heard something unbelievable from xiaoxuan today. think i was kinda like brooding over it for quite a while, though i was sorta distracted from it during lunch, cuz i was pressed by another question posted by fangyi.




















i remember when i heard the unbelievable news, i'm like it's alright, cuz i consider myself to have moved on from that phase.

but i don't know why i woke up at 6am plus this morning just to send a message, and feel so gek just because i didn't send it out at the time that i want.

i don't know why when i walk to Takashimaya, i just have to drop by there, even though i knew perfectly well that he wouldn't be there. at least for today.

i don't know why i went to search for her in Friendster and went to see her blog and then saw that entry. it just confirms what xiaoxuan told me about.

i stared quite hard at the first few lines of the entry, before reading the entire entry, and then saw the title of the entry.

i was stunned. REALLY STUNNED.

and i suddenly got an urge to cry.

i forgot who told me that i'm actually liking him, which i denied, saying that i've already put him behind, cuz i havent seen him in ages. the last time i saw him was exactly 2 weeks ago.

this is crazy. think it's only about 2mths ago when i first noticed him around, and then all the blah blah blah happened in the next 1mth or so, and then that's e end.

i've been living fine during the holidays, and i really believed that i've put him behind. and then this happened.

or could it be that i'm just 不甘心 that such thing has happened? after all, it's something that i wished it would happen to me.

gahh. this feeling would fade away in due time.

anyway lunched at Fish & Co with laopa celine waiching fangyi today. the Dhoby Ghaut outlet got power failure! gahh.

anyway e seafood platter and e seasonal fish in sambal (or cajun?) are marvellous. hehe. but the Kola Tonic is kinda too sweet for me. ><

fangyi was asking me this question repeatedly. shan't post the question here to protect those involved.

but i really meant what i've said lar. at the moment is just 好感. i don't know which side am i tilting towards to. somehow, i can just 安心地 tell them a lot of things. and they can make me feel touched by some of the little things that they do.

for dunno what reason i don't want to like anyone seriously for the time being. cuz when you dump in all your feelings in to like a person, it can really hurt.

i rather i just admire some of the good-looking guys and gush over them when i see them. and when i don't see them i can just continue on with my life. it makes life easier this way.

when you get hurt too many times, it's time to take a step back and protect yourself. before you get burned again.

sometimes it's hard to put certain things behind you, even when you've said it's already over

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7:13 PM