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Saturday, July 11, 2009, 3:00 PM
I Believe
寂しくて 言葉も出ない こんな夜は
君の笑顔 抱きしめ眠ろう humm
ふたりなら どしゃ降りの雨 凍える朝
手をつないで きっと歩ける そばで
I believe 消えかけた あの日の夢
いつでも 手をかざし守る
忘れない
When I'm feeling small
When It's cold outside
I don't know who I should believe
And when I needed someone special
just by my side
Who was there?
I believe someday I will love
Someone who's by my side
Oh someday
My special one will come along
I'll pray everyday
I believe 消えかけた あの日の夢
いつでも 手をかざし守る
So I believe もしも風に ふるえている時は
二人で探そう 日の射す場所
Someday I will love
Someone who's by my side
Oh someday oh someday
I keep on praying everyday
*
this song by Yamaguchi Yuko came into my mind quite randomly this morning, and i went to find the song.
didn't watch this show (i think) but i read the book (adapted from the drama) when i was like arnd pri6 or sec1. can't really remember the storyline but it's like the early version of 败犬女王, where soichiro is younger than natsuki. but they didn't end up together. to a certain extent they do feel something for each other, but because of their age (i think) and that they had their respective halves, they didn't acknowledge their feelings and thus merely treated each other as very good friends. one of the websites wrote that to natsuki, kugata represented bread while soichiro represented love. thus choosing kugata meant that natsuki is a practical person, and wondered if she would regret in the future.
she would, but there's no turning back. soichiro could have gotten her to stay by saying something on the day she's leaving with kugata. but he didn't. so whatever that had happened will stay in the past as it is.
*
for some strange reason i kept reminscing the past, like old songs that reminds me of the different phases in my life just randomly popping out in my mind, and old dramas that i suddenly felt like watching, eg Over Time and Long Vacation. it's as though i wanna go back to the past, to go through whatever i had went through back then and if possible, change the things that i wished i had changed back then.
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went for ntu odac foot (freshman overseas orientation trip) briefing yesterday. it was a mini reunion for me as i met lauren (lihui. need to start getting used to call her lauren) mychelle jocelyn (from sajc too. 06s18) perrine (northland and anderson junior) my group seems pretty okay budden there's room for improvement. shiyun said maybe everyone will open up even more after the camp starts. maybe.
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过去的，就是已经过去了，不论它是以什么形式存在于过去的时光，或好或坏，它就是以当时的现状凝固下来，不会有改变，能够改变的，只有未来．
~《心跳》
Thursday, July 09, 2009, 8:36 PM
run
i'm going to go for this! totally cool mans. running in the prison! probably running 10km with boss and he said he will wait for me at the finish line. lol. and he is thinking of asking the otc trainees to go and we will sign up together under corporate and our company name is SJAB OTC. wooooo. but i want to be an early bird! cuz can save la. lol.
peixuan is going too, but she wanna just do 5km fun run instead of 10km competitive run. me wanna chiong 10km! so that means from next week onwards i'm gonna run regularly! this is the kind of motivation that i need. (:
ohyes i'm skipping hss (humanities & social science) camp for odac camp! haha. i figured i can know the peeps in sociology when we go for lectures and tutorials together! :D
Tuesday, July 07, 2009, 12:54 AM
something to ponder
i had planned to write this in the later part of the day, but since i'm using the lappie to send out some urgent stuff just now i might as well write it now. got delayed cuz i was playing bejeweled blitz (i'm kinda obsessed with it. i broke my own record earlier on in the afternoon but the network didnt save! sadded).anyway i met up with some friends/ex-colleagues last night. was chatting about what's happening in each other's lives when we came to the topic that we kinda talked alot about it back when we were working together: the relationship status of one of us (not me). caught up on the stories between her and her bf and i was quite surprised to hear that she is now in some sort of rough patch with him now, cuz back when she haven't got together with him, the impression that i had of the guy was that he is nice and everything.
so while chilling out at starbucks after dinner, i was telling my friend that she should really consider breaking up with her bf because well, if she is having thoughts like we're better off as friends (they were friends since secondary school), they should really switch back to the previous status. then she told me she is used to having a bf around to care for her and for her to care for him. which i can understand for her situation, because she's with her previous bf for like 7 years since secondary school until they broke up last year, and shortly after the breakup she got together with her current bf.
then i realised our difference. if what happened to her bf is applied to my bf i would have broken up with him straightaway and be mad at him for the longest time, yet my friend tolerated with him and her anger dissipated the following day after the discovery of that matter. she said that she would probably feel lonely if she broke up with him, and i can understand, because she's used to that kind of attached life. on the other hand for me, my life is quite packed with stjohn and i'm accustomed to singlehood, thus it is rare for me to feel bored. i mean, i still have games and books to fall back on even if there is no stjohn. not to mention school is starting next month!
what i didn't tell my friend is that she should start having a life without her bf at times, like going for yoga classes or something like that. and that she should not be comparing her bf with our common friend (who was with us last night) who is a superb bf (he bought a present for his gf for his birthday. lol! he said cuz she likes the bag and that the idea came to him last week. his birthday is coming soon), because well, i think guys don't like to be compared.
and after last night, the urge to stay single is stronger, because i do not want to be caught in an emotional turmoil like my friend, on top of other reasons like me having a higher possibility to choose to hang out with friends more than with bf (重友轻色 in other words), me don't want to be tied down and me wanting to roam around freely without having the need to tell anybody. after all, i was urging this same friend to break up with her previous bf along with the perfect bf/ex-colleague of mine last year because the relationship was not healthy and she's not forceful and determined enough to end the relationship. and now i'm doing the same thing, because she's not willing to let go even though she know that things are going wrong. i don't want to be blinded, because that ain't healthy. and i don't want too much complications in my life.
best wishes for my friend.
Thursday, July 02, 2009, 10:24 PM
beat it
yeah i know i'm like almost a week late in writing this, and there's probably a million people who had written a tribute to this King of Pop who had an impact in their lives one way or another.
i do remember Michael Jackson from my childhood, other than the vcds that my dad would play once in a while. i think my dad do have blood on the dance floor vcd. the song that i remembered most vividly is Smooth Criminal, probably because when i was young me and my brothers would play some michael jackson game on Sega and the music that was featured is Smooth Criminal. in fact, the backdrop is the same as the one we see in the video! michael in the game would go up and down the stairs doing some dance moves to whack the baddies and then will go WOOO! as he go down some stairs that will move down as he goes down (as seen in the video)
was watching 完全娱乐 yesterday and it has a mini-MJ special. then i saw some part of the lyrics for Beat It, and i find them meaningful! i mean, michael jackson do write meaningful stuff like We Are The World and Heal The World.
Just beat it, beat it, beat it beat it
Nobody wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
and then i was listening to another song, Wanna Be Startin' Somethin', when i realised he chanted a part mamusaymapusamamapusa repeatedly in that song. gurmit might be surprised to hear that it originated from Michael Jackson instead of Rihanna's Don't Stop the Music. he was saying yeah i know it's from Rihanna cuz the idea came from that song! when i told him that it was from Rihanna. perhaps the songwriter of rihanna's song is a fan of michael jackson and incorporated that part into the song. lol!
it's okay if you don't understand what i'm saying because nobody will. hehe
*edited:
joshua just told me that mamusaymapusamamapusa originated from the song Soul Makossa, and the singer (or the songwriter?) sued michael jackson and rihanna. LOL. blame it on himself that he didn't make it as big as michael or rihanna! :P
Wednesday, July 01, 2009, 7:37 PM
let's write
okay i'm abit inspired to write, though the things that have been happening over the past few weeks have been rather mundane.as usual otc was kinda crazy, especially when i'm operating on my own. but thankfully there's yuanzheng who helped me to staple the notes when i was printing them on saturday. he poor thing la, go down to hq just to open the otc cupboard for me. the funny thing is that instead of buying the paper on saturday and then bring over to hq for me, he bought it on friday and brought it to hq on friday. i was quite surprised when he appeared on saturday empty handed, and after he opened the cupboard he said i perform magic and then the box of paper appeared after he removed the 2 rims of paper that was left over from camp. then on sunday he bought 9 more rims of paper! he super nice ok! this is the kind of logistic officer we should have! wayyy better than the one we had last year. left siying and yongsheng on their own ok. TSKKK.
sunday was like all over the place, because there was the chief comm badge ceremony. met friends like ivan who is irritating as usual and charmaine they all! (: the theory lessons were pretty ok, save for Ultimate Challenge 2. ha. and then there's our standard dinner after the meeting. :D
went through some stuff since monday. i've decided to opt out because it's not suitable for me, but it's persisting to stay around. i can only say they have awesome willpower. i admit it's attractive, but it ain't my cup of tea.
now i can't wait for the orientation camps to come!