yesterday i was saying to myself, i should just go back to how things were before that darn phone call. back when i just walked to the back of the cafe during breaks and stay there to look at my eye candies. and not walking all over the cafe like some damn fool.

and then i took the train all the way to Potong Pasir today. i tried to be non-chalant when the train arrived. i didn't turn back as i walked to school, but i glanced around when we stopped at 7-11. i stayed in pace with the rest, and not desperate to walk so quickly to the school.

i pretended not to see anything when i stopped at the front of the cafe. but i still can't help myself and said hello. talked about the h1 exam and i soon left, before i would look like an idiot trying to find some topics to talk when there is none apparently.

i stayed at the back of the cafe after the exam, but i still tried to find a topic. and i still hung around the front of the cafe by kept going back to the fruit stall to buy sweets so as to sustain through the 3-period-GP and 4-period-chem consecutively. after GP i walked around 2nd floor, even though my chem class is at 1st floor LT2 (there's back doors at 2nd floor).

i'm really trying hard to get out of the routine that i've been doing for the past few weeks. i'm really trying hard to tell myself i shouldn't be so bothered about it. i'm really trying hard to tell myself it's not worth it.

get out of my mind, will you?

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