have been going to Orchard for the past four days. and i think it's totally crazy. o.O

saturday is with xinle yizhin eka zhengyang. we went to Heeren to take neoprints! (without eka who left earlier on) and then met melvin along e way. yupp.

sunday is with shiyun yanghan guojie congshun dean zhiwen weide zhikai pinghua (basically it's the majority of the BWG people. lol). watched X-Men 3: The Last Stand. not bad! too bad can't join them for dinner. oh wells. and it's quite sad cuz it's the last time i'll see yanghan before he flies off to Australia.

bon voyage in advance yar? so sorry i can't go to the airport this coming Sunday to see you off. =(

monday is with my mother cuz i need to buy some stuff for camp. when i walked past ______, i had the urge to go in. but my mother seems to be in a hurry, so just continued on.

today is with iven penghan chuanyang. a bit dunno why i went along. okay penghan wanted to buy the First Aid travel kit. lol. went to Lavender earlier on to get some camp stuff too. iven dunno how does a mess tin looks like! oh my gosh lar.

has been having this roller-coaster feeling for the past few days. like going up and down the sine curve like that. and i know why am i feeling this way. suddenly what i've said a few days ago seems such an irony to what i'm doing now.

anyways. will be going off for a camp marathon from tomorrow till next Monday. if you want to sms me, please be prepared that i'll only reply you next Monday. (:


7:15 PM

i think it's luck after all.

it's like, it's totally unexpected lo.

c'mon lar, 3 consecutive weeks leh. though next week would be impossible. hehe. =P

and yar, i shall follow what i've said yesterday (or issit Thursday?)

just friends. (=

on another note:

many people must have thought that i'm really crazy to join THREE ccas. my mother kicked up a hell lot of a fuss just now.

but seriously, what's the big deal about it? sometimes my mother can be THAT IRRITATING. it's as though after i've come to jc she's controlling me even stricter. like i'll become a guai kia liddat. gahh.

destined?

2209hrs
9:54 PM

watched The Da Vinci Code with peijun today at Lido. tio pangseh-ed by some people. oh wells. and sorry to my class ppl whom i've pangseh-ed. =(

and i walked in the rain from Plaza Singapura to Cathay Cineleisure lor. my blouse is damn wet cann. but luckily today's a PE day, so i got a towel and a tshirt! (though it's a lil bit smelly cuz i played Captain's Ball today)

but i'm kinda disappointed with the movie. not exactly exciting lor. if given a choice, i would rather have Angels And Demons to adapted into a movie bahh.

then met up with the ppl who pangseh-ed. lol. then went home.

I want to go to the new Cathay Cineplex to watch movie! i want i want! =D

anyways. i have been tagged by fangyi about 10 random facts about me.

1. i LOVE dark chocolates with a passion.
2. i love to sing. though my vocal cords are kinda permanently damaged.
3. i don't like to call people. i prefer smsing.
4. i want my boyfriend to be tall (it's not really a must, since i'm not that tall anyway), sporty, super nice/understanding/considerate and of course good-looking! If possible, try to make me love calling! =D
5. my dream jobs are: bartender, OBS instructor, a job in the media industry (such as a job in Mediacorp or some big record company). it would be the best if it's a high-flying job!
6. i want to travel to all around the world!
7. i love Snapple Lime Green Tea!
8. many people call me something like a song machine cuz i know a lot of songs. =P
9. i want to learn guitar/drums/saxophone!
10. my favourite classical song is Canon In D!

i'm nice. i shant tag people. haha!

tmr's last day of Term 2 le. and it's Anderson St John Corps' ROD! can't wait to see NCOs'05 again! ((:

the term is ending, and you'll remain in the memories of Term 2.

2059hrs
8:38 PM

the feeling is back again. it felt as though i'm going back to the end of first 3 months in nyjc.

back when i'm feeling torn between the choice of sajc or nyjc. and after getting my posting, whether to start a new life in sajc or appeal back to nyjc.

sajc has been fun, and i've met many new people. but currently i'm feeling depressed. and i don't know how to get myself happy.

and before this week i'm still very happy and all, dreaming about many things. but over the weekend many things crashed in, and all the dreams are gone.

i wonder, without that phone call, how will the things between you and me be like now?

perhaps, i can still dream. and the distance would still be there. when things get too close for comfort, that's when one can get hurt easily.

and i hate this me.

假装多好 依然是 依然是暧昧的tone调

2019hrs
8:09 PM

this is crazy.

firstly, i seemed to be linked to somebody. i dunno why am i linked to him, but the guys who started it seems to enjoy talking about it. they talked quite much about it today. -.-

secondly, i loitered in town long enough to see him outside the shop.

and yesterday jesmine said that i sounded as though i'm his girlfriend liddat, cuz i seems to know a lot of stuff about him. but i don't think so. cuz that's e superficial part of him.

thirdly, peijun said something will happen in a few weeks' time. and i don't know whether i want that something to happen, or not.

假装多好 我只要 只想要再拥有一秒

1745hrs
5:27 PM

it was a hectic day today. =x

and i don't know why i am feeling that way towards you. why do i feel as though i'm relying on you for something, when there's nothing at all?

i guess i'm just thinking too much.

talking on the phone late at night is not good. not good at all.
cuz it makes people think twice about how they feel regarding the person that they've talked to on the phone.
2358hrs
11:59 PM

i guess the sine curve theory works after all. =(

yesterday was like so damn happy when we won the rugby finals. then was chao excited about today's soccer boys semi-finals and hockey boys semi-finals, both against VJC. actually Venn was assigned to support tennis boys semi-finals, also against VJC, but the majority of us chose to go for the soccer match instead.

sadly, we only won the tennis semi-finals against VJC. the other two we lost. =(

was like cheering like mad for the soccer match lor! we even got drums okay. and iven said that i looked more like a council nominee, cuz i was standing alongside with the other councillors, cheering the soccer boys on.

but wells.

then after that chiong-ed down to Delta Stadium for hockey match. we also cheered like mad lor, especially since we've received news that we won for tennis. initially i wanted to ask him to teach me about hockey de. but he seems so serious when watching the game, so decided against it. then at the last few minutes of the game, VJC scored a goal. arghh. then when the last whistle sounded, his expression is so.. grim. all i can do is to give him a pat on the shoulder. oh wells. it reminds me of the zone competition this year..

everyone was like so sad after the match has ended lor. the sad feeling was heavier at Delta Stadium than at CCAB lor. sighh.

and waiching told me that the VJC principal (think so) said that cannot let SA go on a winning spree. ARGH!

so sad. to think that this afternoon i was saying that if hockey boys won, we would be staying at Delta Stadium for like 2 plus hours next wednesday, cuz the hockey girls and hockey boys finals are back to back de.

=(

your smiley face doesn't convince me that you're alright..

2012hrs
8:04 PM

SAJC WON RJC RUGBY!!!

oh my gosh cann!!!!! WE'RE THE CHAMPIONS!!

it's like, first we won the 18-yrs-champion ACJC you noe. then we went on to go against RJC for finals! initially we were leading, then it was rjc leading. then we draw. then we WON!

but wells. i was at girls hockey semi-finals with RJC. hehs.

the first hour of the match is really can dun watch e la, cuz e exciting part is at the end of the whole match. it's like, we got in a goal at arnd a few mins before the match actually ends? then rjc just have to score in a goal. oh wells.

then had penalty. it was at the TENTH penalty when we finally won cann. haha! i screamed until i zao xia cann. and we started singing the college anthem. cuz by then rugby match already ended and we've planned that if we won, we would sing the college anthem! hehes. so exciting sia.

but girls soccer lost to TJC because of penalty. oh wells.

tomorrow got 2 matches against VJC! Boys soccer and boys hockey! don't think i can watch the soccer match cuz it starts at 3pm and i end school at 2.45pm. but surely will support guys hockey!!

i'm so excited. haha.

please give us some holidays! =D

2025hrs
8:20 PM

a few years ago, hazelina told NA2 about the SINE CURVE theory:

life is like a sine curve. there will be times when you fall to the minimum point. but after a while, you will start to climb up and head for the maximum point again.

till today, i still believed in that theory, and used that theory to cheer other people on.

and i think it kinda applies to me now, though i still don't see that much picking up yet. (:

but still. how lucky can i get? i mean, the odds of it actually happening is really very low, and i was just trying my luck lor.

and guess what, i got lucky. =D

i'm not asking for much, i'm just happy that i actually got lucky. after all, how many more lucky tries can i get after the term ends?

i'm also happy that i got to know the bunch of people through Aquila Ventures. we do crazy things together and we really enjoyed each other's company. charissa who's always on time but hafta wait for the rest, fangyi who's been a companion since secondary school, eka who's the rich kid but kept saying he live in a one-room flat, zhengyang the another rich kid (he got iPod video for birthday present cann!) who claims to live in a longkang and seems to love clubbing a lot, shanhong the 3rd rich kid who claims to live in a longkang in Bukit Timah and can be really nice yet mean at the same time (he said that i look funny when i got pissed! and he likes to suan me lor)

and of course joel my cca partner/darling. haha. though you've never joined us for the study session and the birthday celebration, we still love you loads! hee. looking forward to walk with you to school again! =)


can't wait to see everyone again during next saturday's gangshow. (:

i'm thankful for the life i'm having now, even though my heart is still unsettled..

1908hrs
6:56 PM

杨丞琳 - 理想情人

穿上洋装 戴上手表
时间快到 心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次约会来临了

金色的阳光洒满人行道
换了新唇膏 把头发弄好
要你看到 我的好

喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真

我相信 找不到有比你更好的人
你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会 有我的份

好想知道 你的一百分 会给怎样的人
亲爱的你 不要再陌生 增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你 把感情升等 朋友变成情人
可不可以 告诉我标准 不要让我一直等

听着那 时间滴答的走 对街的你在点头
好像一个梦 渐渐走到我前头

*
this is a situation that i don't wish i would get into. it make me feel as though i'm going back to the nyjc days, or maybe just the anderson days. where i paid too much attention on a person.

i'm not sure if i'm really like that now. i hope i'm still clear-headed at the end of the day.

today i would like stare at my phone sometimes and then my mind would just drift away. to something that i would only dream of.

i started drinking hot teh tarik again. i'm choosing fruits over prata now (okay that's because fruits are cheaper than prata. lol). and i'm considering to stay back in school to do my homework. (that's because i can't study at home. bleah)

nobody is here by chance.

i really believe in that phrase now. gahh!

will we be like what your name suggests?

2207hrs
9:52 PM

went back to Anderson today for Speech Day. saw so many familiar faces in so many different kinds of uniforms. it feels good meeting up with the old friends in the familiar place that i call my alma mater of 4 years.

seeing Speech Day reminds me of the Speech Day last year. like how Tan Teck Poh was unhappy with me by my poor mannerisms when we faked a GOH departure from the canteen. i was pissed off with him too kay.

and the great time we had taking photos in our blazers - some of us even took off our ties! and right after taking photos we hafta chiong back into our positions. and the balloon fight at the side gate with some of the Chinese scholars.

i miss Anderson. oh wells.

i think my mind is going into an overdrive. this week has been a hectic week for me, with so many deadlines to meet and everything, such that i don't even have the mood to speak during the GP presentation meeting yesterday afternoon.

now i realise why the seniors are not approving of us to join so many CCAs. you can really go crazy when projects and school work starts crashing in together. and the damn thing is i got 3 tests next week. luckily the Big Walk thingy ends this week.

and i realise i couldn't exactly put you out of my mind. it's like, after finding something out today, i'm like kinda preoccupied with it lo. even though in the later part of the day i still get to talk to you, i'm still quite haunted by it. gahh.

i shouldn't think of you so much. cuz i would miss you when you leave..

0014hrs
12:04 AM

it's a BAD BAD week can. so unlucky!

firstly, i failed my Physics test (that's expected lar)

secondly, i had a not so happy encounter with A² on Wednesday.

thirdly, i found out that my eyecandy's in a relationship.

then today i LOST MY WALLET!

so sad cann.

actually before that think got omen lors. when i was walking into Wisma Atria via MRT station, i took out my specs to wipe it clean. then someone knocked onto me and i dropped my specs. then a baby pram came along, taking my specs along. lucky it wasn't spoilt. =x

then went to Takashimaya's Pepper Lunch cuz i thought that's e branch that fangyi told me about. (they were at Isetan's Pepper Lunch) i went in once, then came out. think i checked my wallet for some stuff den. then i walked into Mos Burger to wash my hands. think i kinda shoved my wallet into my bag. then later when i wanted to take out my wallet cuz i wanted to just leave and go to library, i realised my wallet is GONE!


so sad can! used e phone at Pepper Lunch and my mum practically screamed at me. her voice damn loud can. she told me to take taxi home. but i sorta waited for zhengyang at Orchard MRT station cuz fangyi mentioned earlier that he's going home at 6.30pm. but then i remembered my cousin lives in Somerset, so rushed over to her house.

called them up and arranged to meet later.

i agree that it's my fault that i lost my wallet, but it's kinda sad that my parents arent very sympathetic with me can. my mother scolded me like siao after i reached home. my dad initially just told me to go shower and have dinner. then later scolded me too. and somehow my mum can link to other random stuff like my messy room when scolding me for losing my wallet. =x

SO SAD! still hafta pay up for MJC choir concert and so many presents. i'm going broke le lar. not to mention i wanna get a new wallet too.

dear wallet, come back to me will you?

alcohol is a good way to drown your sorrows you know.

2209hrs
9:56 PM

after feeling sad till today morning, i decided not to brood so much over it le.

like what deannie says, it's normal that your eyecandy is in a relationship. if not why would that person be your eyecandy right?

besides, i don't know him and he don't know me.

and i did a really crazy thing today.

I WENT TO HEEREN!

super OH MY 天 cann. i actually did it. initially i didn't plan to go there de, cuz i was at Esplanade de. but i hafta go down to Spotlight at Plaza Singapura and it's within walking distance to Heeren, so decided to pop by.

but when i was outside that shop, i chickened out at the thought of going in. so i'm like, walk outside the shop while trying to peer in. didn't see him, but that doesn't mean he's not inside lar. but i kinda can't imagine him in those kind of tight singlets, though i've seen him in a singlet before. =x

and jiaqing's like, you sure you don't want to go in? when i told him to like go le lar. according to him, since i've went to heeren le, might as well go in and see see right. but i'm like in an attire that totally don't look like i'll shop in those kind of shops lor. so yar, left the place. kinda positive i didn't see him inside.

after getting out of Heeren, told jiaqing that i would be able to see him if i'm supposed to. after all, i do met him coincidentally once you know. ;)

anyways. thanks to jiaqing, for accompanying me down to Heeren from Plaza Singapura even though he's going out early tmr and got an Econs test coming up on Monday, treating me to ice-cream and letting me eat the last fried squid. hee. =D

and also thanks to szehan for popping by! wouldn't have finished so quickly without your help. might even still be stuck at Esplanade now if you didn't come along! (:

would be meeting with some of e Aquila Ventures V1s tmr! excited. but we'll be mugging though. who cares!

放开手 退一步 就能海阔天空

2236hrs
10:08 PM

i'm sadd.

cuz i just saw my eyecandy's status in Friendster as In a relationship.

then yesterday had a not exactly happy encounter with A².

i'm sad can! =(

keeping a distance is probably a good thing after all.

1127hrs
11:25 AM

ALAMAK!

my current pet phrase. ((:

today did e 5 stations for NAPFA (ran e 2.4km yesterday and i got 13:11 cann. think is my best timing so far bah. =P) and i spent e longest time at standing broad jump. e rest quite easy to secure A and it's always e standing broad jump that prevents me from getting e pretty 30.

it's like, i see xiaoxuan peixuan yumin nathalie louisa fiona they all so easy can jump to their As - nathalie fiona even hitting 200 cm and above lar. then i keep on hitting 170 only. my first try was like 175cm, but mr sim dun want see. EERR! then got another time think i hit 180, but i landed backwards. o_O

but luckily, after numerous tries, i finally got a 172! hurray to GOLD! i'm so happy cann. then i pei-ing peixuan to re-run her 2.4km next week. hehes!

and today i also learnt about something, though i think e person who told me don't exactly sounds irritated or what, but i still think i'm kinda in e wrong. just reminded me of how things were like back in nyjc. it's a vicious cycle, so i must break free from it! i mean, only 3 weeks left to e June holidays you know.

my thighs ached like mad when i climbed e stairs up for tutorials lor! gahh. n e right side of my neck hurts. n my face felt disfigured - got so many pimples lar! n my nose is still peeling. --"

for once i can explain physics stuff u noe! i'm so proud of myself. PHYSICS LEH! for a person who only passed ONE physics test back in secondary three, it's really an accomplishment. *pats my shoulder*

after e physics extra lesson went to cafe with huihui peixuan to do e GPP. we so efficient lor! hehe. and they saw him. so obvious among a sea of yellow. hehe. and i dunno why i mentioned e other one lar. actually i oso dunno why xiaoxuan e other time mentioned e other one. lol.

stayed in school for a while before heading for Plaza Singapura (Mr Sim's green 25th Student Council tshirt is so copy cann. actually is e Once a Saint, always a Saint design, den below that then put 25th Student Council.)

Spotlight don't have wires! me penghan christopher wandered arnd like lost souls until a lady at one part of e shop suggested us to go Art Friend at Takashimaya. so met up with iven and had dinner at KFC (chuanyang went back to SA for guitar concert)

after dinner walked to Takashimaya. den we talked a lot of random things. even christopher joins e random club lar! can't believe he came up with the Hotel Phoenix thingy. o_O n e Tom Cruise + Captain thingy. WAHAHA.

then inside Art Friend got this uncle also chao random can! he can like start to mock marching and we all call him SIR! hehe. before we left he like saluted us lor. so we saluted back and say BYE SIR!

and iven's our main guy for the photos. hehe.

alamak lar. wanted to upload a picture but this blogger keep having probs. ALAMAK. ah wells. next time bah. though i think it's a great picture. hehes.

so tired can. tmr will be more tired lar. siann!

jiayou for chem spa tmr!

2232hrs
10:04 PM

i don't know is it a habit of mine or what, but i like to blog in detail. haha. so that kinda explains why my entry is longer than fangyi's, even though we're blogging about the same thing. and i shall try to blog a short entry. here it goes.


today was kinda horrible, cuz i carried a super duper heavy bag. and i dun even know why it's so heavy! might be because of the additional camera though. but well.


i think i'm gonna flunk my Physics test. i mean, i kinda like dozed off while doing the paper and Mr Chia thought that i've finished my test lor. it's like out of 5 questions, i'm not sure of 3. that's VERY BAD. oh wells.


during the first break, i was kinda kena put down by Ron (one of the SAJC mentors) and Mr Sim! just because i made a dumb statement. but well, it's really dumb, now that i think about it. but seriously, i can't link Mr Sim to that lar. it's so not him.


and i've decided to set up Mugger's Club le! many of us got so demoralised after the Physics test. and i do want my results to look nice for the first block test, though i think it would be rather hard. =l


during second break, was talking to Mr Sim again. and he got his W810i at 200 bucks plus lar! siao lar. weide got it on the first day of promotions and e price is like 500 bucks?


and celebrated Maurice's birthday after chem extra lesson. the female figure + pink spaghetti top is really a crazy idea!! hehe.


now as i look at my schedule, i realised my life is pretty packed at the moment. there's meetings, concerts, tests and extra lessons cramming into the 5 days of schools. i guess that marks the start for my jc rush. and i've actually decided to join Ventures as my 3rd CCA. e whole class is like SIAO ARH when Mrs Loi read out my 2 CCAs (SJAB and SSC) and i said i'm probably joining Ventures.


i need to work out my life now.


1801hrs
5:50 PM