeon Jihyun met ____. most importantly, the memories can be kept forever in the heart. yeah.

one more week of school and it's holidays! how fast time flies. it seemed only yesterday that we are still in term1. i felt that i've learned a lot of things in the past six months and they serve as good reminders about what type of person i am and how i should do things in the future.

time through the rain has set me free
sands of time will keep your memory
3:27 PM

this week is truly a mad rush week. imagine out of 5 school days there is 4 tests and another test on a saturday. i was still freaking out last weekend and it's another weekend now. how many more mad rush weeks will i have until it's e big A's? i wonder.

on top of that, the no green week isn't very effective after all, with only hockey girls winning rjc and getting into the finals. (haven't heard about girls soccer yet)

as for soccer.. i think many of us are still very emotional. it was especially upsetting at ccab last night. what we are feeling is definitely similar to how the victorians felt during the earlier match with rjc.

but no matter what, the soccer team is still a winner. the school spirit felt yesterday was at its peak. it's been so long since i've cheered till my throat went hoarse and was aching after i reached home yesterday. and it's nobody's fault, seriously.

like what ms chan said yesterday, everything happens for a reason. i can't agree more about that, though that sounds kinda negative. but well, whatever will be, will be. but seeing some of the soccer boys with the glum faces after today's physics test just made me feel more depressed. sigh.

went to church for the first time out of my own intention. i was expecting to be like a big church where we sit on the long benches, kneel down for prayers at certain points of the time, sing some songs while sitting on the benches, etc. but well, it's been modernised with the foldable chairs (it can still stand when e seat is folded!), rock band and a hip pastor. it felt like the sa Life concert that i attended last year.

it was good. i think it's just me who cannot accept it wholeheartedly and that it's a clash of some of the beliefs, cuz i dun agree with some of the things mentioned during the bible study today. and my main aim is actually to find out more about the bible, cuz my interest is in the contents of the bible, and not exactly on the faith. so i felt kinda out of place when the other people were raising their hands to feel His presence during the songs and prayers and i'm just standing down there and kinda stone.

but well, shall go again some time soon to see how it would go. but i'm being doubtful that i would be converted completely.

sometimes i'm just amazed at how some occurrences of events would lead me down a very different path that i have never thought of. but well, i'm learning to adjust appropriately, so that i wouldn't disappoint myself again.

2208hrs
9:51 PM

NO GREEN WEEK!

YEAH.

the KILLER WEEK has officially arrived. had physics spa today. not bad. hehe. then tomorrow got reading quiz, then chem lecture test on wednesday, maths lecture test on friday and then physics lecture test on saturday. WOOHOOO. lol.

this week is also the NO GREEN WEEK as stated above. cuz this week we got like FOUR matches against RJC lar.

hockey girls vs rjc (semis, today)
hockey boys vs rjc (semis, tomorrow)
rugby vs rjc (shld be semis, wednesday)
soccer girls vs rjc (shld be semis, saturday)

according to what i found out from siva, they would be playing against mjc for semis, (anyway they lost to MI 1-0. BOO) and the finals might be during the holidays! ohmygosh. will be so cool if sa got into finals, cuz e finals will be played at National Stadium! (:

even though it's against vjc mjc (e same teams in semis last year) and rjc (not confirmed yet but heard that rjc this year not bad sia), sa shall persevere! :D

tomorrow need to face that woman during gp to explain why my essay was late. SIAN.

2016hrs
8:08 PM

You scored as French/Spanish/Other Language. You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) a foreign language, especially French of Spanish as they have greater use in today's world. But other langugaes could be useful as well, such as Chinese, Japanese, German, Italian, or many others. With a major in a foreign language you could teach, or work for a company as a translator or foreign correspondant.

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didn't think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and combine your interests. A minor in a foreign langugage is useful for ANY major. Also, business or political science are great minors for a foreign language major. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage - 100%
English/Journalism/Comm - 88%
Visual&PerformingArts - 75%
Psychology/Sociology - 63%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health - 63%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts - 63%
Education/Counselling - 56%
Religion/Theology - 50%
HR/BusinessManagement - 50%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing - 44%
Mathematics/Statistics - 44%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology - 38%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy - 31%
Physics/Engineering/Computer - 31%

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looks like i'm really meant for the arts! hahah. maybe i should really try taking up another language again, even though i've failed my french badly back in secondary school. i was too busy slacking! haha. but i didn't know french and spanish are more useful than chinese eh.

anyway i'm feeling kinda sleepy again. slept at 3plus last night, cuz i was planning to finish all the homework due next week so that i can devote my time to study today and tomorrow, after i reach home from Fright Night. and so i started doing the GP essay at around 11plus. finished at around 1am plus and then i started copying into the paper (i started with Micrsoft Word so that i can edit easily). the next thing i know is that i start to doze off. zzz. lots of liquid paper on e papers. think mrskang's gonna like *#)(*&@. HECK. ha.

suddenly i'm at a loss of what to write. school life hasn't been interesting cuz it's always study study study. though i do have some incentives sometimes. :D but quite sad that i cant join celine pj jq in town yesterday. SIGH.

ohyar i agree with yy that S.H.E's 五月天 rocks! heh. listened to the entire album online yesterday. was not bad. the first few tunes are rather refreshing and interesting, like the song with like 30song names that are in Jay's albums? heh. the songs that selina hebe ella wrote are not bad too. yep.

this week for scripture reading, think it's Ms Chia (VP) who talked about there's a season for everything. i think that's really meaningful. like knowing what is the right thing to do at the right time. i've blundered in that area before and i'm learning not to do so again. yep.

To everything there is a season,
a time for every purpose under the heaven.

A time to be born and a time to die;
a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill and a time to heal;
a time to break down and a time to build up;

A time to weep and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to seek and a time to lose;
a time to keep and a time to cast away;

A time to rend and a time to sew;
a time to keep silent and a time to speak;

A time to love and a time to hate;
a time for war and a time for peace

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

i think i'm getting more influenced about christianity after being in sa for nearly two years. all the scripture readings during morning assembly, all the morning devotions before work during ocip, prayers before activities etc. but i'm still kinda giving christianity a benefit of the doubt, so that's still quite okay. yeah.

there's a season for everything

10:59 AM

the weather has been SO HOT!

zhenyew commented that i was trying to act like cedar girls by rolling up my sleeves. i tot is raffles girls? hmm. and i kena caught by a teacher with my rolled-up sleeves and loose tie while in e library. opps.

and i start to feel the STRESS coming in! ohmann. next week has been certified to be THE KILLER WEEK with physics spa, chemistry lecture test, maths lecture test and physics lecture test all in one week! super ohmann lar.

anyway today's PE rocks! went to the gallery like 30mins after pe starts, cuz i was doing a physics spa worksheet in the library. heh. Mr Kieu asked me if i'm going for the 4.30pm class issit. (our lesson is 3.30-4.30) hah!

ran on the treadmill in the gym for 10mins and i wanna die liao. the speed is like 11.6m/s leh! it's so amazing that i can keep in pace with it. if i run for another 3-4 mins think i could have completed 2.4 le lor. lol. i think i like gym! haha.

played bball with huihui maurice zhenyew and a j1 guy named TianLun (according to huihui) who's damn zai in bball! but he joined golf cuz he likes golf. heh. felt so nice sitting at the bball court as me n huihui watched e guys continued playing bball, cuz there's no sun shining directly at us and there's a cool breeze. nice. (:

went for the uniform groups meeting at 5.30 and i was craving for sugary drink. bleah. now i think i know why jq likes sugary drinks le. haha.

feeling kinda good now, cuz most of the frustration that i had last week is gone. it's like, after the biking trip, suddenly everything just opens up to me and i realised some things are just not meant to be brooded over for so long. it's just a matter of whether you can let it go or not. and i let it go. so yeah. life is good, minus e part that need to mug SO MUCH. =(

头发甩甩 大步的走开
不怜悯心底 小小悲哀
挥手bye bye 祝你们愉快
我会 一个人活得精彩
7:34 PM

i love SPIDEY! :D

was damn lazy to leave the house actually. but it's been some time since i've last met shiyun khairul and so i went. think i felt kinda tired from the cycling earlier on i suppose, though i've only cycled for like half an hour. i miss cycling! :(

watched the two ate their lunch and chatted. congrats to shiyun about the internship! i want something from US! :D then went to Spotlight to get some strings. dunno why but i'm like very into making DIY stuffs lately. but it wasn't very nice actually.. bleah.

after buying some chips went into the theatre! as usual GV extended the starting time by 20mins of adverts. ohwell. they should really try to reduce the amount of adverts before the starting of the movies lor. if not people would just say aiya GV sure will start late de so we can slowly take our time to go. please take into consideration of those who are punctual okay. this is almost like trying to cultivate a being-late culture, just like the chinese weddings. but anyway, at least Cathay is punctual. think Shaw is about the same bah.

the movie is TOTALLY AWESOME! as usual, the movie has meaningful themes, and that is to forgive and making the right choices, like what Harry did in the end. but it would be great if they can do away with Peter Parker dancing along the streets. it's probably used as a portray of him becoming a very different person but personally i dun find it very entertaining. my expression is like those people in the movie when they watched him dancing along the streets. so URGH. =x

and please please NO Spiderman 4! i can't imagine what new plots they could come up with. Peter has let go of the past grievances and it's time they should move on. just let him continue to be the friendly neighhourhood spiderman. he and mary-jane would definitely get married eventually mah.

now i'm looking forward to Pirates of the Caribbean: The World's End! the trailer looked so amazing, minus the Welcome to Singapore! by Chow Yun Fatt. it's so OHMANN cann. but there's always Captain Sparrow. ((:

after the movie went to meet up with my eldest brother, jiayan (my cousin) and jeremy. sat there and chat for a while before jeremy met up with his friends to watch Spiderman 3. after that went off to Somerset with the intention of meeting up with another cousin xiaoxuan to take train together.

seriously, i dunno why my brother's like so excited or something la. it's just ______ lor. and i think he's trying to get me to go church next week by the Popular student card. so -.- lar. but well. see whether i'm lazy or not. haha.

i've actually intended to type a short entry cuz fangyi said i always write long entries. haha. now should be okay right?

anyway. I REALLLYY WANNA WATCH 盛夏光年 LAR. why is it R21?!?! but khairul gave me a webbie that i can watch! or i can get my brothers to buy the DVD. hehe.

it's all about choices
8:03 PM

okay lar, shall blog a cheery entry. has been emo-y that i can't stand it. after all, i'm the type who can't be emo-y for too long. even if i'm very miserable the night before, i can still joke the next day in school. that's how weird i am.

anyway. today has been a not bad day. physics tutorial was okay, but i slept too much during maths lecture. opps. and i had omelette for lunch which made me SO FULL! lol. had a short gp presentation meeting with yumin arpita before heading for Island Cremery to meet peijun and stephanie who joined us later. saw Mr Lim Meng Chye at the bus-stop near SJI. at 3pm plus lar! i didn't know teachers can end so early. =p

the apple pie + ice-cream was nice, but i think i still love mudpie more. ha. damn sinful cann. and dun put 2 emo-y/spastic girls (ie peijun stephanie) together, cuz they would do nonsensical stuff! like calling yongsheng on steph's phone and choonkeong/jiaqing on peijun's phone (steph pretended to be peijun. lol). and junyang on my phone. thanks ah. =l

but it was a great time with the girls. and PEIJUN WE DIDN'T TAKE PHOTO AT ISLAND CREMERY! totally forgot about it sia. =(

ohyar yy your message is sweet. (:

then went back to sa. while walking to the bus-stop, i find the weather damn nice cann. such clear blue sky with the greenery. ohmann. i wanna live in Bukit Timah! then can cycle around for all i want. but i might get lost though. haha.

slacked at the TCIP (teachers CIP) booth with chunlok shawn yunlu. then watched the kayakers having their land training. hanming's like kept doing pull-ups lar. super OMG cann. is strong de lor. ha.

then my parents + 2nd eldest brother + younger brother came. saw zelda xiaoxuan when i went to meet them at the foyer. then went up to homeroom to see Mrs Loi. the comments okay la. i didn't know i've expressed interest in Econs though. ha. and Mrs Kang (my gp tutor) didn't know i was her student!! my mum asked Mrs Loi about GP, then she checked through the comments sheet by the tutors, and asked if i'm from Ms Suzie's class, and i said i'm in Mrs Kang's class. then she said that Mrs Kang said that she don't teach me. -.- well done eh. to think that she's like saying i've managed to get the contention for the gp presentations! doinks.

after that left the school and picked up my eldest brother. then after some decision, dropped my dad off at Potong Pasir cuz he's going Harbourfront to catch a cruise with his colleagues. then we headed for AMK hub. wanted to eat Pepper Lunch, but it's crowded, so we decided to go New York New York. but the same situation occurs. so ate at Mos Burger instead.

but the service sucks cann. i ordered Kakiage burger and the first burger they gave me is Yakiniku (some beef burger) burger. then i told them, and they got me Unagi burger. well done eh.

ohyar. shall blog about the soccer match on Monday, since waiching wrote that you can read my blog about it. ha.

the match was okay, given that both sides had scored a goal each. but at least SA is really a goal (scored by a J1 Irwin! he reminds me of kuoloon since first intake. ha) while vjc is a corner-derived goal la. opps. haha. if our corner-kicks are done better, i think we might have scored a couple of more goals lo.

once again i got impressed by jeremy ong's skills. it's like, he was with one opponent, trying to gain possession of the ball, and the ball was reaching the borders like really soon, and then he kicked and it flew to the other side of the field. was so nice cann. haha.

and siva nearly got injured again. must take care of himself eh! i was like kept shouting at the guys to jiayou when i was sitting with waiching and her friend among the victorians. hha. and it's my first time seeing so many saints at a soccer match when it wasn't even the semis.

judging from how the team has performed so far, i think our soccer team can proceed to the semis bah. and they still got a re-match with MI next week lo. can de lar! haha. and hockey too. heard that they have been performing well so far.

gonna watch Spiderman 3 tomorrow! yayness. but i'm going REALLY BROKE. have been drawing on my foreign reserves (ie savings) lor. BLEAH.

at the end of my previous entry, i wrote that 等到放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点 and guess what, it didn't rain today. and that's after i've checked the weather forecast on Teletext at 6am this morning and the forecast said that there would be thunder and rain in many areas. and Potong Pasir have been like raining for the past few days lo. so i guess that meant i would be better. that's a good sign.

Shakespeare:

人们可以控制自己的命运 若我们受制于人 那错不在命运 而在我们自己

(it's in Chinese cuz i kop-ed it from a chinese blog. heh. but it's really apt.)
10:18 PM

it has been hard trying to focus on what you want to focus on. moreover, time has been flying so fast. it's like, POOF! and people would be exclaiming TGIF! tomorrow.

anyway, whatever i have typed in the previous entry stays. i'm at a loss of how to think and feel now. do i believe, or do i doubt? it's like, there's so many mixed signals and i can't think straight enough to figure it out.

my mind has been spinning so much that i'm using work to numb it out. and it has been very useful actually. it's probably a matter of time before i could laugh at how foolish i was.

等到放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
8:13 PM