飞轮海 - 夏雪

你给的爱带着温度 尤其拥抱时最清楚
心跳传来的起伏 像一颗跳动的暖炉
手放进口袋的温度 融化了走过的路途
冰天雪地的国度 能抱着你就很满足

谁都知道 气候会变 更别说诺言
你的冬衣 还留在我窗前

你的世界已经准时晴天 远方的我在夏天看雪
我的孤独慢慢冻结 在没有你的夜
给我的爱已经过了期限 而我的心在夏天下雪
明明寒冬已经很远 我还是无法结束这冬眠

我的世界乱了季节 赤道居然会飘着雪
热带雨林的原野 看起来白茫茫一片
回忆在我心中积雪 连日出也无法溶解
应该流汗的夏天 可是却一直流眼泪

谁都知道 气候会变 更别说诺言
你的冬衣 还留在我窗前

你的世界已经准时晴天 远方的我在夏天看雪
我的孤独慢慢冻结 在没有你的夜
给我的爱已经过了期限 而我的心在夏天下雪
明明寒冬已经很远 我还是无法结束这冬眠

没有你的夜

你的世界已经准时晴天 远方的我在夏天看雪
我的孤独慢慢冻结 在没有你的夜
给我的爱已经过了期限 而我的心在夏天下雪
明明寒冬已经很远 我还是无法结束这冬眠

2112hrs
9:10 PM

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

yay. =D

thanks to all those who sent me e christmas messages! appreciated it. (:

woke up damn early today at 7am even though i went to sleep like around 1.30am. n i was earlier than my dad! ha. went out to buy breakfast with him.

went to watch The Holiday in the afternoon. had lunch at Long John Silvers and i ate crunchy shrimp and potato salad. sounds kinda pathetic, but it's not bad, just that it needs more dressing.
and The Holiday is great! though i think the part for Kate Winslet and Jack Black is more realistic, as compared to Cameron Diaz and Jude Law. it's sweeter, and the movie reminds me of Love Actually, even though i have never watched it before. kinda intended to catch it last night, but well.. lol.

then went walking around. before that, while i was in the mrt towards City Hall, lots of filippinos boarded at Novena and alighted at Orchard. seems like Orchard Road is more attractive than City Hall area eh. but i think City Hall area is more accessible, in terms of the shopping malls that i get to go. walked around Marina Square, Suntec City, Bugis Village and Bugis Junction. thank goodness it only rained for a short while when we were walking around Bugis Village.

then i saw quite a number of people either carrying Puma bags or wearing Puma tees, especially around the Bugis area. there's quite a number of Puma bags at Bugis Village and i'm like, ohmann! but dun have the black & yellow Puma bag that 汪东城 carried in 花样少年少女. ha. but there's this black bag that's not bad. or the black-green one. hee. and there's this stationery shop in Bugis Junction that's got this range of Puma pencil-boxes that are around the same price of the bag that we've seen in Bugis Village.

but i dun mind the pinkish-red number 10 Puma jersey that we've saw at the WhyPayMore? shop in Suntec City too. cuz 汪东城 wore that jersey in 花样少年少女 and i think it's nice! heee. so yar zhengyang e nonsense guy i'm indeed crazy. hehehe!

and i personally feel that the range of apparel available at the Puma shop is kinda limited. i find the sweater in the guys section so attractive! hahah. but the grey-green jacket at the ladies section is not bad too. but i still prefer the white&green jacket that i saw quite some time back. bleah.

and saw rainbow while on the train from Yio Chu Kang towards Khatib! nice nice! =DD and i found 终极一班 OST! 大東 looked so 台 cann. haha! =D

gonna leave for Genting in like less than 7hrs' time. hopefully i can find shops that sell Puma over there. lol. it's like, Northpoint got THREE sports shops (Royal Sporting House, Sportslink, World of Sports. for some reason Northpoint suddenly become a sporty area eh) and only ONE has Puma products. weird eh.

i've been listening to 花样少年少女 OST ever since i've gotten it. and i've been playing S.H.E's 怎么办 and 飞轮海's 超喜欢你 over and over again and i'm still not sick of it. think i'm going sick. hahah! 大東 rocks eh! hee.

gonna watch 花样少年少女 ep4! everybody enjoy the last few hours of christmas alrights! (:

2032hrs
8:10 PM

okay i'm happy. cuz i got a new pair of Havaianas! not the white & blue pair that i've seen at The Cathay when i went to buy the pair for celine, and not the white&green Brazilian Praia that i think was quite nice too. but green nevertheless! hehehe.

the guy who served us was really nice, and even spoke Chinese to my mum and dad! he was introducing this pair of recycled-tire slippers to my dad which he said is more suitable to adults and even took one off his feet (he was wearing the slippers cuz those were only available at The Heeren. we were at The Cathay) and let my dad try! and on top of that, the black long-sleeved tshirt that he was wearing (on top of another black tshirt that he's wearing. somehow i just managed to see the hint of another tshirt lar. haha) is damn nice! it looked totally comfy!

okay lar, the major plus point is that he's good-looking. hahaah! and i saw his nametag. Vincent! hahah. the other vincent that i know doesn't match up to this guy i saw! xP

after the Cathay we headed for Plaza Singapura. drove from The Cathay to PS despite the short distance (and e rain) cuz of my foot. =x

then we saw this really awesome white BMW convertible at the carpark, which can be really called sports car cuz of the tires. damn cool okay! and we saw the car owner at Carrefour. (:


when we were walking from the Starhub shop at first level towards Carrefour, saw this guy whom i've seen when we were at The Cathay, heading for the stairs beside Billy Bombers. he was wearing this black jacket backwards (as in, the zip was at his back) and at the back of the jacket i saw NGEE ANN. ngee ann poly! ohmann. and yes he's good-looking too. haha. told my eldest brother about him and we agreed that while guys will look at good-looking girls, girls would look at good-looking guys too (like duh). haha!

then yesterday went to Causeway Point! wanted to buy some new tops from Samuel & Kevin which i've seen quite some time back, but don't have! =(

but on a brighter note, i got 飞轮海album, 花样少年少女电视原声带 and 终极一班 VCD! wahha. all bcuz of 大東 (somehow i just like the 繁体版 of 东. lol). my mum commented today that i always manage to buy something everytime we go out. hee. =DDD

the card inside the album. (:

but no Puma shoes for me! my dad sorta wanted to go Queensway to get the white&green Puma match shoes but well, i got Havaianas. and the price is the same at Royal Sporting House, but i dunno whether RSH got 15% discount like what Queensway have. if only Queensway got size US6! =(

christmas tomorrow! yay.

i need to stop emo-ing.

1908hrs

6:49 PM

天空灰得像哭过
离开你以后
并没有 更自由

酸酸的空气
嗅出我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
3:59 PM

PUMA!!!!

lala. crazy again. =DD this time i've added a photo spread of the scenes that i've captured while watching 花样少年少女 ep1 n ep2 on YouTube. ((:

the logo! ((:
i think this jacket that 吴尊 is wearing is quite nice. brown brown de! got e suede feel. and Ella is wearing the pink Nike jacket. the logo design is quite nice.
汪东城 is wearing the Italian jersey with a Puma soccer ball! Ella is wearing Nike jacket.
this jacket is quite nice too. it would be even better if the pink is actually green. =DD
i like the jacket that 汪东城 is wearing!! and the square bag that he's carrying is uber nice too!
吴尊's duffel bag was not bad too.
i like this tshirt! niceeee! =DD
the Puma shirt is at the bottom left hand corner. heee.
close up of the square bag that i like! i realised, that i prefer 秀伊 (汪东城) over 泉 (吴尊)! just like when i was watching 爱情魔法师 i prefer 尔奇 (王绍伟) over 亚斯 (明道). lalala. i think 大东(汪东城's nick)is so much cuter. hahahah.
in a soccer match. puma jersey!
when he's getting confused over his feelings for 瑞莃 (Ella). it's quite funny and cute. haha!

Tank - 专属天使

我不会怪你对我伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

*
i've been thinking too much. it's time to let go. and let nature run its own course..

1230hrs
11:27 AM

I WANT PUMA!!!

watched 花样少年少女 (by Ella 吴尊 汪东城) ep1 today. and the two male leads are like totally decked in Puma! (while Ella's wearing Nike) not that i wanted Puma just because they were wearing. it just turned out that the jacket that caught my eye while on the bus to vivocity on one fine evening was a white&green puma jacket, which not even the white&green everlast jacket that i saw during my ocip trip can match with it, and the shoes that caught my eye while i was at queensway last week was a pair of white&green Puma match shoes! hahha.

my chinese medicine looked like milo powder but taste like crap! and the only solace i can find is the cola chupa chups that i bought today at ntuc. i cant eat the ferrero rocher and the m&m and the other chocolate that is stocked in the freezer! and neither can i drink the snapple juices in my fridge! no cold stuff, less meat and no seafood! =(((

and this is the first time in my life that i learned that infection can happen even without the presence of bacteria. =x and wingkei said that it's disgusting. lol! but hopefully my foot can get cured once and for all. and i like the doctor who attended to me today. she's better than the past few doctors that i've seen at the same clinic. she can tell me what is exactly wrong with my foot, and even pointed out to me that my body isn't exactly functioning properly.

had exco meeting today (with only 3 excos around) and it's kinda.. disheartening? but at least i'm truthful when i answered als' questions. ohwell. and heard some stuff that i shouldn't have heard. and i really don't want to hear.

anyway thanks to charissa for offering her ear for me to pour everything out. in fact, i was kinda surprised when she messaged me online. thanks again. (:

next year, i'll really put those stuff behind. i'm succeeding, but at a part i just can't get through. maybe i'll pull through when i try to get myself to come to terms with it. and i should tell myself that it just dun fit.

还是害怕不经意的听见你的消息

2146hrs
9:32 PM

i'm irritated. got this idiotic guy who called me early in the morning at around 7am to harass me and it's kinda sexual. dammit. should have just hang up when he dun tell me his name but i was too sleepy den. and the good thing is that my incoming calls are free. but nevertheless i shall curse that his private part will rot to hell man. decent guys will do it discreetly lor. if he's that desperate should just call the porn hotline or something and not do random dialing. asshole.

anyway. ytd had 2/7'03 gathering. not that good, cuz in the morning not that much people and eventually me and shiyun went over to The Cathay to watch Eragon, and i went for job interview. but well i didn't get in. maybe that manager saw me mimicking him when he's interviewing cherie. or that i kept glancing away lar. ohwell. so sorry to shiyun cuz we missed about 30mins of Eragon cuz waiting for my turn for interview. ohcrap.

but well, had fun with shiyun! hehehe. had our mini gift exchange of handphone pouches bought at Popular. hahhah! and celebrated meiping's birthday earlier (her birthday is TODAY!) with the cakes bought at Breadtalk. i think those cakes quite cute neh!!

and it rained at East Coast Park! argh. when me and shiyun alighted, it was raining damn heavily, so we called the guys who are at the bbq pit le, and they all said they didnt got caught in the rain. lol. but i still bought an umbrella and it was sorta drizzling over at the park lar.

the guys tried to start a fire at the pit and it was not so successful at the beginning. we did manage to do it in the end but it's still raining heavily, so we all moved to the shelter, where dean's parents brought over 2 portable bbq trays (dunno what's the name for them) and already got the fire burning.

we did manage to finish almost all the food - except for the buffalo wings - and it was kinda fun over there lar. hah. i was kena suan-ed by the guys (namely the BWG ppl lar) throughout the whole bbq. argh. i was even commented that i looked like African (by congshun) and an auntie from afar (by khairul). *^#&@*&#^@

but nevertheless, good job for dean! hee. had a great chat with his mother in the car while the BWG guys changed into their BWC tshirts. i think i talked the most while on the trip back home. found out some stuff in nyjc. ohmannn!! ohyar saw scott at the costa sands chalet and we all shouted shiukit's name (cuz in basketball team ma). heee.

then on saturday had council gathering cum bbq. had fun too! heee. got christmas present from fangyi. thanks! so paiseh gave the jersey to zhengyang le. =x it was nice catching up with fellow councillors. hah. and thanks to vijay for the 6kg of chicken that she had marinated! the chilli wings are nice! =DD felt kinda nostalgic when the Yishun ppl took the taxi home and the rest the bus. 4th ASC must remember 2009 at Thomson Plaza Pizza Hut okay! ((:

sunday went to hq for ncoc debrief. saw zone5 having ncoc examinations and met up with qingjun along with peijun during their lunchtime! heee. we haven't catch up on msn yet! if you get to see this send me a message online! lol.

anyway, for you, like i've told you on sunday, i would need some time to retune myself back. and i have this feeling that things will never be the same again. it's not something that i can just look away and forget totally about it, which was the case for the matter that happened 3years ago. okay maybe not totally for that matter, but i managed to get that thing to the back of my head, so that i wouldn't dwell on it.

but the words at your blog are really hurtful. you told me that's the real you (that is what i interpreted) and i would hafta get used to it. doesn't that mean you have been putting on a facade for the past few years? if that's true, then it's really disheartening.

1036hrs
9:45 AM

for starters, YES i agree with you that i DO have a lot of friends. and at the same time, i'm very aware that all majority of those friends are just friends or even mere accquaintances. and i'm not pining my hopes high that they would stand by me through thick and thin. i've been through many times scanning the phone book in my handphone and realised that i don't have friends that i can sms in the middle of the night. you said i'm not being a good friend myself and i also know that. i've been away from my classmates for a period of time for the second semester and i've regretted damn badly. i've been trying to salvage the relationship with my classmates and i'm still trying. for xingzhi's case, i know he disliked ventures, and finding out that he hated ventures is another thing. for the cycling thing i didn't know that i've actually complained to you about it. in case you didn't know, i went through a hell day just for settling the damn permit when i'm not even in the committee. and i did give him suggestions to do this and that.

as for you. i don't know whether i've told you before (i think i did), i can't outtalk you. the majority of what i've said would probably be rebutted back by you and i would be speechless cuz i can't think of a rebuttal. when you told me or wrote those things out, i didn't give you decent answers cuz i can't think of a decent answer to tell you! all that i can say are the cliche things that other people, whom you would tell the things to too, would have told you! listen, i admit that i'm stuck in my world and i'm still not exposed to the gory that the outside world has. i'm still freaking sheltered by my family and all i can do is secretly rebel inside. that's why i suck at interpersonal relationships and i still haven't learn enough to handle the world yet. maybe i should tag around you more to see how you manage your relationships around with people eh. i told you before that you can take a break when you wanted to, and that is before i know that you were that sick. i told you i can't guarantee cuz there's still a lot of things for me to learn. and after this part you just say that's so fake and cliche eh. cuz i'm still so naive and could not think as critically as you do.

maybe you're right that i don't feel anything. when i first read your entry i felt some sort of anger, cuz some stuff i don't agree with you. but as i type this entry out, it just suddenly fades away. it feels just like the thing that happened three years ago, when i saw that sms and felt so shocked that it actually came from you. except that this time there's more things involved, and i'm agreeing with what you have said.

i don't know what the outcome would be after i post this entry online. but you are someone that i really cherished as a friend. someone who would listen to all sorts of nonsense from me, give me sound advice and tell me about the politics that i never knew. they were really enlightening. sorry for not giving sound advice, cuz i'm never experienced in things that you're going through and i can't even think for myself. to tell the truth, i only think of myself as a close friend of yours, partly and that's because of stjohn. if not for that, you wouldn't be telling me some of the stuff, cuz you don't even let me know whether you're alive or dead. it's not as if i can sense your emotions or what.

truth does hurt. thanks for letting me know that.

2306hrs

on another note. it just seems so amazing that a world can crash down like that. what i once believed and had faith in have become like that. you know what, for a period of time i was even terrified to see you coming online, because i'm afraid that you would want me to think of solutions when all i can give you are seemingly feeble.

it's getting tiring from listening two sides when i can't even decide on my own how to feel and how to view the whole situation. yet i do not want either party to drift away even when i'm not of importance to either of them.

perhaps solitude is more suitable for me. even though i hate it.

2321hrs
10:27 PM

actually i think he is more better-looking on tv than in the photos that i found on the internet. hahah! so flower-idiot sia. but well i wun see him, or Liu Xiang, on tv anymore, cuz Doha games is ending tomorrow! (:

and i wanna watch a lot of movies! i wanna watch Eragon, Death Note 2: The Last Name, Curse of the Golden Flower (满城尽带黄金甲), Confessions of Pain (伤城), Deja Vu! and maybe The Holiday, Deck The Halls and Open Season! ohmann! =(

ohyar my neighbourhood got a person who can blow the tunes of 童话 and 杀破狼 on a flute! really nice! (:

1554hrs

3:41 PM

On the first day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree

yeahh! counting down to Christmas! 12 more days!

anyway here's HAPPY BIRTHDAY to CELINE & LEESI! finally seventeen ayes! =DD

i love today! had so much fun even though i walked around so much. and i did some maths! lol. and i finally tried Marche! not my cup of tea. tsktsk. but no service charge! lol.

today had gift exchange with some of e 06S05-ers! went to Marche at Suntec for dinner and i think the manager there dun really like us. hahah. i like e rosti and e stingray! yay. quite cheap, cuz i shared with peixuan! poor huihui cant eat much fried food etc cuz she's having NCOC camp tmr!

and i came to realise some of the guys in my class can be really nice! like e soft toys they bought etc. haha. i love my present! thanks to peixuan! heee.

after the dinner went to Orchard Road with peixuan huihui caiying liting to see e Christmas lights. it rained! but it's quite nice though. hehehe. walked around Heeren and took neoprints! =DDD

and i declare that i want ANOTHER PAIR OF HAVAIANAS!! hahh. new collection came in and it's really nice!!!! i love e new version of the trekking flipflops and the slippers are nice!! i love e white and blue one! but my current favourite colour combination is white and green! light green that is. =D

i want another christmas gift exchange!! ((((:

and i love this song:

Last Christmas

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognise me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

(Happy Christmas!) I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

(ooh ooh baby)

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Oooh oooh
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

I'll give it someone, I'll give it someone special special
Someone someone
I'll give it someone, I'll give it someone special
Who'll give me something in return
I'll give it to someone
Hold my heart and watch it burn
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it someone special

I've got you here to stay
I can love you for a day
I thought you were someone special
Gave you my heart

I'll give it someone, I'll give it to someone
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
You gave it away
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone

*
when we were in Action City, the song played! =DD

ohyar. ytd were watching live telecasts of the matches for Asian Games Doha 2006. first match was the men 100m hurdle race. it was as though everyone expected Liu Xiang 刘翔 to win! haha. then there was this split second when he turned to face the camera right in the face and he had this little smile that is soooooooo captivating! hahah. my msn display pic changed the next day (which is today). =DD

come to think about it, he looked a bit like Bruce Lee here. LOL!

but i think the tv station is kinda sick lar. replayed him of crossing the hurdles for like 2-3 times? and the playing speed is slower by each replay. eww.

and i think this skin is kinda cuteeee! heeee. comments! =DDDD

gonna go watch Doha games again! =DDD

2337hrs
11:13 PM

heyhey!

for the first time, i went for the annual presentation and banquet at Grand Ballroom, 420 Beach Road! lol. to be honest, it wasn't as grand as i thought it might be. i was envisioning windows closed, and then the air would be damn freaking cool in the hall. but turned out to be otherwise. without the air coolers, it can be really HOT! my table was near the windows, so at least there's still some occasional breeze. and luckily there's our new Zone Superintendent (actually not so new le, but ytd night confirm his position lar) Hansong! dunno who told me that if we anyhow press the buttons the circuit might just explode. lol!!!

before we even go up for the dinner there's like mini reunion at the zone rooms lo!! i was standing along the path and saw aeron with some food and he's opening a packet and i commented that we're going to eat dinner soon and he said he's very skinny. hahah!!!

then for the food. i think that's probably where part of the money that e hq got from the walkathon/flagday/donations went to bah. so much food!!! think got like 8-9 dishes bah. i left my table after the 6th dish i think. and majority of my dining partners went away too! hah. but the fried ice-cream is not bad. (:

for my dining partners i think they are rocking eh! my table is probably the noisiest in the hall bah. even simon came over to tell us not to eat and quiet down while there's people making speech and crap when ppl crap (supposed to be clap lar). but no choice lar, we're a bunch of noisy people. got me hweepeng gina yeening venod jianlin choonkeong gendy cecilia. the last two i'm not close with lar. the second last one i even got bad memories. (na2 will know! nursing lessons!) and we were a scheming bunch of ppl that shuns a certain someone out. but that person really very extra go wear so grand lar. =x

then met up with loads of otc ppl! now i know the guy whom i kept mistaking as jeffery my otc camp trainer. he's hanzhen! i was envisioning him as the hweekim (oscar instructor) type. no offence to the oscar ppl though! haha.

at there saw yongsheng zelda melvin qingan zhenshun stephanie alfred amanda daniel jacklynn eileen huishi chuiyee aeron william! n i took pictures with zhenshun qingan cuz i think they got damn cool hair!!! hahaha. zhenshun looked more beng with his new 公鸡-ish hairstyle. lol! and their zone (zone10) very zai lar. all standardise wear yellow zone top. bananas!=DD

for the presentations part, that *&@#&@(* pauline quek forgot about Yishun Town lo!! and it's not like Yishun Town were like the 10th or something lo. it's 6th okay!! cockeye. tsktsk. and her angmoh isnt that marvellous anyway. and zone3 all stood up to cheer for YTSS and when hansong went up to receive his appointment cert. lala! and zone3 did cheers (wanted to do yamseng i think) and took loads of photos! =DD

and well, the dinner dragged from 10pm to like much much later? after the dinner went to get changed and started chatting with the otc ppl! and it's quite a strange bunch of people, as in i didnt expect myself to really chat with them lar. budden melvin zelda yongsheng all like disappear very early. and gina got zoukout duty! sad! i'm only like 26 days away from my 18th birthday lo! =(

anyway we chatted till pretty late. was talking to daniel william qingan. strange right? and qingan said i looked like a rugger in my XL adidas jersey. hahah. and daniel is dumb!!! gave me such unglam nickname. ewwww. but they all quite poor thing lar. today still got ncoc. to spread their love around. haha! even saw a 灵位 in zone7-8 room. uber funny! xD

after that boarded william's 小红 (according to daniel, cuz it's so red!) and me daniel alighted at the mrt station. i was very shocked to discover that it was already like 2330hrs when i was in william's car lo.

in conclusion it's fun! it would be even better if i get to go for e zoukout pd. gina said might see lots of shuaiges over there lo! summore they would be topless! hahah i sound so deprived. but nevermind. i got to have my sleep and can read 蔷薇之恋 manga online! and later there would be a mini 06S05 gathering cuz we're all going for Chung Cheng High (Main) band concert to support hanming! can't wait to see them! ((:

and i cant wait for shopping!! =DDDDD

1118hrs
10:50 AM

孙燕姿 - 害怕

忘
我没有很努力要自己去遗忘
那些和日记一起收藏的过往
孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长

想
我没有很刻意让自己不去想
那些和照片静止的模样

我学着坚强
坚强到不用学着不想
学着遗忘

还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你
还是害怕不经意的听见你的消息
然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰
当拥有已经是失去
就勇敢的放弃

还是会害怕一个人时就很难忘记
还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定
然而当爱最后的出口是分离
我会这么相信
走下去

忘
我没有很努力要自己去遗忘
遗忘

1015hrs
10:03 AM

things have been rather mundane ever since arriving back to singapore about a week ago. last tuesday at the current time we're checking in for the flight already.

ahh. how time flies.

i sound like an old being. lol.

but it has been great, meeting up with friends etc. watched Happy Feet with shiyun! wanted to walk to Dhoby Ghaut from City Hall but we ended up at Chinatown! lol. but i succeeded at second attempt. yay! thanks to the person who walked with me. heheh.

had been going out for the past few days. like comp trainings, watching movie, making tshirts (for the upcoming BWC! sounds kinda weird though. i'm more used to the name BWG. lol) etc! and i did try to study okay. just that the environment aint conducive. lol.

ohyar. i want to watch 满城尽带黄金甲! but the name sounds really weird to me. and the name in english is Curse of the Golden Flower (sth liddat). LOL. and there's also Death Note 2: The Last Name. i guess Near and Mello will never appear bah.

and i want to buy cds!

seems like after coming back from Thailand i've been spending quite much money and dun really think a hell lot before buying, which i do in the past. lately i've been saying, i'll buy this after i get back the hundred bucks. like 100 bucks is a lot liddat. lol.

and neopets is fun! Advent Calendar!

=DD

1900hrs
6:52 PM

Backstreet Boys - Shape of My Heart

Baby please try to forgive me
Stay here don't put out the glow
Hold me now don't bother
If every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become
Oh yeah

Looking back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Sadness is beautiful
Loneliness is tragical
So help me, I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now don't bother
If every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become

Looking back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart

I'm looking back on things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
I'll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Looking back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Looking back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Show you the shape of my heart

*
dunno why i kept listening to this song. kinda hooked i guess. and some of the lines kinda applied to me.

i'm looking back on things i've done
i never wanna play the same old part

2035hrs
8:25 PM