a big piece of news dropped on me today.

it wrecked all my plans and while trying to salvage it, another piece of news dropped on me too, making it EVEN harder for me to salvage.

after much painful thinking, i made up my mind. it's either me, or you.

and i gave myself up.

so yar, that made me realise how hard it is for our paths to cross. not to mention the upcoming plans to go out together that is wrecked, just seeing you in school is already so hard. i need to find out when you would be having breaks, when you are having lessons, where you sit during our only common lecture, when and where you would be having your cca. and the list goes on.

and the thing is, i do not get lucky all the time.

maybe i should just be contented by seeing my eye candies, since somehow they kept appearing around me every day.

at least i wouldn't feel at a loss when i don't get to see them, like how i felt when i found out i couldn't watch the fireworks with you.

there's still a next year, but would things still be the same as it is now when next year comes?

i need to wake up from all the dreaming

1454hrs
2:38 PM