i've been watching My Lovely Samsoon dvd for like the past few nights since Monday (and last Friday i think). it started out with 2 episodes on Monday night, then yesterday night n tonight i chiong-ed like 3 episodes lar. siao lang. lol. i was tempted to watch 2 more episodes, and then i'll finally stop at around 11.30pm. even more siao lang. o.O

and when i came back to the computer, i realised i'm supposed to have an online meeting with my committee in OCIP Thailand. they probably think that i'm watching Singapore Idol. =x only 3 were present chatting. and they managed to complete e discussion! wow. and they probably think that i'm so not enthu cuz i didn't get into the committee of my choices (ie either logistics or publicity, which are my top 2 choices respectively, and social/cultural was the unnamed third choice. then i think glen wanted to get into social/cultural but he got into publicity instead. OH WELL), cuz it's like so far i've only attended e very first meeting when we chose the expedition and deputy expedition leader and got divided into our respectively committees. i didnt go for the first general meeting cuz i got Learning Journey (which actually ended kinda early. =P). and there was supposed to be 2 bonding sessions, but all were cancelled. then the next time we gonna meet would be next Wednesday, cuz it's a complsory thingy made by the teachers. =x

and then another thing is, we're supposed to like come up with a dance and seriously, I CAN'T DANCE! as in, i can't CHEREOGRAPH a dance. i tried doing that like 4 years ago, when i was in sec1, for december sjab camp, and i chickened out the last minute and let my seniors (e sec2s back then) to chereograph a dance for our group. =x so don't ask me to do a dance. i'm better at following how to dance.

so yar, i feel so anti-social in sa nowadays. it's like everybody has their own cliques and i just hang around outside e cliques. think it's because i've been pushing myself away from them for the past few weeks, just because i wanna see someone who doesn't worth me forsaking all the stuff that i should have treasured more. now it's like, i find it kinda like a chore and it tires me out trying to appear all over the school like some stupid idiot. seriously, you don't worth it. cuz it's like, i would see you chatting and laughing with someone else and then i'll get upset and it's totally no point at all. you're probably some idiot that wouldn't understand how girls think till a million years later. i curse you to make a fool of yourself when you go for dance class this saturday. or better still, screw up the performance tomorrow.

and then will it do me any good? no good at all. so what's the point of cursing you? it probably just makes me think of you more. ah crap. just get out of my life until promos are over, then i shall think about how to deal with you for the rest of the year, since it would be inevitable for me seeing you after the promos. the calendar is so packed with activities and i would probably hafta see you like more than thrice a week for all the stuff. ARGH.

i'm rambling away like some idiot again. oh well. better than keeping everthing inside yar? cuz i figured you would never find this blog at all. WAHHAHAHAH. if you found it..SO WHAT? what are you going to do about it? come and look for me next morning and whack me on the head and call me stupid or sth? but well, at least you would not be online tonight cuz you need to STUDY! hahahah. sa teachers are crazy. TEST AFETR TEACHERS' DAY CELEBRATION? are you desperate for some extra year-end bonus or sth issit? or you simply detest ____ and refuses to go for the reception for the teachers? then tell the councillors lar. they so poor thing hafta serve you all at the reception you know.

suddenly i feel so glad that i didn't run for council. otherwise i think i would drop dead anytime soon. so SAIKANG WARRIOR! roars.

oh well. think i've rambled enough. i'm running out of vocabulary for me to rant about. wahhahs. i think i got too high after watching the My Lovely Samsoon. it's so hilarious! xD hyunbin is so cute. so kiddish sometimes. and make me envy samsoon sooooooooo much! then i'll be like saying i want a boyfriend! cuz i'm sooooo deprived mann. hahah. or i shld just be contented seeing this sas boy who boards the 6.28am train (ie arrives at Khatib MRT station at 6.28am) at Yio Chu Kang and takes all the way to Dhoby Ghaut and then change to NEL to Potong Pasir! he's sooooo good-looking mann. hahahha. it would be even better if he's a sec5 boy. ohmygosh i really sound desperate mann. so maybe i should be contented by just looking at the good-looking boys and pretty girls. it's not like i would get as lucky as samsoon anyway. so! know my limits. =D

okay okay this just have to end. on a happy note, tmr's the last day of school! YAY.

2312hrs
10:47 PM

oh well. i'm stuck in school cuz of a storm that is definitely Cat1. and then i've got this Principal Dialogue which according to fiona, will be from 3-5.30pm. aww crap. i wonder what nonsense i would have to endure later. i would rather go straight home. at least i would not be caught in the rain and i wouldnt see him. oh well. and the school's internet connection is dreadfully slow. Hotmail has been uploading a file for like ages and i'm getting irritated.

time has been flying by damn fast this week, probably because it's the last week of the term already. one good thing is that i've passed my maths test! :D and i think i might have a chance to pass my chemistry test. lol.

looking forward to tomorrow cuz going back to Anderson and then go out and celebrate zhiheng's birthday! :D

and i've pre-ordered jay's album! :D:D:D

aww crap. dunno what to say le. this upcoming September holidays will be very packed. from camps to extra lessons to OCIP stuff. oh well.

okay, i should not think of you anymore.

=x

1432hrs
2:23 PM

just had BGI'06 full dress rehearsal today. hafta admit it's kinda crazy. =x

met up with the committee early in the morning, to realise that i've forgotten to inform celine that there's a change of venue (i mistaken the actual meeting place while chatting with melvin last night). and thus she got pissed. so sorry. =(

then yar, i realised qingjun is a very nice person to go to when you need help for homework, cuz yeanlih only know econs. hah. while walking to the coffeeshop, yeanlih qingjun came up with the pricing plan for us to ask them how to do homework. LOL.

met up with celine and settled down at the coffeeshop (it was the same one that i went with my OG after the disco night for first intake). then met waiching peijun jiaqing. after the guys have eaten, headed for serangoon stadium cuz need to change into full uniform.

then met up with the rest of the OCTs. started briefing at around 1pm plus, then discussed about campfire performance, went around the different stations before settling down cuz the supporting contingents start to stream in. then just walked around the stadium cuz a lot of stuff popped up, as i dunno the layout of the stadium beforehand, then need to change quite some stuff in my proposal. i've sticked like 10 post-its on my proposal lar. =x

did our own dry run before falling in into different groups at the back of the stadium for uniform check. then we started the offical dry run. quite alright i guess, and lots of questions/suggestions came back to me, which is good. otherwise i wouldn't know what might happen on that day. and thanks to the November group to act as the simulators for the dry run. and good job Juliet!

holding on to a walkie-talkie is quite scary, though i didn't use much of it. ha. but it's a good experience though. after the dry run met up with junyang.sir along with the rest of the I/Cs to discuss the problems. then went to fall in as a whole OTC. then debrief-ed and then jiu end le.

gonna have another meeting next Tuesday. eeks. and Mr Tan will be present! goodness. hah. and i kinda wanted to join huihui yeanlih melvin qingjun in having dinner lor. but well. sighs.

headed for the bus-stop with jiaqing to take 853 home. and then met weikeat at the bus-stop. while on the bus, weikeat found out that both of us lived near him and he's like how come you didn't tell me????, cuz earlier on he was looking for gina to go home together (and gina later said that he only treat her as his train kaki. lol). for me he can't remember is alright. but jiaqing same group as him lo! hah. so i said he got selective memory. haha.

then yar, walked home together with weikeat lor, cuz we're walking past my block first before his. he only moved 11 blocks to his current block lar. haha. kinda chatted as we walked. he said the curry that pauline mdm cooked is very nice! lol. and he's quite funny too. ahha.

if this happened during the first 2-3 weeks of OTC, i would probably like go totally gaga over him mann. ahahh. cuz that would probably mean that i get to walk home with him after the course. hahahh. but too bad, not interested le, even though i still find him not bad looking. the eyecandy that celine spotted today is good-looking too! hahah. looks like sjab still have some shuai ge after all. :D

then yesterday have AGM. quite sad lar, from 14 (out of 24), eventually only ended with 5 people lor. then only left with 4 exco cuz we reflecting about the exco meetings. but i think the programs are fun nevertheless. hah. and feels good to meet up with the yjc guys. hahh. long time never see them! okay maybe except for shanhong cuz i think i met him either last week or last last week at yishun bus interchange.

and! i seriously think something's fishy between an exco member and a non-exco member. their msn display pic is the same! ytd i told e guy about it and he changed his display pic immediately. then it's e same again today. on top of that, their msn nicks are VERY suggestive. hahha.

and when i was saying that guy with the girl, he said about me with another guy. doinks. if it's in the past i would probably like get a bit over-reacted abt it. but well, things change. =x

anyway just hope that he wouldn't see this entry.

i think i'm being kinda dao-ish yesterday to a certain somebody in the morning after i arrived at the hq. then subsequently i just went on talking to other people and not so much to him. it's till after the majority of the group left then i started talking more bah. anyway he's very stressed.

and so do the rest of the people out there. jiayou!

2115hrs
7:42 PM

i think i'm nuts.

i should be preparing to go to sleep, and not blogging down here! blehs. think i kena influenced by the old people in the AGI committee (ie qingjun yeanlih and e 2 SIs [Senior Instructors], ie junyang william), cuz qingjun kept saying his average sleeping time is at around 3am. yeanlih added he din sleep last night, cuz he got duty (he's a military police okay!) and junyang looked damn tired. and celine got really bad eyebags.

anyway, yar. think i'm like part of the AGI committee le, even though it's at the last few stages before the actual thing on next Sunday. =x and it's seriously crazy, with the meetings and everything. just had a meeting on Tuesday that ended at around 10pm plus and today's meeting that ended at around 9pm plus. ewws.

but the committee are a bunch of fun people! lol. yeanlih is like refering himself as the father of the little kids (me and zelda) when we went to buy ice-cream and banana milkshake with him (he treated us). hahhh. then we drew on him! hahh. and poor melvin is so stressed, cuz we kept digressing and the dearest chairman leovine is away in thailand. then qingjun steady mann. haahh. then got peijun who represents Oscar group. and not to mention the SIs. one came from army duty and another had a long day in NUS. hahhh. i digressed from the meeting to chat a bit with junyang along with huihui. hahh. the thing is he can smile de, just that he dun do it in front of us. lol.

thank goodness i finished the EOM in school today, if not i definitely would die mann. so good luck to all those working hard on their EOMs right now!

i'm so busy that i don't have time to jot down things about you

2337hrs
11:27 PM

for the first time in my 5years (and counting) years in SJAB, i'm staying overnight in the HQ for the NewBalance Hometeam NS RealRun 2006!

should have gone for last week's NUS Triathlon's public duty, then i could have watched the pretty fireworks! but well, everybody has their own commitments. =(

reached HQ promptly at 2030hrs, but the briefing only started at around 2100hrs plus. meanwhile i just hung around the carpark and chatted with choonkeong before chatting with another guy from Temasek Polytechnic. found out later his name is edmund and he's as old as me. quite interesting to chat with, and he thinks that i'm violent cuz i kept whacking/wanting to whack people. =D

then had briefing. paired up with qizhi as S1 (Spotter team 1) which is e first First Aid point available in the race. after the briefing slacked in the Lecture Room 1 (where we had our briefing) and chatting up before heading for Sentosa for a recce of the various First Aid points. went in the ambulance with hweepeng edmund waicheung venod gerald (from Hotel group) and the two simon sirs at the driver and passenger seat.

talked a lot of crap and i think i was the one feeling high-est there. hahhah. had been like that since i stepped into the HQ earlier on. wahhha. =D then while in the ambulance waicheung got sick. POOR THING! whahha.

and earlier on, while waiting for the ambulances to be ready for us to board, waicheung had a rather sexual encounter with uncle Joe's doggie, RINGO! (should be spelt like that) it's rather explicit, and i think it's partly because waicheung turned it on by caressing its head. wahhhah.

after reaching back to HQ at around 12am plus, got kinda hungry and thirsty. tony sir treated us to some food and drinks. took the orders and headed for 7-11 with edmund. after that went to the same 7-11 again with gerald cuz waicheung wants hot-dog (he's not feeling well), which ended up to be something that i kept teasing him about. =D

after buying all the food, finally settled down in the Zone3 and started mugging along with choonkeong, but i ended up surfing the net, and edmund joined me later while talking to his girlfriend on the phone (quite pretty nehh).

then played around until like 2-3am plus liddat. (all e rest, except for me edmund venod, are asleep) then i started to feel sleepy from doing maths. =x

started to wake everybody up at around 0415hrs liddat (celine joined us) and we soon dispatched for Sentosa at around 0500hrs plus. while at the Sentosa, we took pictures! but due to some reasons blogger decided not to load all those photos on lor. bahh. maybe next time. or you can come look for me for e photos when i'm online! =D

anyway really cam-whored a lot. was cam whoring before and after the public duty! (hopefully we're getting the goodie bag soon. sigh) wahhha. we're a bunch of crazy kids. (ie me celine hweepeng edmund gerald choonkeong) lalala. (:

and seriously, you'll see lots of interesting people during the race, such as a lady wearing three-quarters jeans, some people carrying big bags (i spotted one guy carrying a Le Coq Sportif square bag), some kids running the 10km race (i'm located at the 10km area), two ladies telling each other that they've walked rather well and a man talking on the phone, saying he wanna lodge a complaint, but the phone don't have loudspeaker option. (sth liddat). wahhha.

and e sweepers (ie the runners at the back who make sure that there are no more runners after them) wore those really nice LUMINOUS ORANGE ADIDAS SINGLET (over their tshirt lar). and surprisingly, there are this whole bunch of SJI boys doing duty. doinks.

after the public duty just went back to the zone room. then stoned down there before leaving with edmund. yupp.

saw you at the race today. how long has i not seen you? a month perhaps, ever since that evening during one of the Student Council Commendation rehearsal. i'm happy that you still recognized me, by sorta like nod your head when you ran past me. i think you're probably surprised that i'm there in the oversized lime green luminous vest that looks like the Corrective Work Order people. =P (plus a green First Aid pouch too)

and then i saw you again at the tentage, where you're chatting with some people. acknowledged me again. wanted to ask you about your results, but didn't have a chance to. anyway in the end before you left the place, you walked to where i was standing, and told me about your results. it's really a pity that you didn't get into the top 20 by a few secs (according to what you've said), but you've really ran very fast!

after you left, my phone received a message from you, asking me who i am (earlier on i smsed you about your results). then i realised that you've cleared some of the numbers inside your phone and my number is one of them. so i guess that meant that people should move on when it's time to, and not hang on when you know it perfectly well that nothing will eventually come out. i'm glad that i've moved on with regards to you, though i hafta admit that i went for the public duty partly is to see you again. and i kinda got excited when i saw you wearing solid black Havaianas flipflops. =D

i've moved on with regards to him, but i don't know when would i move on with regards to you..

1938hrs
3:13 PM

not that i'm actually hoping that it would be possible, cuz it never would. yupp.

but a girl still can dream, aye?

heading to hq later to stay overnight for tomorrow's public duty. first time staying overnight at HQ! i'm having mixed feelings about it. lol.

1918hrs

7:07 PM

life has been on a fast track lately. it's already halfway through week8 before we even knew it. lecture tests are crashing in, project work deadlines are cramming in every week, tutorials piling up as the days go by, SPAs upcoming, ccas and to have fun while trying to balance all those stuff. it's amazing how we managed to survive for the past 8 months and are still struggling through till like 2months later when we would be freed for the year.

today was one of the earlier days when i reached home before the sky darkens. had learning journey at URA which ended early. actually am supposed to go for the OCIP meeting but Chinatown is quite far from Potong Pasir you know? (:

thought that URA would be quite boring, but i totally loved the models that they had over there. i like the Ferris wheel and the little ship a lot! hehs. and it's not some brainwashing thingy which mervyn thought that i'm going through. lol. that boy is kinda spastic but interesting to chat with. hahahh. =D

and for the first time since March, the majority of 06S05 gathered somewhere outside school! and that is at Maxwell Food Centre, which is right beside URA. hahah. the food there is quite nice! makes me crave for more. but don't buy the char siew bao if you're expecting the regular sized ones. i felt cheated, but it tasted nice nevertheless. lol.

today sa got blood donation drive. but i can't donate blood cuz the iron level in my blood is not enough! shall eat more fish from now onwards. heh. and the soft toy is so cute. i want i want~! shall ask how to go for blood donation at Red Cross. sounds so desperate to donate blood liddat. hahhah.

have been rather hyper lately. have my high batt and low batt moments which i can take just split seconds to charge up! wahhha. even my class's girls got influenced by my lingo and started saying they have no batt etc. =D

i miss anderson's prawn mee. i miss anderson's $1 drumstick. and the drink stall don't sell the bottled iced red tea anymore! the auntie said that it's more expensive le. sigh.

i like it when my schedule is packed every day, but sometimes i kinda dread it. cuz i would not be able to appreciate some of the little things that comes along the way. like trying to maintain relationships with friends. just felt kinda sad suddenly at how certain relationships have ended up in a not so nice way after reading through the chat logs in the computer.

=(

1843hrs
6:31 PM

i guess i didn't turn out good towards the end of the exco meeting today aye? especially like when i was giving my two cents' worth about shaun's suggestion on how to bond the V1s together. i'm sorry if i sound really bad yar? wasn't my intention at all, really.

i don't exactly feel pissed as some of them thought i am, though i did get a bit pissed at somebody. i think the exco should know who i'm refering to. hahas. anyway, to me it's more like being cheated bah. i mean, we've spent so much time trying to plan the thing and trying to accomodate to what the ALs want, and then they just drop the big bombshell and say that they're gonna take charge. seriously it's crap.

it's understandable that they are afraid that we might screw up or something, but i think that we're doing rather fine. and it's like, so what we screw up? we ain't perfect people who make every activity a marvellous success. there's some point of time when we would fail and not do up to expectations. we may make mistakes for this activity, but there's always the reflections part where we can reflect on, and jot it down so that the next batch of exco can take note of it. that's how we learn isn't it?

but well, since things are happening this way, there's nothing much we can do about it right? so we might as well concentrate on our studies and prepare for the upcoming SPAs, lecture tests and most importantly, PROMOTIONAL EXAMS that would come in like 40+ days time. mark 25 sept on your calendar for the SA ppl.

jiayou!

and i'll try not to be so emo after all. fangyi you're already granted a place in my head already. hehes. i'll try to get him out of his designated place. =P

2240hrs
10:27 PM

okay lar. i feel better now. though i got kinda sian diaoed during the briefing/approval of plan (for BGI 2006) and not to mention darn tired. ha. reached the HQ at 7am plus just to count money for my corps for yesterday's flag day. surely some of you would have donated to the SJAB ppl aye? hehs.

anyway yar. so went to HQ darn early to count money. met laopa. heh. poor guy never sleep for the past 96 hours (when we met him)! and i was tempted to kapo the Polar pastries that he brought over. and one of the mdms looked kinda fierce. .____.

and laopa's like how come you didn't bring your beret when you wear half u? didn't you know that you're supposed to bring?? when i told him that i didnt bring my beret - again -. the other time was during National Competition. anyway i got away from it, so there. HEH.

after that went for briefing. before that was stoning at the main lobby downstairs. (we were counting money in the hall) crapped with leovine. hahh. that guy said he's SHY and SCHOLARLY! OMG. wahhas. and weihao got deiao diao by me when i said that since leovine can crap so much, he should be a crab. hahhh. =D

then was briefed about the OTC camp. the guy trainer is a SCOUT! woots. but didn't manage to ask him which district he's from. heh. and i need to learn about ROPES! cuz we would probably need to do lots of lashings for raft building. the last time i did raft building was during OBS and it was mainly done by khantkhant aizat etc. i just sit there and watch them build. LOL.

then after the briefing (need to bring A LOT of things!) is e briefing on campfire (the theme is metamorphosis, or whatever it is, according to our campfire chairman) and then about BGI, which took the longest. the officers bombarded them like crazy sia. whoa. and weihao got the stressed out look, while leovine, the chairman, looked totally relaxed mann. he was like smiling when we had eye contact. HAH.

the briefing is supposed to end at 12pm. but it ended after 2pm. SIAO MANN! was supposed to feel really hungry but wasn't. lol. i think the BGI, POC and Badger Comp ppl who still hafta stay back after the briefing is really kelian mann. GAMBATTE ppl! ((:

anyway went to lunch at Cafe Cartel at Marina Square. i was surprised to see SERVICE CHARGE in the bill lar. i wondered what's e service we're paying them for, and peijun said that it's e pouring of water and cutting of bread for us that accounts for the service. but seriously, i think it's bullshit. i finished my glass of water twice and they didn't fill it until we asked them to lor. BAHH.

then was feeling damn cold and full while at Cartel. hahs. regretted wearing FBT mann. =x after that took 857 home with jiaqing. he's damn racist lar!! lol. so i said he's one of them too. HEHE. then napped in the bus. i need sleep! roars.

but i still got loads of chem tutorials to do! and it's like due tmr and tuesday and BAHH! i'm going nuts. like what joel told me on friday, it's only 40+ days (think it's 42 days left from today) to the start of promos. ARGHH! i'm really getting worried. eeks.

well for starters, i cleared my desk, after like a million years or sth. then i've cleared some of the magazines away, so it's another plus too. and i've actually looked through my chemistry tutorials. wow. HAHAH. i'm going nuts.

so yar lar, i've crapped for like so long so it's time to take a break before i start talking about emo stuff, cuz i'm like chatting with him now lar. EEKS.

1900hrs
6:12 PM

yesterday i was saying to myself, i should just go back to how things were before that darn phone call. back when i just walked to the back of the cafe during breaks and stay there to look at my eye candies. and not walking all over the cafe like some damn fool.

and then i took the train all the way to Potong Pasir today. i tried to be non-chalant when the train arrived. i didn't turn back as i walked to school, but i glanced around when we stopped at 7-11. i stayed in pace with the rest, and not desperate to walk so quickly to the school.

i pretended not to see anything when i stopped at the front of the cafe. but i still can't help myself and said hello. talked about the h1 exam and i soon left, before i would look like an idiot trying to find some topics to talk when there is none apparently.

i stayed at the back of the cafe after the exam, but i still tried to find a topic. and i still hung around the front of the cafe by kept going back to the fruit stall to buy sweets so as to sustain through the 3-period-GP and 4-period-chem consecutively. after GP i walked around 2nd floor, even though my chem class is at 1st floor LT2 (there's back doors at 2nd floor).

i'm really trying hard to get out of the routine that i've been doing for the past few weeks. i'm really trying hard to tell myself i shouldn't be so bothered about it. i'm really trying hard to tell myself it's not worth it.

get out of my mind, will you?

2102hrs
8:53 PM

a big piece of news dropped on me today.

it wrecked all my plans and while trying to salvage it, another piece of news dropped on me too, making it EVEN harder for me to salvage.

after much painful thinking, i made up my mind. it's either me, or you.

and i gave myself up.

so yar, that made me realise how hard it is for our paths to cross. not to mention the upcoming plans to go out together that is wrecked, just seeing you in school is already so hard. i need to find out when you would be having breaks, when you are having lessons, where you sit during our only common lecture, when and where you would be having your cca. and the list goes on.

and the thing is, i do not get lucky all the time.

maybe i should just be contented by seeing my eye candies, since somehow they kept appearing around me every day.

at least i wouldn't feel at a loss when i don't get to see them, like how i felt when i found out i couldn't watch the fireworks with you.

there's still a next year, but would things still be the same as it is now when next year comes?

i need to wake up from all the dreaming

1454hrs
2:38 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

bah. kena influenced by mervyn who seems so excited about National Day that he's counting down online. LOL.

reached home just in time to catch some parts of the parade. and as i watched on, it just reminds me of the NDP that i've participated 3 years ago. BAH.

there're loads of memories, like the Saturdays that we sacrificed to be at the National Stadium, standing under the hot sun for an hour for each rehearsal; the endless KFC food that we got tired of, and the Pizza Hut food that only popped up towards the last few weeks before the actual day; the endless Polar mineral water and the Kwong Guan biscuits that the officers insisted on us that we must finish them all; the Polo sweet that i always bring along for rehearsals (they call me the sweet shop. hehe); the rehearsal where we hafta stand in the rain, and another rehearsal where a Boys Brigade boy (they were standing behind us) fainted; the square white umbrella that we used to form the Singapore flag, the Walls ice-cream that e 5 of us (me celine peijun jiaqing jingjie) adore to eat. and many more.

i miss NDP. awww. and the National Stadium will be gone. but i'll be looking forward to NDP 2008, cuz it'll be Zone 3 and 4's turn to form the marching contingent! (:

just did e normal celebrations. e message from Minister of MOE, CIP with the MINDS people (initially i thought they were all kids) until like 1pm. e concert quite nice. heh.

and i like Home really much. one of the few National Day songs that remain etched in my mind. it's really meaningful you see.

Kit Chan - Home

Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go

I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river that brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

Chorus:
This is home truly
Where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me
Where the river always flows
This is home surely
As my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone
For this is where I know it's home

When they are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too

So we build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river that brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

Chorus x2

For this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know I'm home

*
after the whole thing went to Junction 8 with peixuan liting zhenyew. walked around J8 with peixuan zhenyew while liting met up with her secondary school friends, who include sutyee wingyan! heh.

saw some of the Andersonians around, like my council juniors viting huda, people of my batch like yvonne.tan nyukmin. whee. hee. and met up with zhikai (so qiao that he came over to Junction 8!) to buy shiyun's birthday present. then met up with waikuan clarissa too. (:

ate some ice-cream at Swensens! left for City Hall with wingyan at around 4.40pm. ended up we're e earliest to reach there. lol. met up with 0622 people! hee. and met other people around there too, like junkiat yongsheng (+ his girlfriend. hehe) jianliang (he finally recognized me after a while. heh) stanley simone. met other people like xuelin jiayi (she's REALLY PRETTY!!!!! *swoons) along e way. and weishen at the big staircase outside Marina Square.

had 0622 outing! hee. got me chinping audrey michelle wingyan karthini weeter zhiheng gerald. cally xiying henry cheohao joined us later.

initially wanted to have dinner buffet at Sakae Sushi. the Citylink branch said Suntec City branch have. but when we reached there, they said only Funan IT Mall branch have. and then Karthini thought that Funan is in China. LOL.

and yar, it's always entertaining when you put gerald karthini together. we laughed our heads off while in Swensen's as they debated. haha. gerald kena KO-ed by karthini. hahahah. and we sang birthday song for michelle! heee.

after dinner went to the big staircase at Marina Square. went to find chinping audrey few mintues before the actual thing. but got to see the fireworks. VERY PRETTY. hehehe. but the bad thing is there's no reception for like quite a long time after the fireworks and it's really congested. i left at around 10 and then before reaching the escalators to Citylink Mall we're directed to climb some freaking stairs and ended up somewhere outside and opposite Raffles City. doinks.

reached home just minutes before 11. haha.

then today left the house at around 9am plus. for once the guys are early. HEHE. went to Long John Silvers at Marina Square. only me zhikai ordered breakfast, cuz it's like 30mins before the lunch comes out. hahah. but LJS quite bad lar. before the lunch oso dun have fries, even though it's only less than 30mins from 11 lo. so mean.

then while eating, caught sight of shanhong walking past LJS. went out and gave him a surprise. then accompanied him to the arcade and watched him play tennis game. ahhha. he crazy guy mann. went all the way from Suntec City. haha. met him at the arcade again when the whole bunch of us went up to the arcade to play games. haha. played some dumb games with shiyun. later with zhikai zhiwen. HAH.

after playing went to watch Click. nice movie! damn hilarious, especially about the dog(s) and the duck part. hahahh. and it's quite touching towards the end. yeppp. though the rest have opinions towards the ending for the movie. like should have ended when Adam Sandler died. bahh.

after that went to buy some stuff at S&K (for weide) and then NewUrbanMale for me. bought the flipflops! (cuz today my mum asked me if i would wear her slippers, and i said i wanna buy other slippers and showed her the Havaianas Asia website. then she gave me e money to buy the flipflops! wheee) took me quite some time to decide between the one i bought and the blue Brazilian Patia (sth liddat) flipflops which the others prefered. heh.

then went to Ang Mo Kio K Pool to play pool. got to play one round that took damn long to end. haha. it was plain playing cheat for the last 3 balls. haha.

Kaira Gong - My Island Home

This is my home
She's everything to me
Grace and beauty
In all that you see

My island home
Wherever I will be
I never will forget her
Nor will she forget me

Chorus:
And I will sing
A song of home
A land of peace
Where dreams are born everyday
My home
Wherever I may be
I believe
You will always be a part of me

My island home
Home of my family
This is my future
Where I want to be
(This is my future
This is my home)

Chorus x2

My home
Wherever I may be
I believe
You will always be a part of me
A part of me

龚诗嘉 - 幸福的图形

绿色岛屿 洋溢家的气息
温心也炫丽 独有的风景

美丽岛屿 有爱也有回忆
不管我身在哪里 都忘不了这里

Chorus:
我们用爱 跨越风雨
打造奇迹 梦想在这里成型
未来 更值得去憧憬
我相信 幸福是这岛屿的图形

美丽岛屿 充满爱和鼓励
未来的双翼 带梦想飞行

Chorus x2

未来 更值得去憧憬
我相信 幸福是这岛屿的图形

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quite meaningful songs that gave me e goosebumps when i listened, ie makes me feel patriotic. cuz got someone who once told me that he would leave Singapore after he earned some money. although it's like, okay, the town area is getting a tad boring (i'm now progressing from Orchard Road to City Hall le), but i don't see why you shouldnt stay in Singapore. although i have aspirations of having a job that will get me all across the globe, but i still want to stay here.

talk so much as if that person will come read my blog liddat. lol.

Econs test coming up! eeks.

there's a place that will stay within me
wherever i may choose to go

2138hrs
12:14 AM

feels kinda weird to be slacking around at home now. wahhs.

i have been like out of the house at night for like all weekends for as far as i can remember. campfire, outing, went to malaysia, blahblahblah. it just really feels kinda strange to be able to go online and blog at this hour. haha. last week this time i'm like filling in the evaluation form and then see pretty fireworks from the sparkling sajc cafe (we cleaned it okay!) at around 8pm. then left the school with a guy i just knew that day. hahas.

and then next week i'll be like not able to be online around this hour again. hehe. planning to go watch fireworks display!!! YAY. =D

today went back to SAJS for official handover and exco meeting. reached early! hahah. somehow it's always me and bryant who will be early lar. LOL. then was studying my econs notes. next friday H1 content subjects test! think i'm gonna flunk it mann. =x

the handover started very late, partly because david came too late with weihao steph.seow. think they enjoyed macs breakfast too much le. heh.

and the meeting quite funny sia. cuz one of the exco member has to be away for the handover part so it's like the meeting cannot proceed on well lar. initially was okay, but later on need to include steph.bay for the VLC attendance thingy then hafta wait le. then while waiting we started chatting along with the V2s. haa.

oh yar dunno why weihao bryant cannot do it at the first time. then while they were going through the roles and responsibilities at one table, i was talking to shaun about contact lens solution when bryant was like kept looking back at our table, as if to tell us not to sidetrack and talk about other stuff. but TOO BAD. =p

went over to the den to find belynda nasu zheyin. quite interesting. haa. then talked about VLC for a while more before we finally left the school at around 1pm plus. lunched at macs.

steph.seow ate Pepper Drumlets, then she peeled all the skin off cuz it's fatty. when we (me bryant shaun nasu alfred) were about to leave, i noticed the skin, then e guys (except for bryant i think) started eating the skin. hahahah.

went to Dhoby Ghaut with bryant shaun. followed them to Singapore Shopping Centre and watched them played pool. napped there for a while. and it's interesting to watch the 2 of them play pool sometimes. it's like, when shaun decided to do a double foul (ie he made a foul and he still continued playing. haa), bryant would be like 'wah liao leh'

towards the end of the 2hours, they started betting. hahhh. think they got some bad karma with the cue sticks sometimes. their cue sticks would like suddenly go sideways or sth. hhaaa! i'm quite amazed that i can just sit there and watch them play for 2hours.

and i've been thinking quite much today. think i should really just put it behind me. i shouldn't dwell on it so much. BAH.

who am i to you?

2004hrs
7:50 PM

felt like blogging though i dun have much stuff to blog about. BAH.

finally set my mind to go for OCIP. thailand here i come!

and at the same time, i decided to give up something. when i went for the meeting on Wednesday, i seriously felt as unenthusiastic as i can be. i nearly dozed off while discussing stuff lar. =x

and it's like, since i do not have the passion for it anymore, what for stay on when it will add on to the list of commitments that i'm supposed to have?

so yar, i'm very sorry about it. only told one person about it and she's quite sad cuz apparently i'm a kaki to her. so sorry!

so arranged to meet up with shiyun for dinner. YAY.

left the school around 4pm plus. reached Potong Pasir MRT Station at around 4.20 liddat. boarded the train at around 4.30pm. i'm supposed to reach Dhoby Ghaut at around 4.45 liddat. but i ended up reaching there only at arnd 5. cuz the damn train waited for like 10-15 minutes before it left Potong Pasir. and it stopped again at Farrer Park. what's wrong with NEL???

walked around Plaza Singapura. then headed for Somerset before shiyun realised she took the wrong bus and ended up at Toa Payoh. so arranged to meet her at City Hall instead, cuz i realised the restaurant along Orchard Road is quite limited.

met yubin on the train. heh. then saw LOTS of SA ppl (or ppl with flowers etc) all ready to go for Rapture dance concert at Esplanade. I WANNA GO! bah.

dined at Long John Silvers cuz apparently that woman only got 1.50 left. so treated her to Combo 1. lol. but that woman put her remaining 1.50 into my bag! grr.

saw iven in such interesting horizontal striped tshirt. i tot he would like wear shirt or something. but not horizontal striped tshirt for goodness sake! so not himbo. HAHA.

talked about loads of stuff. like shiyun having 桃花运 while nobody likes me. BOOOOO~ =(

heard about some stuff but since i cant find evidence, i think i'll just feign ignorance bah. no point act as if you know when the other party obviously don't want you to know.

besides, it's already in the past.

The truth will set you free - John 8:31-32

recently there are many verses put up at various spots in the school, such as the CC, the big patch of wall between the backdoors of LT2 (i think), the wall beneath some stairs that's right facing the netball court etc. the line mentioned above caught my attention.

will the truth really set me free? i think in some sense will bah. at least you know the truth and know what to do in the future. but i guess you will still feel hurt somehow if it's some painful truth.

期待 原来是一种伤害

2323hrs
11:04 PM

i got selected for OCIP. destination is thailand.

out of about 60 people who attended the selection camp, i'm one out of the 46 people who got selected. i thought i would be in that about 25% who wouldn't get selected, given my attitude during the camp, my sucky grades and my interesting record of 3ccas currently.

seriously, i wouldn't feel down or anything if i didn't get selected. but i did. so now the problem is to decide whether to go anot. thank goodness the first briefing is only next Monday. so i'll have some time to think it through.

i'm sorry if i've disturbed you too much lately by appearing too much wherever you're around and messaging you out of the blue, telling you all sorts of random things.

i need to convince myself that you're just a friend, just a schoolmate, just a working companion.

nothing else.

2143hrs
9:40 PM